Hello,
Let's see, I am 26 mtf. I don't really know what to say as I am very shy and reserved person, so I might just get into a ramble as I do that when I am very nervous. :(
I have always had thoughts and wanted to transition since day 1, its one of those things I have always had in my mind but never put into motion till now. Mostly out of fear, I live in Texas and the deep south isn't always the most inviting(Is Texas even considered part of the South? IDK but anyways)
I came out to my fiancee, she is the most accepting person in the world. Aswell as to my Mother, and Brother. They both took it fine I guess.
I have been on HRT for going on 3 weeks now. Its a two fold thing, on one hand I have been happier then I have ever been on HRT and the sense I am moving forward with who I am. But the other hand I am a 6ft 0in person with size 11 feet(mens) going on 12s maybe. Luckily I'm not that big weight wise, only 122 at the moment, I want to get that up to atleast 140 cause I know its atleast a healthier place to be.(I've had eating disorders all my life) And a VERY deep, Texas Twang Voice. But on the luckily side I'm not hairy at all, hardly have any facial hair and basically no chest or back hair. So I know it is going to be a long road and it scary to start something like this but I am going to be strong and push ahead as this is what I need to do for myself to be happy.
Anyways I would call that a ramble so I am going to shut up now.
Bye! :P
akegia,
A big warm welcome to Susan's place. You will find a lot of very helpful people here. so pull up a chair and open up at your own pace. A lot of great advice can be found here also. A big warm hug to you...!
Melissa Ann
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Quote from: MelissaAnn on October 24, 2014, 11:51:25 AM
akegia,
A big warm welcome to Susan's place. You will find a lot of very helpful people here. so pull up a chair and open up at your own pace. A lot of great advice can be found here also. A big warm hug to you...!
Melissa Ann
Thank You! :) I big warm hug to you too!
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on October 24, 2014, 11:51:37 AM
A big warm welcome to you from North of the Red River! I hope you enjoy your time here and get what you need from it. If there is ever anything I can do just holler! :)
Thank You!
Hi akegia, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm up near Boston, I was stationed at, then lived in El Paso for awhile. Get busy posting and I'll see you around the site!
Hugs, Devlyn
Akegia
Welcome. From where I sit you sound like you are in a good place. Plenty of support, tall but low weight and little body hair or facial hair. That puts you a few decades, considerably less hair and approx 110 lbs ahead of my starting place. So I am a little envious! The voice will take work but I wish you well and hope you enjoy your time with us.
Safe travels
Aisla
Welcome Skegia to Susan's family.
Take things as they come, easier earlier one transitions with how the body reacts most of the time.
Wish you the best on your path.
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Quote from: Aisla on October 24, 2014, 08:22:43 PM
Welcome. From where I sit you sound like you are in a good place. Plenty of support, tall but low weight and little body hair or facial hair. That puts you a few decades, considerably less hair and approx 110 lbs ahead of my starting place. So I am a little envious! The voice will take work but I wish you well and hope you enjoy your time with us.
Thank You Aisla, That actually means alot and helps put me at ease a bit more! :)
Quote from: mrs izzy on October 24, 2014, 08:48:05 PM
Welcome Skegia to Susan's family.
Take things as they come, easier earlier one transitions with how the body reacts most of the time.
Wish you the best on your path.
Thank You :)
Quote from: Ms. OBrien CVT on October 24, 2014, 10:15:12 PM
Welcome to our little family. Over 14500 members. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister.
Thank You, I will be sure to post more soon. Bit busy atm with work stuff.
Best!
Hi Akegia and welcome to Susan's. Congratulations on starting HRT.
:)
Quote from: akegia on October 24, 2014, 11:22:48 AM
Hello,
Let's see, I am 26 mtf. I don't really know what to say as I am very shy and reserved person, so I might just get into a ramble as I do that when I am very nervous. :(
I have always had thoughts and wanted to transition since day 1, its one of those things I have always had in my mind but never put into motion till now. Mostly out of fear, I live in Texas and the deep south isn't always the most inviting(Is Texas even considered part of the South? IDK but anyways)
I came out to my fiancee, she is the most accepting person in the world. Aswell as to my Mother, and Brother. They both took it fine I guess.
I have been on HRT for going on 3 weeks now. Its a two fold thing, on one hand I have been happier then I have ever been on HRT and the sense I am moving forward with who I am. But the other hand I am a 6ft 0in person with size 11 feet(mens) going on 12s maybe. Luckily I'm not that big weight wise, only 122 at the moment, I want to get that up to atleast 140 cause I know its atleast a healthier place to be.(I've had eating disorders all my life) And a VERY deep, Texas Twang Voice. But on the luckily side I'm not hairy at all, hardly have any facial hair and basically no chest or back hair. So I know it is going to be a long road and it scary to start something like this but I am going to be strong and push ahead as this is what I need to do for myself to be happy.
Anyways I would call that a ramble so I am going to shut up now.
Bye! :P
Akegia,
There are no clear markers on the journey to an authentic life. There is no easy path that I know of. To transition is difficult. It includes loss as well as the delight of becoming who you know yourself to be. It is expensive and takes a very long time to complete. If you have a choice, don't transition, if you have an non binary option that can leave you whole and happy please take it. If on the other hand you are at the core of your being a woman and can not imagine living as you currently do, have endless endurance and hope, then you have little choice but to follow where you are instinctively led.
I life my life as a woman, and will do so for as long as I continue to inhabit this planet. It is more complicated than that, but the way that I want to be seen, and the way that I need to present is feminine. For me the cost, while high, is balanced and more than compensated for by the joy of living my truth and following the pilgrim's path to authenticity. I love the fact that I am perceived and loved as a girl. Still there are large parts of my life that have become closed and are no longer accessible to me.
My marriage failed, much of my family has condemned me and I have shed a river of tears, questioning whether I was mad, self absorbed, or perhaps simply a colossal fool. The truth is that none of those perceived losses are significant in the long climb to who I in my heart of hearts am. For me, to deny my core would be to deny my existence. For me to abandon my spirit would be to abandon my life. The simple and true fact is that I was born a woman with a penis. That can be remedied, but the remedy is imperfect and the path is scattered with stones.
Scared yet? If not you haven't been paying attention. If so and yet you know for certain and for sure that this is what you must do, and that you have the courage to transcend difficulty, then you have taken the first step to who you truly are. To live an authentic life under the conditions that exist is both the hardest thing and the most rewarding thing I have ever done. To not have followed this path and lived this journey would have been to abandon hope and in a very real sense not give a joyful life a chance.
I welcome and embrace you,
Julie :-*
Quote from: JulieBlair on October 27, 2014, 04:03:56 PM
Akegia,
There are no clear markers on the journey to an authentic life. There is no easy path that I know of. To transition is difficult. It includes loss as well as the delight of becoming who you know yourself to be. It is expensive and takes a very long time to complete. If you have a choice, don't transition, if you have an non binary option that can leave you whole and happy please take it. If on the other hand you are at the core of your being a woman and can not imagine living as you currently do, have endless endurance and hope, then you have little choice but to follow where you are instinctively led.
I life my life as a woman, and will do so for as long as I continue to inhabit this planet. It is more complicated than that, but the way that I want to be seen, and the way that I need to present is feminine. For me the cost, while high, is balanced and more than compensated for by the joy of living my truth and following the pilgrim's path to authenticity. I love the fact that I am perceived and loved as a girl. Still there are large parts of my life that have become closed and are no longer accessible to me.
My marriage failed, much of my family has condemned me and I have shed a river of tears, questioning whether I was mad, self absorbed, or perhaps simply a colossal fool. The truth is that none of those perceived losses are significant in the long climb to who I in my heart of hearts am. For me, to deny my core would be to deny my existence. For me to abandon my spirit would be to abandon my life. The simple and true fact is that I was born a woman with a penis. That can be remedied, but the remedy is imperfect and the path is scattered with stones.
Scared yet? If not you haven't been paying attention. If so and yet you know for certain and for sure that this is what you must do, and that you have the courage to transcend difficulty, then you have taken the first step to who you truly are. To live an authentic life under the conditions that exist is both the hardest thing and the most rewarding thing I have ever done. To not have followed this path and lived this journey would have been to abandon hope and in a very real sense not give a joyful life a chance.
I welcome and embrace you,
Julie :-*
Hi Julie!
Honestly, I don't think I want to turn back at this point. I tried to live life as a manly man, I tried a in-between. It just never works, I always have the hurt and the knowledge in the back of my mind that I am not living who I am. I'm in this for the long haul :)
Hi there and a BIG welcome to Susan's Place!
Quote from: akegia on October 28, 2014, 12:20:09 AM
Hi Julie!
Honestly, I don't think I want to turn back at this point. I tried to live life as a manly man, I tried a in-between. It just never works, I always have the hurt and the knowledge in the back of my mind that I am not living who I am. I'm in this for the long haul :)
Akegia,
Awesome, welcome to Wonderland. To know yourself is the biggest and most important step. :icon_clap:
Peace,
Julie
Quote from: JulieBlair on October 28, 2014, 08:53:46 AM
Akegia,
Awesome, welcome to Wonderland. To know yourself is the biggest and most important step. :icon_clap:
Peace,
Julie
Julie,
A big hug and thank you to all of you so far, just posting lightly on here has helped quite a bit.
Akegia, I got your name wrong in my first post, I'm terribly sorry. I've corrected it. I will now report to the Branding Iron Mistress for the proper punishment!
Hugs, Devlyn
Hey Peeps,
Thought I would finally post a pic or two to. Please forgive the bad wig, the bad natural hair, and the REALLY bad makeup skills. :P
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Also I just saw the first results from my first round of Laser Hair Removal on my face. Still a fair bit of it, but its a lot better then it was. Is Excited!!!
Akegia
You look beautiful....! I'm so very proud of you sweetie.
Hugs,
Melissa Ann