As everyone can understand from the title, I am depressed. I have been depeessed ever since I remember. The last 4-5 years of my life are like a blur, I don't remember events that happened in this period.
I have been under psychiatric treatment for the past 6 months, but I have not seen any improvements. The anti-depressants don't seem to work on me. I still ocassionally get thoughts of suicide, but I have stopped acting on them after my previous two unsuccesful attempts.
I have decided that I won't let depression control my life. I have started exercising, I feel somewhat better, albeit temporarily. I just need some help in getting better. I need people to talk to me, I need people to share their experiences with me. I need my parents to understand what I am going through with my dysphoria and depression. I need to make some friends. I need a psychiatrist who actually talks to me, and not just prescribe drugs.
I have made some very bad decisions in my life. Like this month, I haven't studied at all for my examination, which I'm sure I'm gonna fail. I'm not being negative, I'm just being truthful.
I'll keep on posting here all the positive things I do in my life. This will be like my very own diary.
I love the people here, I love how they help and understand each other. I know you all will help me, I'm sure of it.
I'm gonna slowly turn every negative thing about me into something positive. Starting today, I'm not gonna keep on crying about my condition like I used to, I'm gonna do something about it.
I'm sorry for the long post.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
"Mindfulness"... now there's a buzzword that gets thrown around a lot in psychology.
The best way that you can fight depression is by investing yourself 100% in everything you do. Experience the moment. Use your senses and really take the time to observe the world around you. You'll find that it becomes grander and more miraculous as you do so. To quote an old Buellerism... "Life moves pretty quickly, and if you don't take a moment to stop and look around a bit, you just might miss it."
I have been fighting depression for years. I have bipolar disorder so I have upswings and downswings. Winter is particularly bad for me because of the lack of sunlight. I have only recently begun to really put into action a lot of my coping skills that I have used to move through my depressive states. They might not all work for you, but, then again, some of them will:
-Reading a good book (I love sic-fi/fantasy novels and can read them for hours. Taking the time to really visualize what is going on in the book is an excellent exercise in creativity, and a good way to check out of reality for a while).
-Going outside and lying on the grass (Depending on where you live, this may not be possible this time of year, but when you get the chance, DO IT, it feels so great to physically connect with Mother Earth).
-Scented oils (Relaxing).
-Baths (Also relaxing).
-Being with friends/family (Isolation is bad for depression. Even if you are just by yourself in a public place you still can connect with other people, albeit indirectly. Getting out of your room and going places is also important, I have found that my bedroom is a cess pool of wasted time and misery).
-Dressing up/doing makeup (This works with both dysphoria, and for your own personal gratification. Making myself look beautiful makes me feel beautiful and helps pick up my mood some. I tell myself, "I can't be sad with makeup on, because if I cry, then I ruin it").
-Going to the movie theatre (There's no shame in seeing a movie by yourself).
-Exercise (Sounds like you got that down, though).
-Getting good sleep (At least 8 hours, and make sure you have a consistent bedtime. Also, avoid long naps during the day. They might seem like a nice idea, but trust me, they only make things worse... admittedly I am still struggling with this, especially since I have been more manic than usual).
-Art therapy (I doodle my emotions. It's okay if you're not an artist, there are plenty of ways you can express yourself... journaling is a popular one. Find something constructive to do. Start a project of some kind. Build a boat... it a doesn't matter. Putting your hands to use is rewarding. Hell you don't even have to make something, it can be repairing something, decorating something, dancing, singing, playing an instrument).
-AVOID ALL SAD THINGS!!!!! No News. No sad songs. No sad movies. I know they might seem like excellent catharsis, but really, they just fan the flames. When you are emotionally ready, you can have all these things, but not when you're in the pits. They just make you feel like staying there.
-ANIMALS! LOTS OF ANIMALS! DOGS AND CATS!
-Comedy (Laughter truly is the best medicine. I watch The Office when I'm feeling down).
-Meditation (People keep telling me to do this. I'm no good at it, but maybe you'll like it).
-ASMR (It's kind of silly, but I like it. It's very mellow and chills me out).
-Yoga (Something I want to do more of).
So, yeah. There you go. Honestly, the best way to combat depression is to take it moment by moment. At first I was all about not wanting to feel depressed, but that's the wrong way to approach it. You can't never be depressed (oops... double negative). Life is painful, and you will inevitably feel the sting of depression. But as long as you have tools to get through it, you'll be A-OK, and the sun will shine once more.
Think of it like having a bunker. When the bummer bombs drop, you duck inside and wait them out with your favorite books, comedies, scented oils/candles, bubble baths, etc., etc. And keep busy, too. Do your homework and go to class and work even if you don't feel like it. Not going will only make you feel worse. And if you force yourself to do all the things you don't feel like doing, you'll be amazed at what can be accomplished in the darkest of hours. I was depressed all this past year. I wasted countless hours on the Internet and sleeping and staring into space and having panic attacks and yet I still came out with a 4.0 GPA... that's because even though I was in the pits, I knew how important my grades were to me, so I did my work in class even though my body said, "No! Sleep! Feel sad!"
If you are currently prescribed an SSRI and are still experiencing suicidal thoughts, ask your doctor if you can switch to a non-SSRI. Everyone handles these medications differently, but a common side effect to SSRIs (which are your typical anti-depressants) is suicidal ideation, which is, of course, counter-intuitive. If your thoughts ever become plans, go to a hospital and check yourself in, or call someone and see if you can be with them for a while to make sure that you are safe.
There is hope. Go at this whale one bite at a time. Before you know it, the whole thing will be gone, so long as you focus on each bite and not on the massive task of eating an entire whale. (Was that analogy too weird?)
There are always people here to support you and help you through this. It's good that you're reaching out. It's better than trying to tough it out on your own.
Stay safe. And get well soon. <3
Quote from: Allie24 on October 07, 2017, 01:44:58 AM
"Mindfulness"... now there's a buzzword that gets thrown around a lot in psychology.
The best way that you can fight depression is by investing yourself 100% in everything you do. Experience the moment. Use your senses and really take the time to observe the world around you. You'll find that it becomes grander and more miraculous as you do so. To quote an old Buellerism... "Life moves pretty quickly, and if you don't take a moment to stop and look around a bit, you just might miss it."
I have been fighting depression for years. I have bipolar disorder so I have upswings and downswings. Winter is particularly bad for me because of the lack of sunlight. I have only recently begun to really put into action a lot of my coping skills that I have used to move through my depressive states. They might not all work for you, but, then again, some of them will:
-Reading a good book (I love sic-fi/fantasy novels and can read them for hours. Taking the time to really visualize what is going on in the book is an excellent exercise in creativity, and a good way to check out of reality for a while).
-Going outside and lying on the grass (Depending on where you live, this may not be possible this time of year, but when you get the chance, DO IT, it feels so great to physically connect with Mother Earth).
-Scented oils (Relaxing).
-Baths (Also relaxing).
-Being with friends/family (Isolation is bad for depression. Even if you are just by yourself in a public place you still can connect with other people, albeit indirectly. Getting out of your room and going places is also important, I have found that my bedroom is a cess pool of wasted time and misery).
-Dressing up/doing makeup (This works with both dysphoria, and for your own personal gratification. Making myself look beautiful makes me feel beautiful and helps pick up my mood some. I tell myself, "I can't be sad with makeup on, because if I cry, then I ruin it").
-Going to the movie theatre (There's no shame in seeing a movie by yourself).
-Exercise (Sounds like you got that down, though).
-Getting good sleep (At least 8 hours, and make sure you have a consistent bedtime. Also, avoid long naps during the day. They might seem like a nice idea, but trust me, they only make things worse... admittedly I am still struggling with this, especially since I have been more manic than usual).
-Art therapy (I doodle my emotions. It's okay if you're not an artist, there are plenty of ways you can express yourself... journaling is a popular one. Find something constructive to do. Start a project of some kind. Build a boat... it a doesn't matter. Putting your hands to use is rewarding. Hell you don't even have to make something, it can be repairing something, decorating something, dancing, singing, playing an instrument).
-AVOID ALL SAD THINGS!!!!! No News. No sad songs. No sad movies. I know they might seem like excellent catharsis, but really, they just fan the flames. When you are emotionally ready, you can have all these things, but not when you're in the pits. They just make you feel like staying there.
-ANIMALS! LOTS OF ANIMALS! DOGS AND CATS!
-Comedy (Laughter truly is the best medicine. I watch The Office when I'm feeling down).
-Meditation (People keep telling me to do this. I'm no good at it, but maybe you'll like it).
-ASMR (It's kind of silly, but I like it. It's very mellow and chills me out).
-Yoga (Something I want to do more of).
So, yeah. There you go. Honestly, the best way to combat depression is to take it moment by moment. At first I was all about not wanting to feel depressed, but that's the wrong way to approach it. You can't never be depressed (oops... double negative). Life is painful, and you will inevitably feel the sting of depression. But as long as you have tools to get through it, you'll be A-OK, and the sun will shine once more.
Think of it like having a bunker. When the bummer bombs drop, you duck inside and wait them out with your favorite books, comedies, scented oils/candles, bubble baths, etc., etc. And keep busy, too. Do your homework and go to class and work even if you don't feel like it. Not going will only make you feel worse. And if you force yourself to do all the things you don't feel like doing, you'll be amazed at what can be accomplished in the darkest of hours. I was depressed all this past year. I wasted countless hours on the Internet and sleeping and staring into space and having panic attacks and yet I still came out with a 4.0 GPA... that's because even though I was in the pits, I knew how important my grades were to me, so I did my work in class even though my body said, "No! Sleep! Feel sad!"
If you are currently prescribed an SSRI and are still experiencing suicidal thoughts, ask your doctor if you can switch to a non-SSRI. Everyone handles these medications differently, but a common side effect to SSRIs (which are your typical anti-depressants) is suicidal ideation, which is, of course, counter-intuitive. If your thoughts ever become plans, go to a hospital and check yourself in, or call someone and see if you can be with them for a while to make sure that you are safe.
There is hope. Go at this whale one bite at a time. Before you know it, the whole thing will be gone, so long as you focus on each bite and not on the massive task of eating an entire whale. (Was that analogy too weird?)
There are always people here to support you and help you through this. It's good that you're reaching out. It's better than trying to tough it out on your own.
Stay safe. And get well soon. <3
Thanks! And yeah, that analogy was pretty weird! Lol
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Six months is a good start, but you've been depressed for years. May take a while more to get out the hole.
Sent from my SM-G955U using Tapatalk
Quote from: Natsuki Kuga on October 07, 2017, 01:57:36 AM
Six months is a good start, but you've been depressed for years. May take a while more to get out the hole.
Sent from my SM-G955U using Tapatalk
So will the meds eventually work?
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Yes, the meds will work. Sometimes they adjust dosages or brands. Keep going to therapy and take all of the above advice. Keep doing what you are doing. Oh, and try to study a little. Key point about therapy: trust the process.
Don't underestimate the power of exercise and the endorphins (free drugs! [emoji3]) it generates.
It's great that you've made a good start on this. Can I suggest you find a sporting event in about 3 months time, like a 5km run and enter it, that will give you a target and a reason to keep up the good work. When you achieve that it becomes a positive success to build on. The health benefits go without saying too!
I had a very bad day last week, and suicide entered my thoughts for the first time in months. I recognised this, excused myself from a social event and went to the pool for real good session, it gave me perspective and a real buzz, I went to bed in a good state of mind. X
Sent from my MI 5s using Tapatalk
I don't know if I can keep on trying to be positive. I know I should see a therapist, but I don't have the money for it, and I can't talk about it to my parents.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
I feel like quitting just about an hour after writing that positive stuff.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
My negative spiral is starting, I can feel it coming, I need help.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
What time is it there? Go for a long walk or a run, or practice some Mindfulness.
Sent from my MI 5s using Tapatalk
Quote from: meganjames2 on October 07, 2017, 03:01:55 AM
What time is it there? Go for a long walk or a run, or practice some Mindfulness.
Sent from my MI 5s using Tapatalk
Yeah, I'm going for a walk.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Clear your mind, focus on the nature or your surroundings. X
Sent from my MI 5s using Tapatalk
I had bad depression for years. I saw counselors but they were less useful than a chocolate teapot. What got me out of it though it does return occasionally were the following.
Moving to a sunnier, warmer climate
Getting and keeping a job - I drive schoolbusses
Eating more fruits and veggies and less fried food, chocolate, red meats and drinking less
I've never tried antidepressants but I gather they're terrible things to be taking and know of others who tossed their bottles of antidepressants in the trash and feel a load better.
Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
QuoteYeah, I'm going for a walk.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
LOL One simple suggestion (
to combat depression) . . .
Next time you go for a walk . . . take a friend (
or dog) along & leave
CELL PHONE behind!!!
An entire generation (estimates are 90%) are addicted to low-level RF radiation the long-term
CANCER effects of which are still unknown. I have two teenage kids (with BF's and small children of their own) and see first hand the isolation and conflict that 'social media' creates it definitely causes more problems than it solves!!
I spend 10-12 hours a day driving a very heavy truck on busy city roads and simply
LAUGH at some of the stupid stuff I see people doing
( (in the real world) ) because of inattention on
fake reality CELL PHONES.
If needs be
BUY A DESKTOP COMPUTER (they're much cheaper??) at least you'll be forced to walk away from it every now and then ???
I don't even listen to music when I run, as much as I enjoy it. Running or walking is an increasingly rare chance to just enjoy the world around us.
Sent from my MI 5s using Tapatalk
Some group fitness exercises might be good - both physical aspect of it (endorphins make you feel good) and social component (people meeting other people often live 10 years longer and quality of life is better). It is not easy to push yourself to do anything if you are depressed, but you can overcome it.
And, I'm not a psychologist, but I think depression is strongest when you don't see any positive future for yourself, nothing to strive for. If that's the case, try to find yourself a new project/hobby if you can - something you wanted to do but couldn't (currently, I am looking for a new better paying job, working on improving my professional skills, and training in martial art - that gives me enough to look for and eats all of my free time). And if you cannot - just focus on getting through the day, don't focus on how everything is bad, be certain - there will be another day and another opportunity.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
This might have been mentioned already, as this thread is long, but I recommend getting a dog. A dog is someone to talk to. The dog gives you unconditional love, even when you are down or sick. Plus you can bring the dog on walks, runs, etc to get your own exercise. I got my Fanta seven years ago. At that time I was depressed too. He's been pretty much my only friend these past seven years and has stuck with me through my worst GD. Anyway, I can't recommend a dog enough.
Quote from: Bari Jo on October 07, 2017, 08:28:19 AM
This might have been mentioned already, as this thread is long, but I recommend getting a dog. A dog is someone to talk to. The dog gives you unconditional love, even when you are down or sick. Plus you can bring the dog on walks, runs, etc to get your own exercise. I got my Fanta seven years ago. At that time I was depressed too. He's been pretty much my only friend these past seven years and has stuck with me through my worst GD. Anyway, I can't recommend a dog enough.
I actually have two:- Django and Pearl
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Quote from: Saira128 on October 07, 2017, 08:52:00 AM
I actually have two:- Django and Pearl
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Aww, they sound adorable.
I second the cell phone thing though. Also, cut down on Internet usage. Internet is the ultimate time waster. No matter where I go online, after two hours go by, I start to feel bummed that I've been on so long :/
Quote from: Allie24 on October 07, 2017, 08:59:48 AM
I second the cell phone thing though. Also, cut down on Internet usage. Internet is the ultimate time waster. No matter where I go online, after two hours go by, I start to feel bummed that I've been on so long :/
Yes. The internet is good in tiny doses. More than that and it causes depression and angst. People look at me aghast when I say Facebook is a load of rubbish.
Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
Quote from: Allie24 on October 07, 2017, 08:59:48 AM
Aww, they sound adorable.
I second the cell phone thing though. Also, cut down on Internet usage. Internet is the ultimate time waster. No matter where I go online, after two hours go by, I start to feel bummed that I've been on so long :/
Stay especially away from anything transition related on YouTube where only the glowing success stories are found.
Quote from: JoanneB on October 07, 2017, 09:17:33 AM
Stay especially away from anything transition related on YouTube where only the glowing success stories are found.
Or dare I say it, the fake stories. Nothing online can be taken as true. That's what really narks me about schools. They teach the kids to research online when online facts are about as believable as somebody selling 1600 Pennsylvania Ave.
Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
I have this fantastic money making opportunity available.... make thousands of dollars an hour without even having to do anything. The money is automatically electronically collected and wired right into your bank account.
The Brooklyn Bridge! Yes it is for sale and I need quick cash today. Once you put in EZ-Pass it will pay for itself in one hour
Quote from: JoanneB on October 07, 2017, 09:57:24 AM
I have this fantastic money making opportunity available.... make thousands of dollars an hour without even having to do anything. The money is automatically electronically collected and wired right into your bank account.
The Brooklyn Bridge! Yes it is for sale and I need quick cash today. Once you put in EZ-Pass it will pay for itself in one hour
Sorry, my money is still tied up in White Star shares. I've got a kind of titanic sinking feeling about the returns on them.
Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
Quote from: Saira128 on October 07, 2017, 02:51:16 AM
I don't know if I can keep on trying to be positive. I know I should see a therapist, but I don't have the money for it, and I can't talk about it to my parents.
Can you just tell your parents you're depressed without telling them why?
Quote from: amandam on October 07, 2017, 10:51:00 AM
Can you just tell your parents you're depressed without telling them why?
My parents know I am trans and depressed. They just don't know that my current therapy is not working for me
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
I was very depressed for many years. Have hope! There is light at the end of the tunnel and it's not a train!
A few things that helped me dig my way out of it.
I quit all drugs, even pot and alcohol.
I sought out and found social interactions with positive people who genuinely accept and care about me.
I dropped anybody in my life who doesn't fit the above description.
I accepted myself as I am and quit trying to fit others' ideas about who and what they think I should be.
I don't know you and can't presume to know what will work for you. I'm just me sayin' what helped me.
I walked 10 km yesterday. I felt so much better. Felt like I had achieved something.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Quote from: Saira128 on October 08, 2017, 01:23:37 AM
I walked 10 km yesterday. I felt so much better. Felt like I had achieved something.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
That's great. Work on building up a set of tools like that, that can help you gain distance and perspective. X
Sent from my MI 5s using Tapatalk
Why does this happen to me? At many times in the day, I lose all hope, and feel like crying. I don't understand the reason behind it.
I try to control it, distract myself, but the feeling still remains.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
I'm feeling uneasy, suicidal. I need to talk to someone. Please, I need help.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Hey Saira
How are you..PM me if you want
Is there someone local you can chat with? face to face...I know your situation is difficult
Quote from: Saira128 on October 07, 2017, 02:10:51 AM
So will the meds eventually work?
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
At risk of taking the thread totally off - topic , please feel free to PM me if you desire.
Sent from my SM-G955U using Tapatalk
Why can't you go to your parents and tell them you need help like right now? I urge you to talk to anyone and everyone who will listen. As a last resort, you could call the police and ask to be put on a 72 hour hold.
Quote from: amandam on October 10, 2017, 12:55:08 PM
Why can't you go to your parents and tell them you need help like right now? I urge you to talk to anyone and everyone who will listen. As a last resort, you could call the police and ask to be put on a 72 hour hold.
I am afraid to talk to my parents. I also don't want to hurt them by telling them that I haven't studied for my exams.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
I am suicidal. Does it mean I am weaker than all of you?
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Quote from: Saira128 on October 12, 2017, 03:00:31 AM
I am suicidal. Does it mean I am weaker than all of you?
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Not at all, many here, including myself have been.
I still have in my possession the means by which I planned to end things. I had written up instructions, chosen music for my funeral and put my affairs in order.
Even when I started my transition, I was honest with my therapist, that if it didn't work, that was always my other option. But if you're at that point, you don't have anything to loose in trying do you?
Life can be so much better, I know your situation is difficult, but being true to ourselves with others can really make a difference to our mental health. X
Sent from my MI 5s using Tapatalk
Quote from: meganjames2 on October 12, 2017, 03:14:58 AM
Not at all, many here, including myself have been.
I still have in my possession the means by which I planned to end things. I had written up instructions, chosen music for my funeral and put my affairs in order.
Even when I started my transition, I was honest with my therapist, that if it didn't work, that was always my other option. But if you're at that point, you don't have anything to loose in trying do you?
Life can be so much better, I know your situation is difficult, but being true to ourselves with others can really make a difference to our mental health. X
Sent from my MI 5s using Tapatalk
I have planned everything too, but I won't ever do it, because it will hurt my parents so much.
Writing about it just makes me feel a little better so I write my thoughts here.
I will never do anything that will hurt my parents, I love them so much.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
That's good to hear, and talking about it helps get through it. Look for those reasons to keep moving forward.
For me, as a parent, supporting my children means I will do anything, if that means transitioning, then that's what I do.
Sent from my MI 5s using Tapatalk
Quote from: meganjames2 on October 12, 2017, 03:57:37 AM
That's good to hear, and talking about it helps get through it. Look for those reasons to keep moving forward.
For me, as a parent, supporting my children means I will do anything, if that means transitioning, then that's what I do.
Sent from my MI 5s using Tapatalk
Walked 10 kms today. Feeling fresh.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
That's great! Building a toolbox of methods and tricks you know can help lift you out of the low times is invaluable. [emoji5]
Sent from my MI 5s using Tapatalk
I have borderline personality disorder.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
I was also suicidal and nearly took my life. It was only at the last minute that I decided there was something I hadn't tried so I gave treatment a shot with the decision if it failed I could always finish the job. I still fought depression for years after that though at some point in RLE I was able to make progress in defeating the depression. It might have come sooner had blockers been available but in those days there was really only one way to control your testosterone levels.
Hi, Saira128.
It can and will get better. Exercise is a great way of coping. I try to keep my brain ( Yes, even my small one ) working on problems and tasks. I have PTSD and this is not help by long term depression since the age of 10. The meds do help so don't fear them and keep working on that great project or activity. Thing do improve. Love+Huggs.
Paula, X.
Have you considered Dialectical Behavior Therapy? (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dialectical_behavior_therapy (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dialectical_behavior_therapy)) It was designed for people with borderline personality disorder in mind. My sister did it and she said it helped her a lot.
Sorry if that's already been mentioned!
I had an appointment with a psychiatrist yesterday, and this was his diagnosis.
I didn't even know something like this existed.
After coming home, I read about borderline personality disorder on the internet, and I found out that many of the symptoms written, matched with what I experienced.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Quote from: The Flying Lemur on October 13, 2017, 12:23:04 AM
Have you considered Dialectical Behavior Therapy? (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dialectical_behavior_therapy (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dialectical_behavior_therapy)) It was designed for people with borderline personality disorder in mind. My sister did it and she said it helped her a lot.
Sorry if that's already been mentioned!
Thanks! I'll look into it.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Quote from: Saira128 on October 13, 2017, 12:47:24 AM
I had an appointment with a psychiatrist yesterday, and this (Borderline Personality Disorder) was his diagnosis.
I didn't even know something like this existed.
After coming home, I read about borderline personality disorder on the internet, and I found out that many of the symptoms written, matched with what I experienced.
I an glad you are beginning to face the source of your problems. Now may be a good time to look back through all of our PMs and our discussions about my Dissciative Identity Disorder (an extreme personality disorder) and the effect sexual abuse had on you as a child. PM if you don't have them anymore and I will send you copies.
~VA
Quote from: Virginia on October 13, 2017, 08:13:40 AM
I an glad you are beginning to face the source of your problems. Now may be a good time to look back through all of our PMs and our discussions about my Dissciative Identity Disorder (an extreme personality disorder) and the effect sexual abuse had on you as a child. PM if you don't have them anymore and I will send you copies.
~VA
Thanks! I'll check if I have them.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk