From the beginning..
When I was 4 years old... oh, maybe not that far back
In October 2015 when I finally was overwhelmed with my dysphoria it mostly surrounded my chest. I really needed breasts and I needed them badly. FFS and GCS was not a concern in the first few months. Then FFS became #1. But through the first two years I kept an internal barometer of "will I or won't I get GCS". It started out at about 5% chance then slowly went up to 20 then 25%. BUT one day, I remember the exact instant.
I was sitting in the movie theatre with a few other friends (some trans, some not) watching "A Fantastic Woman". When she walked into the men's locker room my barometer went from 25% to 100%. I can't explain why, I have no idea. But from that point on I knew I HAD to have the surgery. On Monday I called the surgeon to start the ball rolling.
My surgeon selection was short. I'm staying local in Chicago and the surgeon I go to uses a hospital 2 miles from my house. I actually walked to my FFS.
The number one question I get is "am I excited/scared/worried/...?" and my response, up until this week has been "none of the above." It was a non-emotional event. I think the "I'm worried about post-surgery maintenance" enough to cancel out the excitedness of the actual result.
Over the last week or two the worry has diminished and the excited is coming to the top. So right now I'm excited.
7 days!
Congratulations Denise! It's interesting how opening up a door can show you possibilities you've never expected! I glad you know who you are and where you need to be. I'll be following this thread and rooting for you all the way.
BTW, I saw you posted some photos in other threads and you look fabulous!
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@Denise:
Dear Denise:Thank you for starting your GCS thread... it will be nice for those of us interested in your next big event in your transition journey to follow along with you.
Ahhhh
7 DAYS the clock has started... tick tock tick tock
We, that follow you, will be almost as excited as you are.
Thank you again for starting your GCS thread.
Please do know that it was great to see your journey and progress on your previous FFS thread.
I am so very happy for you.
Hugs
Danielle
Quote from: Denise on December 06, 2018, 06:30:40 AM
From the beginning..
When I was 4 years old... oh, maybe not that far back
In October 2015 when I finally was overwhelmed with my dysphoria it mostly surrounded my chest. I really needed breasts and I needed them badly. FFS and GCS was not a concern in the first few months. Then FFS became #1. But through the first two years I kept an internal barometer of "will I or won't I get GCS". It started out at about 5% chance then slowly went up to 20 then 25%. BUT one day, I remember the exact instant.
I was sitting in the movie theatre with a few other friends (some trans, some not) watching "A Fantastic Woman". When she walked into the men's locker room my barometer went from 25% to 100%. I can't explain why, I have no idea. But from that point on I knew I HAD to have the surgery. On Monday I called the surgeon to start the ball rolling.
My surgeon selection was short. I'm staying local in Chicago and the surgeon I go to uses a hospital 2 miles from my house. I actually walked to my FFS.
The number one question I get is "am I excited/scared/worried/...?" and my response, up until this week has been "none of the above." It was a non-emotional event. I think the "I'm worried about post-surgery maintenance" enough to cancel out the excitedness of the actual result.
Over the last week or two the worry has diminished and the excited is coming to the top. So right now I'm excited.
7 days!
Hi Claire
I too have just completed a GCS Countdown and I think from memory one of my last few posts last week talked about not being excited but calm and I even went on to say I thought there was something wrong with me for feeling that way.
So you sound a bit like me in that respect to your concerns. Speaking to other Post Op girls and they all pretty much said the "maintenance" turned out to be no real issue for them... I don't know what I expected but I know how I feel now.
Good luck with your surgery and I will be interested to see how well you go.
Liz
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Liz,
Thanks for the info. It actually helps. I had not realized that others felt the same way - I'm not listening to my own rules. Rule #1: If you think/feel/want/... something there are a thousand others who want the same.
The excitement is starting to catch up now. I did my "Getting to Know Transgender" talk to a bunch of people yesterday an I talked a little bit about the surgery then there were follow up conversations with individuals who I gave TMI. I find that talking about whatever is on my mind, even here on Susan's helps me to understand myself better. (Read some of my early posts, they were all over the place.)
I'm also glad to hear that the post-surgical care is not as bad as you expected. I too expect to be pleasantly surprised because I'm expecting (or rather was expecting) HELL! I've spoken with some post-ops in person who had difficulty with things going wrong. I'm less worried.
6 days and counting.
P.S. Rule number 2 is: No body cares and if they do then they are a no body. (This does not apply to immediate family members!)
Denis dear, this is wonderful and I certainly wish the best for you. We are literally on the same page as I am scheduled to have GRS in Philadelphia on DEcember 14. Would you mind telling me what day? Being a day ahead of the US it is hard for me to relate to how many days left. :)
I too was deeply affected by the film "A Fantastic Woman" When she was forced to expose her breasts before the police, they were just like mine after six months HRT.
May your surgery be without complications and your recovery smooth!
Surgery is scheduled for Thursday December 13 2018 at 7:30 am. Weiss memorial hospital in Chicago Illinois with Dr Loren Schechter.
I wish you luck. PM me when you are able. I'll be a day ahead. Maybe we can be V-twins and share stories. I would enjoy that.
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I just left my parents place in Tampa. I'm sitting in the airport waiting to go back into the freezer known as Chicago.
I flew down for the weekend to tell them of the pending surgery on Thursday. They were understanding and concerned that their daughter was having major surgery. I assured them the surgeon is awesome and I have a ton of local support.
My parents are wonderful and are accepting. I would wish that for everyone here and I understand it's not and that breaks my heart.
Four days and counting
Monday: work, ice skating, Margarettas for dinner!
Tuesday: work in the morning, seeing me therapist in the afternoon, visiting a new Susan's friend who just had surgery with my surgeon 2 weeks ago
Wednesday: cleanse (YUCK), clean, bake cookies for the hospital staff (bribery works!)
Thursday: arrive at hospital at 5:30am!!! And sleep all day!
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Quote from: Denise on December 09, 2018, 04:24:11 PM
I just left my parents place in Tampa. I'm sitting in the airport waiting to go back into the freezer known as Chicago.
I flew down for the weekend to tell them of the pending surgery on Thursday. They were understanding and concerned that their daughter was having major surgery. I assured them the surgeon is awesome and I have a ton of local support.
My parents are wonderful and are accepting. I would wish that for everyone here and I understand it's not and that breaks my heart.
Four days and counting
Monday: work, ice skating, Margarettas for dinner!
Tuesday: work in the morning, seeing me therapist in the afternoon, visiting a new Susan's friend who just had surgery with my surgeon 2 weeks ago
Wednesday: cleanse (YUCK), clean, bake cookies for the hospital staff (bribery works!)
Thursday: arrive at hospital at 5:30am!!! And sleep all day!
Go Denise! I wish I'd been in Florida to do lunch with you again. All the best on Thursday, and please report in when you can!
Stephanie
Wow, your surgery date is coming up quickly! Good luck with it! I think your calm feeling is confirming that this is the right road for you. Go, girl!
Yay, Denise! I'll be following your thread with great interest. I meet with my surgeon for the first time, long waiting list, January 11 and hope for surgery in July if planets and stars align. Best wishes!
@Denise Dear Denise:4 DAYS and counting .... tick tock tick tock.
We are all rooting for you, we are your biggest fans!
Hugs,
Danielle
Great News Denise. Its certainly getting close and I'm sure time will fly by! Your Wednesday cleanse will soon be forgotten and you'll have new (more pleasant) memories. Best wishes!
Hi Denise it will soon be here...Then the real fun starts...I Hope yours goes really well
Take care
Liz
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Thank you all for your words of encouragement.
@Beverly.Anne January 11 will be here faster than you know and July is flying to meet you. Trust me, I've been there...
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Quote from: Denise on December 10, 2018, 06:50:10 AM
Thank you all for your words of encouragement.
@Beverly.Anne January 11 will be here faster than you know and July is flying to meet you. Trust me, I've been there...
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Thank you, Denise! I can't wait!
It's 4am two days prior to surgery, today is 1/2 day off work and therapy day. Grocery shopping is on my agenda for non-perishables.
Tomorrow the fun begins. Short term discomfort for long term gains.
Love you all
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Congrats Deise! I am excited for you. :)
Best of luck, Denise, hope you are back giving us great reports in a few days.
Wow Denise! Congratulations. Just 2 more days to go. I bookmarked your GCS thread. I am excited to follow you through your recovery. Thank you for sharing.
Hugs,
Donica.
Just a bit over two years from starting HRT to this "last step" is amazing. Best of luck.
@Denise Dear Denise:This is very exciting as we are following your very big event in your journey....
2 Days ! ..... tick tock tick tock
Tomorrow is the never comfortable but necessary cleansing .....
...looking back after your surgery it will all seem quite worth the discomfort.
All of us here are wishing you well, and we appreciate your updates so
we can follow along and be your
cheer-squad We are all rooting for you, we are your biggest fans....
Hugs and well wishes as always,
Hugs,
Danielle
14 hours and counting.
Thanks @Alaskan.Danielle.
Today I spent doing laundry. Last minute christmas shopping. sitting on the toilet, drinking way too much liquid. Overdosing on laxatives (14x the daily recommended amount, just sayin!)
But without a doubt the most asked question has been "are you excited? scared?..." and I couldn't come up with an emotion. None of those applied and I've been struggling to figure out what I have been feeling about this. I told people "resolved, next step, matter-of-fact" not really excited nor scared just Blah. BUT today WHAM! it hit me. I'm in disbelief. I'm just coming to the realization that I'm about to get a life long, unobtainable, unreasonable, not-going-to-happen-don't-think-about-it desire. Guess what!!! 13 hours 35 minutes!
When i was 12-15ish (maybe even longer) I had a recurring dream that I woke up and found I was a girl. I had that dream dozens of times and mostly the dream was the same (details not included.) but by this time tomorrow, my dream/wish/... will be realized.
and here come the tears, the flood gates have opened.
Now the practical part of this.
What to pack and how to get to the hospital.
I live alone and the hospital is 3km (2mi) away. For BA I took the bus, for FFS I walked for GCS I'm thinking about walking again but it's going to be -1C (30F) so it would be a little chilly. It might help me clear my head to do that so that's the way I'm leaning.
The surgery time was originally set for 7:30 but it was moved up to 7:00. That means I need to be at the hospital at 5:15am. (Zzzzzz)
I've collected little tidbits from people on what TO bring and what NOT to bring.
So, in my bag:
Cell phone, charger, cables
Computer (Chromebook in my case) and charger
Extension cord since the plugs are used for monitors near the bed.
Flip Flops because you need to get out and walk around.
Tooth brush/paste
Face cream
razor/shaving cream (I still have a bit of electrolysis to complete :( )
shampoo/conditioner (on the 6th day it's said the shower is available)
A book (and my reading glasses)
Paperwork to submit to the state of New Jersey for Birth Certificate update !!!
DARK loungewear to wear home from the hospital.
I hope to make cookies tonight to take for the staff and visitors.
ID/Medical insurance/prescription card/credit card/some money (But I don't know why)
I don't have a comfort "teddy bear" which I was advised to bring by a few people. So I'm hoping my friends bring me one. (they will because they are wonderful!)
What I'm not taking.
Clothes
My meds
my full laptop
curling iron (I'm in the hospital, I'm allowed to look like I'm in the hospital
makeup. This is easy for me to leave at home. (You can take it if you want)
Quote from: Denise on December 12, 2018, 05:27:49 PMand here come the tears, the flood gates have opened.
And now they have for me, too, Denise. I'm so happy for you. All the best tomorrow.
Stephanie
Oh I remember that countdown as if it was yesterday...it was only 9 days ago...
I had a similar discussion in my thread the few days before surgery. I wasn't overly excited...I did have periods where I was but on the whole no...calm was prevalent until I hit the table and burst into tears.
What to take..I spent the first 3-4 days being nursed at no higher than 30degrees which meant my phone was my lifeline...so had 2 backup batteries to keep me going...and I slept...a lot...not much pain at all but so tired
Good luck for a swift recovery take care Liz
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Good luck, Denise!
Well it's the morning after.
I got back to my room at 5:00 to find my two best friends and a new friend, Kristy.
The discomfort when I woke up was interesting. My FEET HURT. Not a little but like I was walking on razor blades. Recommendation: bring a good moisturizer and a friend to apply it.
The other pain is the lower back. I found laying the bed flat helps a lot.
The self administered morphine is your friend.
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Thanks for the update Denise...take it easy...use the PCA and keep on top of the discomfort. Congrats and welcome to post op life [emoji3]...I hope you have a swift recovery..
take care
Liz
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Congratulations, Denise!
Congratulations Denise! [emoji1635]. I've never been one for aphorism, but today really is the first day of the rest of your life... your true self.
You reached out to me when I needed help and I will be forever grateful. You're a remarkable and caring woman. I wish you nothing but good health and happiness!
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It's 11 am I'm thinking it should be midnight.
I actually got food today:) well if you count lemon ice, Jell-O, chicken broth food. I really want a full meal!!!
The physical therapist gave me the "Rockstar" status for doing two full laps of the hospital unit.
And I've taken a few naps.
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Apparently my blood pressure is no low. 83/51
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Congratulations Denise! And thanks for the heads up on what and what not to bring. Watch that BP girl! Maybe wiggling your toes will help with that? I don't really know if that works, just sayin ;D.
BTW! Love the teddy bear!
Hugs,
Donica.
Quote from: Donica on December 14, 2018, 01:48:46 PM
Congratulations Denise! And thanks for the heads up on what and what not to bring. Watch that BP girl! Maybe wiggling your toes will help with that? I don't really know if that works, just sayin ;D.
BTW! Love the teddy bear!
Hugs,
Donica.
Thanks @Donica I like Kristi too. a comfort something was suggested and I didn't have one. My friend Chrissy brought her for me when I came out of surgery. She induces sleep just by holding her.
Bring a very good foot/hand cream. Also lip gloss or balm.
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Quote from: Denise on December 14, 2018, 11:01:21 AM
It's 11 am I'm thinking it should be midnight.
I actually got food today:) well if you count lemon ice, Jell-O, chicken broth food. I really want a full meal!!!
The physical therapist gave me the "Rockstar" status for doing two full laps of the hospital unit.
And I've taken a few naps.
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Congrats on doing so well...it's called a low residue diet here lol...I concur...where is the real food although I understand why they do it.
I was not allowed out of bed except to stand for no longer than a few minutes for the first 3 days and then only with a nurse till drains, catheter and IV came out. So that is huge...I hope you keep recovering well
Take care
Liz
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Congratulations Denise!
I hope you recover swiftly.
Big hugs,
Lisa
Yay! So happy for you!
Congrats and feel better soon. And just so you know pressing the morphine button over and over doesn't make it give you more faster. :laugh: A nurse had to explain that to me after I had cancer surgery.
I stopped all pain meds this morning. They have me solid food for dinner. I did 4 laps of the unit. Let's see what tomorrow brings.
PS they tell me I'm way ahead of most. Apparently being in good shape helps
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Wonderful news Denise. Congratulations, you seem to be recovering well. Keep it up!!
Hugs, Judi
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PS they tell me I'm way ahead of most. Apparently being in good shape helps
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Absolutely!!I congratulations!
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Night 2 -yuck
I want to get out of this bed. My tummy hurts from gas. I took pain meds last night to help me sleep. I think u get maybe 2 hours total.
Today promises more walking and oh joy a bowel movement. Sound like fun?
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Quote from: Denise on December 15, 2018, 05:29:35 AM
Night 2 -yuck
I want to get out of this bed. My tummy hurts from gas. I took pain meds last night to help me sleep. I think u get maybe 2 hours total.
Today promises more walking and oh joy a bowel movement. Sound like fun?
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A bowel movement might sound yucky, but it's an indicator of recovery progression and good health. I hope you do have a bowel movement and minimal pain today. Keep at it and don't give up!
Hi Denise
The first couple are the worst....I know thats no consolation when you are feeling day 2 crappy....Hug that teddybear, The gas is a good sign...I think being stuck in bed was one of the hardest things and you are nearly through it...I hope you can get some pain relief and sleep soon....
Take care
Liz
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Waking without a walker today. Hospital food is not that good. But I think I have the best room for it's view.
That's lake Michigan and Montrose harbor. There are a bunch of guys playing soccer and I bet they don't even consider what I just had done and that I'm watching them play. It's kinda like my little secret.
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Dinner was really good. Meat lasagna. Spicy and saviory. Tomorrow I'm hoping to sneak in a pizza.
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Quote from: Denise on December 15, 2018, 07:05:14 PM
Dinner was really good. Meat lasagna. Spicy and saviory. Tomorrow I'm hoping to sneak in a pizza.
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thanks for the update...good to hear your appetite is good. Enjoy the pizza if you can....won't be to long before they boot you out the door due to the pace you are recovering [emoji3]
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Quote from: Denise on December 15, 2018, 07:05:14 PM
Dinner was really good. Meat lasagna. Spicy and saviory. Tomorrow I'm hoping to sneak in a pizza.
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@Denise Dear Denise:I am sorry to hear of your discomfort, but that happens with surgery and the anesthesia.
I am glad that you enjoyed your Lasagna but if you can get some real food, not hospital food, sneaked in that will be terrific... get a chocolate milkshake too.. ...
How much longer are you scheduled in the hospital before they let you go ??? ????
Thank you for your updates and photos....
Wishing you well, heal up real fast.
Hugs,and more hugs,
Danielle
Quote from: Denise on December 15, 2018, 05:29:35 AM
Night 2 -yuck
I want to get out of this bed. My tummy hurts from gas. I took pain meds last night to help me sleep. I think u get maybe 2 hours total.
Today promises more walking and oh joy a bowel movement. Sound like fun?
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I may have said this before but pain meds (That I took) last just a bit less then 4 hours. At least thats when I would wake up and wait for the full 4 hours between doses. *I'm a little too compliant. Anyway if your only getting a couple hours of sleep on what they are giving you DO tell them. They may have a better drug or be able to increase the dose.
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@Denise
Dear Denise:
I am sorry to hear of your discomfort, but that happens with surgery and the anesthesia.
I am glad that you enjoyed your Lasagna but if you can get some real food, not hospital food, sneaked in that will be terrific... get a chocolate milkshake too.. ...
How much longer are you scheduled in the hospital before they let you go ??? ????
Thank you for your updates and photos....
Wishing you well, heal up real fast.
Hugs,and more hugs,
Danielle
@Alaskan Danielle surgery was Thursday I expect to go home Thursday maybe Wednesday.
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So the awake part of the 3rd day post op morning (Thursday surgery it's not Sunday 9:30am)
Dr Schechter came in this morning, which was a surprise. I didn't expect to see him today. He was happy and even joking around in a serious way. Apparently I'm doing well. Swelling is diminishing, oozing has basically stopped, no bleeding and almost no pain. Honestly, I don't get it. I'm uncomfortable but seriously no pain, okay when I cough the world is ending, but that's very normal.
The Fellow that works with Schechter (Alex something) came in a bit later on a social call (he's really REALLY cute but I suspect not interested ;) and we chatted for quite some time about general what's going on down below and some other questions I had. My friend Patti, who hopes to have GCS with Schechter later this year, was here too. She had questions that were answered too.
I would say that if you have the opportunity to stay with someone post op, consider it. I know Patti and Chrissy are both better prepared for surgery and know what to expect.
As for everyone reading this thread my whole care team and I agree that attitude is the number one thing for your well being in the hospital post surgery. You can be fun and uplifting or you can be a downer and a jerk. Be the former. I'm joking and having fun with everyone who comes in to see me. When they leave I want everyone to have a smile on their face. Hospital workers are doing a really tough job and are under appreciated. I'm trying to make their day a little less icky.
PT should be here shortly and I should be given clearance to walk around all I want (and I want to walk around a lot!) Alex did say I'm not allowed to walk home (2 miles/3km) after discharge. Ahhh, maybe when they're not looking I'll sneak home.
I'll post an update later. With the exception of trying to sleep, it's been a positive experience.
Now now Denise! Do what the doctors say. I would hate to think you start to have trouble walking home only after a 1/4 mile or so. Besides, you have till next Thursday to walk around with the hospital staff with you.
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Now now Denise! Do what the doctors say. I would hate to think you start to have trouble walking home only after a 1/4 mile or so. Besides, you have till next Thursday to walk around with the hospital staff with you.
i was kidding - Sonic is much closer!
(okay I'm still kidding)
I'm a rule follower. I do what they tell me.
Quote from: Denise on December 16, 2018, 10:02:37 AM
So the awake part of the 3rd day post op morning (Thursday surgery it's not Sunday 9:30am)
Dr Schechter came in this morning, which was a surprise. I didn't expect to see him today. He was happy and even joking around in a serious way. Apparently I'm doing well. Swelling is diminishing, oozing has basically stopped, no bleeding and almost no pain. Honestly, I don't get it. I'm uncomfortable but seriously no pain, okay when I cough the world is ending, but that's very normal.
The Fellow that works with Schechter (Alex something) came in a bit later on a social call (he's really REALLY cute but I suspect not interested ;) and we chatted for quite some time about general what's going on down below and some other questions I had. My friend Patti, who hopes to have GCS with Schechter later this year, was here too. She had questions that were answered too.
I would say that if you have the opportunity to stay with someone post op, consider it. I know Patti and Chrissy are both better prepared for surgery and know what to expect.
As for everyone reading this thread my whole care team and I agree that attitude is the number one thing for your well being in the hospital post surgery. You can be fun and uplifting or you can be a downer and a jerk. Be the former. I'm joking and having fun with everyone who comes in to see me. When they leave I want everyone to have a smile on their face. Hospital workers are doing a really tough job and are under appreciated. I'm trying to make their day a little less icky.
PT should be here shortly and I should be given clearance to walk around all I want (and I want to walk around a lot!) Alex did say I'm not allowed to walk home (2 miles/3km) after discharge. Ahhh, maybe when they're not looking I'll sneak home.
I'll post an update later. With the exception of trying to sleep, it's been a positive experience.
You sound really well(considering). Getting the movement restrictions lifted will no doubt lift your spirits further...great to hear how well you are doing especially looking after your pain.
Your last update shows just how well you are doing and your positive attitude will make a huge positive difference to your recovery
Congrats o such fabulous progress
Liz
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She has some sort of super human healing abilities. I keep looking for a bald dude in a wheelchair floating around to take her off to Xavier's School.
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:laugh:
Denise darling, Your doing very well in your recovery. You'll be home before you know it.
Lisa
Denise, happy continued healing - you go girl!
Thanks all. I feel great, considering what was done to me. :)
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Congratulations, I am late to the thread, sorry.
Definitely take it easy and it is good you are a rule follower. The reduced pain issue is due to cut nerves. They will be reconnecting in time.
Take it easy and do not over do anything.
Since when is sleep optional???
An hour and I woke up like I slept all night
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Quote from: Denise on December 17, 2018, 12:06:01 AM
Since when is sleep optional???
An hour and I woke up like I slept all night
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First day out...walked 250m to get real coffee...came back and slept for 2hrs solid...lol I can relate....[emoji3]
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Quote from: Denise on December 17, 2018, 12:06:01 AM
Since when is sleep optional???
An hour and I woke up like I slept all night
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I figured it out... I'm starving. Dinner at 5:00 and nothing else. Time to stock up on c cereal or something.
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Hi dear, it seems like we share so much. It has been the constant lower. back pain that is rough. You are healing well, maybe the teddy bear helps! Could you put her on a flight to Philadelphia?
Quote from: Dorit on December 17, 2018, 06:43:42 AM
Hi dear, it seems like we share so much. It has been the constant lower. back pain that is rough. You are healing well, maybe the teddy bear helps! Could you put her on a flight to Philadelphia?
Send me an address. She might have brothers and sisters that like to fly. Mine is not a fan of flying so no airplanes for them.
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One more thing to pack, maybe. A mirror. Personally I don't want to look yet but everyone is different.
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Denise, I caught up on your thread this morning. I also want to add that attitude is huge in your recovery and how you perceive pain. Having a good attitude and smiling makes the world of a difference.
Quote from: Denise on December 17, 2018, 04:05:52 AM
I figured it out... I'm starving. Dinner at 5:00 and nothing else. Time to stock up on c cereal or something.
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If you want food or something else, ask the nurses about it. Often they extra things at the nursing station should a patient want it. Sometimes medications need to be taken with food or a patient may wake up hungry after coming out of general. There may not be much of a selection but you won't know unless you ask.
That's exactly what the nurses said. But, the pizza in two hours is sure to taste good
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Good morning. It's 4ay of day post op day 5. (Surgery Thursday, it's Tuesday)
Vitals every morning at 4am. (113/64 98.8 temp). I sleep better last night. I probably got 4.5 hours. And in hospital, I'll take that.
Today is unpacking day which will include a shower and a very "hands-on" class they call "getting to know your new vagina" it will also include the use of a mirror.
I'll post later about each.
Now onto speculation and personal stuff. YMMV on this. In fact it will vary, guaranteed.. this is my experience and I did this without asking for Dr permission but he was happy that I did it.
I get very emotional when I stop E (weekly injections) between days 10 and about 21 or later. I decided I didn't want to go through hell week while I was in the hospital. So I stopped the injections such that surgery was on day 29. Yes I stopped a month prior to surgery.
My emotions here are 100% under my control; no crying no weeping etc.
The other thing about me physically is I'm pretty fit. I weigh 145lbs and I'm 5:6" tall (66kg/167cm) and most of that is muscle. There's a little fat but mostly the weight is all in my legs. I cycle, walk, rollerblade,...a lot.
Also I apparently have a high pain tolerance and good genes for recovery based on my history and other family members.
I mention this all because
1. I stopped pain meds after 36 hours post op
2. No bruising
3. Little swelling that is almost totally gone.
4. I was free to walk about all I walked on day 3. And I did!
5. I'm a day ahead of this Dr schedule
6. I asked the staff and all say that's it's been a while since anyone has progressed as quickly.
The challenge is knowing why each of these occurred.
As I said YMMV. But if you're just starting your journey I suggest work on getting into better shape. Your whole life will improve. I lost 25 pounds (11kg) I'm the few years it took to come out and start to deal with my demons. If I can do it, so can you. I'm not special.
More later
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Something else to bring or be ready for: Note taking.
I've forgotten more questions I wanted to ask than, umm, I can remember. Literally a dozen things I wanted to ask and forgot. I've seen my surgeon everyday for maybe 2 minutes. You want your questions ready and easily accessible.
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Sad face. There was a miscommunication between PA and surgeon. The packing was not removed and I'm not being released a day early. According to the surgeon (Loren Schechter) my patients will never be released early and packing out no earlier than day 6. So that means I get another day of this, umm, awesome food.
Another day of healing under their control is good.
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Quote from: Denise on December 18, 2018, 08:33:24 AM
Sad face. There was a miscommunication between PA and surgeon. The packing was not removed and I'm not being released a day early. According to the surgeon (Loren Schechter) my patients will never be released early and packing out no earlier than day 6. So that means I get another day of this, umm, awesome food.
Another day of healing under their control is good.
QUESTION: How did it go when you finally got a look at yourself in a mirror?... if you found one?
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@Denise My dear Denise:
Look at this extra day directly under medical supervision as GOOD NEWS.... it would not be a good thing to be released early and to have some kind of complication and have to return to fix it.
When you do get home you can treat yourself to all the delicious food that you can order in, fix yourself, or have friends bring to you...... I would go for that big home delivery PIZZA with all the toppings... and perhaps breadsticks or a salad on the side. That will be something to look forward to for sure.
Many hugs.... and have patience, you will be home soon!!!
I will continue to be eagerly following your updates.... and any new photos are always a treat for me to see.
Best Wishes as always,
Danielle
One more day with the packing in is probably a good thing for healing as well, despite being rather uncomfortable.
If I were stuck in a hospital in Chicago, I'd be finding a way to get Portillo's delivered. ;D
Quote from: Colleen_definitely on December 18, 2018, 10:29:07 AM
One more day with the packing in is probably a good thing for healing as well, despite being rather uncomfortable.
If I were stuck in a hospital in Chicago, I'd be finding a way to get Portillo's delivered. ;D
@Denise Dear Denise:
Well now, our forums friend @Colleen_definitely has a great idea.... here are some tantalizing pictures. Just pick up your phone and take care of your food cravings.
HUGS and HUGS.... and get ready to get out of the hospital soon.
Danielle(https://i.imgur.com/wnEc1Kl.jpg) (https://i.imgur.com/fxX88Cy.jpg)
Now that's just mean :D
Besides, everyone knows you go to Portillo's for the Italian beef sandwiches.
Quote from: Colleen_definitely on December 18, 2018, 01:06:06 PM
Now that's just mean :D
Besides, everyone knows you go to Portillo's for the Italian beef sandwiches.
@Colleen_definitely Dear Colleen:I am not being mean at all, just trying to help
@Denise while she is stuck in the hospital...
NOTE to Denise: Portillo's does deliver.Oh, and you are right, their Italian Beef sandwiches are very famous... in my previous job when I traveled around the country extensively and to Chicago a lot, I had ordered and tried most of the items on their menu so all of their sandwich offerings are wonderfully tasty.
Here is the picture I should have posted in the first place... showing the Italian Beef Sandwich.
Hugs,
Danielle
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Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on December 18, 2018, 01:27:17 PM
@Colleen_definitely
Dear Colleen:
I am not being mean at all, just trying to help @Denise while she is stuck in the hospital...
NOTE to Denise: Portillo's does deliver.
Oh, and you are right, their Italian Beef sandwiches are very famous... in my previous job when I traveled around the country extensively and to Chicago a lot, I had ordered and tried most of the items on their menu so all of their sandwich offerings are wonderfully tasty.
Here is the picture I should have posted in the first place... showing the Italian Beef Sandwich.
Hugs,
Danielle
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And how about a side of Italian sausage bread with that sandwich? Yum!!! Hang in there Denise! You'll be home soon. And then,,, PIZZA!!!
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Quote from: Donica on December 18, 2018, 03:30:35 PM
And how about a side of Italian sausage bread with that sandwich? Yum!!! Hang in there Denise! You'll be home soon. And then,,, PIZZA!!!
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Pizza was Monday night
Sushi was Tuesday night
Probably Pizza again tonight
Today was unpacking day. The whole process took 15 minutes. I was glad I had a stress ball as the stitches were pulled. I can take almost an unlimited amount of expected pain that's lasting a few days but really sharp "bee sting" type pain (think electrolysis) sends me to the roof! There was a little of that. BUT the weird part was pulling 12 feet of gauze out of my (MY!) new Vagina.
The sensation was unlike anything I can describe. Everything down there is numb so you can't actually feel the gauze coming out of the vagina's opening. BUT what you do feel is the rough gauze and twists and lumps rubbing against the prostate. It's like a tickler or vibrator on your prostate that lasts about 30 seconds to a minute. My guess is people who partake in activities that excite the prostate may understand what I'm referring to.
Today is Shower day and then "Your vagina 101" from the really super awesome PA.
Pizza tonight maybe then the catheter is out tomorrow. Shortly after the catheter removal I'll use the toilet for the first time without a pointing device. ;D
Denise, congratulations!
You moved into a new body, so it was time to unpack. ;)
Quote from: Kendra on December 19, 2018, 07:49:35 AM
Denise, congratulations!
You moved into a new body, so it was time to unpack. ;)
Okay, that's funny!
Today is discharge day. But first they need to remove the catheter (Foley). The procedure they "warned" me about is:
* Lay on the bed
* Back fill my bladder with 300ml (about 10oz) of water
* Pull the catheter out
* "Run" to the bathroom
* Pee into a measuring cup.
* Fingers crossed you expell about 300ml
Then they will start the discharge process. Funny that I don't know what happens if I don't expell 300ml.
There's a light at the end of the tunnel and it's not an oncoming train.
More later
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Oh dear! Kinda like an enema but in the front. Yes indeed, "RUN" to the bathroom. There certainly is a lot of things to take into consideration when going through this phase of our transitioning.
Congratulations Denise and have a safe short trip home. Don't walk! Please let someone take you home. I guess I should welcome home as you may already be home now?
Hugs girl!
Donica.
Welcome home Denise.
Get plenty of rest and don't over do it.
Lisa
Saturday day +9
I did very little today and it felt good. I did a little cooking but mostly day in a recliner watching all sorts of stuff on the tube.
Tomorrow is baking day. I want to make a few different cookies.
The only pain I have left is my lower abdomen. It feels like a really bad sunburn. Touching/clothes-rubbing is very painful.
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Quote from: Denise on December 22, 2018, 10:16:30 PM
Saturday day +9
I did very little today and it felt good. I did a little cooking but mostly day in a recliner watching all sorts of stuff on the tube.
Tomorrow is baking day. I want to make a few different cookies.
The only pain I have left is my lower abdomen. It feels like a really bad sunburn. Touching/clothes-rubbing is very painful.
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@Denise Dear Denise:I love to have days that I have nothing going on... usually that only happens on a weekend when the weather gets really bad... sometimes I will stay in my PJs and/or sweats... and like you, watch some movies, read a book by my fireplace, spend some time on the Forums....
...and today I spent the afternoon baking Cinnamon Rolls...
(pictures are on my Hunted Prey thread)I am glad that most of your pain and discomfort is pretty well gone... with the exception of your lower abdomen. I am sure that in a couple days that may go away as well.
You sounded happy and content in your posting... I am so very happy for you and your surgery results...
Thank you for posting and sharing...
I am trusting that you will have a very Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year.
Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle
Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on December 22, 2018, 10:42:58 PM
@Denise
Dear Denise:
I love to have days that I have nothing going on... usually that only happens on a weekend when the weather gets really bad... sometimes I will stay in my PJs and/or sweats... and like you, watch some movies, read a book by my fireplace, spend some time on the Forums....
...and today I spent the afternoon baking Cinnamon Rolls... (pictures are on my Hunted Prey thread)
I am glad that most of your pain and discomfort is pretty well gone... with the exception of your lower abdomen. I am sure that in a couple days that may go away as well.
You sounded happy and content in your posting... I am so very happy for you and your surgery results...
Thank you for posting and sharing...
I am trusting that you will have a very Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year.
Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle
Thanks Danielle. Sometimes I wish I lived in a town like yours. I really like the sound of being in a house surrounded by a foot of snow, curled up by a fire and reading a good book. I'm envious of that. But I'm not so convinced that 63 days of nights (Barrow Alaska) would be my cup of tea.
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Yup! That's all I'm doing today too Denise. Though, before I finally changed out of my pajamas, I did do some shopping online. I spent way too much.
Quote from: Donica on December 23, 2018, 02:33:30 PM
... I did do some shopping online. I spent way too much.
Very easy to do.
One more thing pre surgery is to shave your arms. I probably had three IVs and a few blood draws. Pulling tape off is no fun.
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Quote from: Denise on December 23, 2018, 04:11:43 PM
Very easy to do.
One more thing pre surgery is to shave your arms. I probably had three IVs and a few blood draws. Pulling tape off is no fun.
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What kind of IV dressing did they use hat pulling it off would hurt you? Was it the clear Tegaderm stuff, or just standard tape?
I don't know. They used some tape on the blood suckers. It would have been less uncomfortable without hair.
Remember, I'm the one who has not used pain killers since bed time day one. Some pains are optional for me.
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Quote from: Denise on December 23, 2018, 07:21:28 PM
I don't know. They used some tape on the blood suckers. It would have been less uncomfortable without hair.
Remember, I'm the one who has not used pain killers since bed time day one. Some pains are optional for me.
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Thanks!
I don't know what pain it is, when tape is pulled off of hairy skin. I am that hairless person, who has no relations to such kind of pains.
The waiting game for things to heal is SOOOOO boring. Tomorrow I head back for my post-op follow-up appointment. Dr Schechter's post-op care is different from others. I've not started dilation yet. Tomorrow I'll be shown what/how to do the dilation. I'm not sure if I'm looking forward to it or absolutely terrified of it. I think I'm looking forward to the next step in the process of healing.
I'll post again tomorrow when I get home and let you know how it went.
Good luck Denise, just one more step in become a woman, how to take care of your new vagina.
Denise, hoping your post op appointment goes well. Maybe you should look upon dilation as the answer to boredom! :)
Quote from: Denise on December 26, 2018, 08:05:03 AM
The waiting game for things to heal is SOOOOO boring. Tomorrow I head back for my post-op follow-up appointment. Dr Schechter's post-op care is different from others. I've not started dilation yet. Tomorrow I'll be shown what/how to do the dilation. I'm not sure if I'm looking forward to it or absolutely terrified of it. I think I'm looking forward to the next step in the process of healing.
I'll post again tomorrow when I get home and let you know how it went.
@DeniseDear Denise: I trust that your Christmas Day went well for you.... it was indeed a very Merry Christmas for yourself as you have taken this big step in your transition.
Ahhhh, the "waiting game" for things to heal... it never happens as quickly as we all desire. PATIENCE !!!!!
Please know that we are all wishing that you a good report from your doctor with your followup appointment... and of course learning what you will have to do with dialation, etc.
Consider all of this as your
Christmas Present to yourself. This will go down in your journal as your most memorable Christmas ever!!
The New Year in 2019 will be the year of the "new" you... I am very happy for you.
I am looking forward to reading your continued updates...
Blessings to you and wishing you a quick and complete recovery.
Hugs,
Danielle
Quote from: Dorit on December 26, 2018, 09:22:01 AM
Denise, hoping your post op appointment goes well. Maybe you should look upon dilation as the answer to boredom! :)
Dilation is not boring. Or is that a pun. Dilation is intentionally boring and I know the drill.
Quote from: Kendra on December 27, 2018, 10:33:47 AM
Dilation is not boring. Or is that a pun. Dilation is intentionally boring and I know the drill.
Oh yes Kendra! I recall you spoke of a Mr. Rammstein was it? I do believe you mentioned he was a boring subject.
Holy smoke!
I just go home from my follow up appointment. All is good and healing well. Dilation demo went well. We only used the first two in size, yellow and orange. No issues, no pain, no ... nothing.
I know that sometimes I can ignore pain or even compartmentalize it away but in this case there was only a feeling of fullness.
I go back again on the 7th where the purple dilator will attempted and the hard curved dilators will be introduced next week.
Douching is a strange feeling. Especially with the betadine in the solution. It looks like flat Coca-Cola going in and coming out all over the shower.
Tomorrow is dilation at home #1. They told me to hold off today and start 3-a-days Friday. Total time is 15-30 minutes. You might want a TV and watch a show.
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Quote from: Denise on December 27, 2018, 10:48:23 PM
Douching is a strange feeling. Especially with the betadine in the solution. It looks like flat Coca-Cola going in and coming out all over the shower.
Tomorrow is dilation at home #1. They told me to hold off today and start 3-a-days Friday. Total time is 15-30 minutes. You might want a TV and watch a show.
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Hi Denise
Congratulations on your progress. Having different surgeons makes for different dilation regimes. I started at day 8 and I have no idea if it's better to start early or later but a couple of things spring to mind...having an empty bowel and bladder will make things easier and the biggest thing I had to keep telling myself was to relax, the more relaxed I am the "easier" things were...much easier said than done lol Good luck I am sure you will be fine.
Take care
Liz
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Now that you are dilating, can I ask how much depth you have? And did the surgeon use a skin graft to extend the depth? If so, where did he harvest the skin graft from?
Denise, I am only one day behind you and my recovery is so much slower. You are out and about, I have not left the recovery apartment of the surgeon. I did a modified and I still have swelling and pain, I can sit up but only for short periods, otherwise I am on my back still all day. Maybe it is my age, the reason is really not important. I couldn't be happier with the results, and I am healing at my own pace.
Love you!
Quote from: Dorit on December 28, 2018, 09:52:15 AM
Denise, I am only one day behind you and my recovery is so much slower. You are out and about, I have not left the recovery apartment of the surgeon. I did a modified and I still have swelling and pain, I can sit up but only for short periods, otherwise I am on my back still all day. Maybe it is my age, the reason is really not important. I couldn't be happier with the results, and I am healing at my own pace.
Love you!
Some people heal faster than others. Age is not such a big component herewith. I had carpal tunnel surgery done when i was about your age, and I healed from this in no time. I had the other hand done 5 years earlier, but the healing was as quick with the second one as it was with the first one.
I tend to be a fast healer, no idea why.
Hi Denise, I had a 5 30 minute dilation schedule a day for the first 3 months then 3 sessions a day for 3 months then twice a day for 6 months and once a day after. I am over 2 years post op and I know woman that went to the same surgeon and dilate once a week. I never misses a dilation.
Anyhow dilation is boring but very important. Remember to apply the recommended pressure the whole time. It is easy to do something on the cell phone or watch TV and reduce the pressure.
You will be ready for the beach the summer :)
Quote from: echo7 on December 27, 2018, 11:42:26 PM
Now that you are dilating, can I ask how much depth you have? And did the surgeon use a skin graft to extend the depth? If so, where did he harvest the skin graft from?
Depth is undetermined. I can take the full yellow and orange. Then I asked the PA in the office she went digging and couldn't reach the top. And trust me, she went all the way +++ in and couldn't reach the end.
My surgeon, Loren Schechter, here in Chicago, did miracles. My male genitalia was such that I never needed to tuck. I was a grower and had shrunk about 50% on HRT in the past two years. No grafts. He used only penile and scrotal materials. He's a magician and I'm very pleased, so far. In a few months I'll talk about sensation. But for now most of the area is still numb. The nerve endings are just reestablishing themselves.
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Quote from: Dorit on December 28, 2018, 09:52:15 AM
Denise, I am only one day behind you and my recovery is so much slower. You are out and about, I have not left the recovery apartment of the surgeon. I did a modified and I still have swelling and pain, I can sit up but only for short periods, otherwise I am on my back still all day. Maybe it is my age, the reason is really not important. I couldn't be happier with the results, and I am healing at my own pace.
Love you!
Dorit, just a note, I'm about to turn 57. I'm in pretty good physical health. (Some label me as athletic, I don't think so but okay. We are out worst critics.)
Everyone heals at their own pace. My superhero power is my healing ability; it's genetic.
I'm post-op day +17 and today I:
* 10 minutes on the elliptical
* Followed by climbing 16 flights of stairs (slowly)
* Went to the movies (Spiderman)
* Then we l went to a Mexican restaurant where one margherita will put you away. (Which I'm feeling now.)
Everyone heals and recovers from major surgery differently.
Go at your own pace. You drive you're own destiny.
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Quote from: Rachel on December 30, 2018, 03:54:38 PM
Hi Denise, I had a 5 30 minute dilation schedule a day for the first 3 months then 3 sessions a day for 3 months then twice a day for 6 months and once a day after. I am over 2 years post op and I know woman that went to the same surgeon and dilate once a week. I never misses a dilation.
Anyhow dilation is boring but very important. Remember to apply the recommended pressure the whole time. It is easy to do something on the cell phone or watch TV and reduce the pressure.
You will be ready for the beach the summer :)
At this point I'm just inserting and waiting. I'm not using the hard plastic ones yet. Those take some concentration and finesse. Right now I'm responding to messages. (Umm literally right now. [emoji39][emoji39])
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It sounds like everything is moving along well Denise! Congratulations! I hope everything goes this well for me. I too have shrunk at least 50% and no longer need to tuck.
Happy New Year girl!!!
Donica.
QuoteI too have shrunk at least 50%
Another thing for me to look forward to, when I start hormones. I can't wait to get started!
@Denise Dear Denise:I have so much enjoyed your updates as you continue on in your journey.
Your positive reports and photos describing your recent surgeries have been inspiring to all that read your threads.
Thank you for feeling free to share your life events with all of us.
Obviously some bumps in the road that all of us experience so continue to hang on for an exciting ride.
I am so very happy that I found you and your thread on the Forums this last year and I will be eagerly following your upcoming reports and updates in the New Year in 2019.
Wishing you a very
HAPPY NEW YEAR in 2019...
Hugs and as always, well wishes.
Danielle
@Alaskan.danielle thank you for the kind words.
Update day +19
Sleeping is challenging. The nerves are starting to wake up. I'm not sure if it's just on schedule or if it's the dilation that's doing it.
I'm a little sore and it's keeping me up or waking me up at night. Phantom pains are real but diminishing.
The whole area feels tight. It's like I need a good stretch or deep massage (NOT HAPPENING!)
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Post op Day 21
The term for today is phantom pains. This is the difficult part, for a year I was blissfully unaware of my male bits. But now I'm feeling phantom pains that I'm constantly reminded of my male parts. Even though they are "gone" I'm feeling their nerves firing randomly.
Hopefully the nerves reattach and I can figure where everything is reattached. It's strange.
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@Denise Dear Denise:Hang in their girl.... healing takes time and eventually these difficulties will slowly go away...
... it is a strange thing about phantom pains.... your nerves keep sending signals to you brain about pain in places that there are no places any longer...
Time and healing will eventually help solve that....
PATIENCE, rest and eventually things will heal.
Thank you for posting and sharing and keeping your followers tuned in to your life events.
Hugs and best wishes...
DanielleQuote from: Denise on January 03, 2019, 07:32:30 PM
Post op Day 21
The term for today is phantom pains. This is the difficult part, for a year I was blissfully unaware of my male bits. But now I'm feeling phantom pains that I'm constantly reminded of my male parts. Even though they are "gone" I'm feeling their nerves firing randomly.
Hopefully the nerves reattach and I can figure where everything is reattached. It's strange.
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Being only one day apart I can so much identify with what you are going through. I can only share what my surgeon told me; that our bodies have a remarkable ability to heal and that this is a three to six month process. Be kind and patient with yourself. You are a peach!
Quote from: Dorit on January 04, 2019, 07:31:23 AM
Being only one day apart I can so much identify with what you are going through. I can only share what my surgeon told me; that our bodies have a remarkable ability to heal and that this is a three to six month process. Be kind and patient with yourself. You are a peach!
Thanks Dorit.
I've been taking pictures of the surgical area twice per day since I got home. It's interesting to see the changes over time.
*** Warning graphic description to follow ***
BUT last night I got the freakout of my life. A large portion of the surgical area is numb. And when I looked at last night's picture I thought I saw two issues.
1 - I thought I pulled all the stitches out right below the vaginal opening
2 - it appeared to be all black puss like a huge infection.
Those two things combined with some new discomfort (actual pain and for me that's saying a lot) had me contacting the Dr office at 9:15 last night. 5 minutes later I got an email back requesting I send pictures.
15 minutes after that I was given the okay to dilate, it looked okay to the Drs but come in at 11:00 tomorrow (which was today).
I went over a bunch of issues I was having. All explained as normal. But the phantom pains was an interesting discussion. They said a few patients had mentioned it but most don't. So now they're wondering if people are not saying anything or are they not realizing what the sensations are.
The other thing I realized is the pain I'm having now (three weeks of constant reminding of my crotch) has set me back months (a year?) on my mental transition. I used to just ignore my bits but between the phantom pains and the constant reminder that I just fixed things it's a mental set back.
The Drs agreed that once things settle down the transformation will quickly get back on track.
Thanks for continued reading.
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We are all still here Denise! We are behind you 100%. I glad to hear your said everything is ok. Let us know what he says today? Hang in there. Speedy recovery girl!!!
Hugs,
Donica.
Hi Denise,
GCS has stages to it. Just remember it is normal and everyone handles it differently. Remember to do something nice for yourself every once and a while and be kind to yourself. Remember to check the negatives and focus on the positives.
I never had phantom pains. I had pain from nerves reconnecting and major pain when all the scar tissue I had contracted at month 3 on. I got through that and had a major revision. My next and final no matter what revision is in April.
I had some depression hit when it all came to settle in. Maybe it was from lack of hormones. Maybe it was finally climbing to the top of the mountain and realizing I now needed to fine my new normal. No more if, but now what do I do.
Awesome you have great depth. Awesome you are recovering well. Take it easy on yourself. Remember to eat well and get your rest. No comment on the alcohol. What ever you do, do not smoke anything.
Quote from: Denise on January 03, 2019, 07:32:30 PM
Post op Day 21
The term for today is phantom pains. This is the difficult part, for a year I was blissfully unaware of my male bits. But now I'm feeling phantom pains that I'm constantly reminded of my male parts. Even though they are "gone" I'm feeling their nerves firing randomly.
Hopefully the nerves reattach and I can figure where everything is reattached. It's strange.
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When I had my orchiectomy my pain doctor said that numbing the testes even tho I would be knocked out was thought to possibly help avoid phantom pains. The theory is that the surgery to amputate them still fires pain signals to the brain without them being numbed and the brain can be zapped so strongly that it can be influenced to "play back." *I'm saying this all wrong but hopefully I'm saying it well enough to be explainable.
Quote from: JanePlain on January 05, 2019, 08:41:41 PM
When I had my orchiectomy my pain doctor said that numbing the testes even tho I would be knocked out was thought to possibly help avoid phantom pains. The theory is that the surgery to amputate them still fires pain signals to the brain without them being numbed and the brain can be zapped so strongly that it can be influenced to "play back." *I'm saying this all wrong but hopefully I'm saying it well enough to be explainable.
But in this case phantom pains after very very good. You want them. You need to teach the mind that when your left testicle itches, it's actually the xxxx of your new anatomy.
So I welcome them but it's still a learning process. One thing that helps is to explore the new design. Feel around and associate the feelings with where you're touching.
It's slow since there's a lot of very sensitive tissue down there. I've waited 50 years, I can wait a few more months.
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Sunday day 23
I give up on bowel movements. They are so small compared to the food I put in that I'm a little concerned. It's not zero, just not much.
I'm on 3 Colace, heaping teaspoon of Benefiber and one of miralax. So today, at Dr recommendation, a small enema. I feel so much better!
Massaging the scar, again Dr recommendation, has lessoned the constant soreness. I'm hoping in a few days of doing that I'll be closer to pain free.
Note to others about to have GCS, buy more antibacterial liquid hand soap. Watching the dilators 6 times per day (before and after each dilation) uses a lot.
I'm feeling good. I'm not ready to get back on my bicycle yet but I'm itching to go ice skating.
Tomorrow is dilation training number two where we'll go over the use of the measuring monsters (blue and green). The purple one scares me as it is. For those who have not seen what the Soul Source (? I think that's the company name) here's a picture.
The cans are standard 12oz (355ml) cans. The wine bottle is a well a mostly empty wine bottle. [emoji16](https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20190107/0eb770c6e40dc13130219c2c7a93639b.jpg)
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You know you got this girl. [emoji1316]
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Today is post op day 25.
Side note to start: I had a great lunch with @JillianC today and a pre-op MTF friend of mine who is waiting for insurance confirmation to have GCS also with Dr Schechter. (Fingers crossed it all comes back approved as she's really looking forward to getting it done.) Jilian is a sweetheart and hopefully we'll get together this summer for some bike riding.
Now on to the medical stuff...
Some (not a lot but some) of the sensitivty near the surgical area is coming back. Not as much as I would like but it's only been 3.5 weeks. I still have numbness of my scalp from surgery there on 25 September 2018 and it's coming back slowly too. I'm not worried about the lack of sensensation and won't be until mid summer. My expectation is it will come back on it's own schedule.
I had a check up with Dr Schechter today. It all went well and I was given "permission" (instructions?) on using the blue hard dilator. I don't need to use the monster purple one unless I feel I'll need it; I don't. He also told me to start massaging both the incision as well as the region above the clitoris since the Orchiectomy affects that area. That will reduce some of the swelling and lesson the sensitivity (it's uncomfortable at times).
My next check up is in mid February (post op day #67).
This is the rough schedule that I was given. These timelines apply to me YMMV (actually your mileage Will vary) Dr Schechter is VERY conservative and these are his guidelines.
Week 6 I may resume:
* light yoga
* light lifting of weights (no real weight limit was given, he said "take it easy")
* moderate exercise, don't over do it.
Week 8-10 I may: (I'm waiting at least 10)
* Sexual intercourse
* Submersive bathing
* Swimming
TBD:
Bike Riding
Since my next appointment is 3 days shy of 10 weeks I'll wait for the OKAY on the 10 week items. That won't be a problem since I'm not interested in a sexual encounter with a guy so that's not a challenge and showers are okay and swimming in Chicago in the winter sounds dreadful.
Bike riding in the winter here is something I take a pass on until the spring anyway so I'm good there. He suggested that I talk with my GP (Dr Fred Ettner) about mammogram and ObGyn referral. He thought Ettner could take care of the ObGyn 'stuff'.
Now some of the more personal aspects...
I tried out the Blue dilator. As for depth I can get to about the same depth as the orange dilator. I'm not sure if that's because that's as far as I've stretched things out or not. The next few days will shed a little light on that.
Quote from: Denise on January 06, 2019, 10:23:58 PM
Sunday day 23
I give up on bowel movements. They are so small compared to the food I put in that I'm a little concerned. It's not zero, just not much.
I'm on 3 Colace, heaping teaspoon of Benefiber and one of miralax. So today, at Dr recommendation, a small enema. I feel so much better!
If you are bound up Magnesium Citrate does wonders, just be sure to take a probiotic or eat some Yogurt... For me I eat anything with Canola Oil and it has the same effect... That stuff is terrible, meant as a lubricant for above the artic circle lubrication has invaded the food supply chain in North America...
Congratulations on the surgery and I pray for a speedy recovery!
Quote from: Denise on January 06, 2019, 10:23:58 PM
Massaging the scar, again Dr recommendation, has lessoned the constant soreness. I'm hoping in a few days of doing that I'll be closer to pain free.
What scar is this, that needs to be massaged? I had SRS with Dr Chettawut, and the scars were along my labia. The area was way too sensitive after surgery to be massaged. Are you massaging scars on your labia, or somewhere else? I'm confused.
Quote from: echo7 on January 08, 2019, 02:48:30 AM
What scar is this, that needs to be massaged? I had SRS with Dr Chettawut, and the scars were along my labia. The area was way too sensitive after surgery to be massaged. Are you massaging scars on your labia, or somewhere else? I'm confused.
Echo,
The scar(s) that I'm massaging are the same as you mentioned, those along the labia. Basically the whole "W" scar. I had two very sensitive (okay, pain) points one at the very top of my right side and the other at the very bottom on the left side. Once I started to massage those points (and yes it's VERY uncomfortable to do that!) the pain started to subside. Now it's more like a dull ache and quite ignorable where before it was something to contend with.
One thing I do is I take pictures every morning and every evening. I can definitely see things progressing and looking better every day. I started with the pictures right after I got home so I don't have any pre-discharge pictures. Note that these are NOT on my phone but on a real camera. If you're interested in doing the same, one thing that helped a lot was getting a flood light that you can direct onto the surgical area. In my case I have a warning/emergency light that I hold between my feet as I take the pictures lying down prior to dilation.
Glad things continue to go well, Denise. Thank you for the updates!
Quote from: Denise on January 08, 2019, 12:35:14 AM
He also told me to start massaging both the incision as well as the region above the clitoris since the Orchiectomy affects that area. That will reduce some of the swelling and lesson the sensitivity (it's uncomfortable at times).
My next check up is in mid February (post op day #67).
This is the rough schedule that I was given. These timelines apply to me YMMV (actually your mileage Will vary) Dr Schechter is VERY conservative and these are his guidelines.
Great! The idea of scar massage seems to slowly get around! We were preaching and teaching it for years already to the surgical field! Make sure you use a lot of lubricant (best Vitamin E containing) when you do the massages! Massage the areas several times a day, and gently try to break the scat tissue unter the skin down.
Day 26
I'm lying here dilating and thought i would post today's update.
I tried out the purple monster today. It went in slowly and all but the last 1/2 inch (1 cm). I'm more than pleased with the depth and girth. Considering what Schechter had to work with, I'm a happy girl.
Tonight I went to an open mic in Boystown (Google sidetrack outspoken). The speakers tonight were great. I'm on the schedule for next month. I have do much to say so I'm not sure what I want to say in 10-15 minutes. I'm thinking of doing either my self discovering of myself or the experience of GCS. I'm really torn. Maybe 6 minutes on each.
Next topic...
I'm very open about the surgery. I had a pre-op friend watch me dilate and got right in there to see everything. With that in mind, if you would like to see pics PM me and I can send you some.
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I'm glad you are doing well Denise. :)
Great update thanks for sharing Denise...sounds like you are making great progress with you dilation. I have similar dilators as show in the pic although my set are all like the blue and green ones.
Take care
Liz
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Today marks 5 weeks since GCS. Some random thoughts, some are repeats, sorry
* Everyone I know who is post-op describes it the same and so will I... I'm very glad I did it, but really glad I don't have to do it again.
* After +50 years I finally see the right reflection in the mirror. It was like what was there was "in the way" of what should be there. Now it is right.
* My mental attitude is slowly returning and I'm not trying to "hold my pointer down" while peeing. I just need to not lean back ;)
* The swelling is mostly gone.
* Dilation is BORING and gets in the way of living sometimes.
* The incision is still a little tender but massaging it helps.
* The feeling/sensation is SLOWLY returning and I think I'm behind the curve on that one.
* I return to work next Tuesday :(
* I can sit for longer and longer periods of time
* I did 30 minutes elliptical and 17 on the treadmill today
* I now don't need to stop and think about tops needing to cover below the zipper. Which is nice.
* I've put on 5 pounds not doing anything. Which is NOT nice.
@Denise Dear Denise:I had a "sticky note" on my computer monitor to remind me to write to you later today to see how you are doing since your last week's update and then was happy when I saw your new posting on your thread.... I am so glad to hear that your recovery and dilation stuff is going so well for you.
Yes indeed the dilation takes lots of time, put in a movie or something to help you pass the time.... but never ever skimp on how much dilation that you must do.... you went through a lot of discomfort, pain, mental stamina... and money to get to the point of taking this biggest of big steps in your transition journey... doing the dilation correctly and for the required times is a must if you are going to get the benefits from all of the things that have been done.... but of course you already know all of this so I will stop writing about it..... sorry.
Oh yeah, peeing will be a new experience..... "no hands" ;)
Also keep up your exercise on the elliptical and treadmill.....
... and very soon break out those leggings, low cut skinny jeans and bikini bottoms and show off your smooth front now!!!!! It will certainly be an exciting time for you.
Again, thank you for sharing your thoughts and posting on your thread.
Hugs and as always, well wishes to you in this very exciting stage in your journey.
Danielle
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@Denise
Dear Denise:
Oh yeah, peeing will be a new experience..... "no hands" ;)
Also keep up your exercise on the elliptical and treadmill.....
... and very soon break out those leggings, low cut skinny jeans and bikini bottoms and show off your smooth front now!!!!! It will certainly be an exciting time for you.
This may sound to be a stupid an inappropriate question, and please send me into the desert if you feel i deserve it!
I did not get really well endowed with my male parts, and I am slowly becoming more and more female (until 2 month ago without HRT). Those parts I have have had so dramatic amounts of atrophy that I have nothing left to tuck, and I can wear tight leggings without any problem (I would not want to expose the world to me wearing bikini's of any style).
And I have to also lean forward to pee (can't do urinals anymore) and have nothing to hold down. Which means those parts down there are working almost the same as your "new" parts for urination purposes. (I am not really interested in the sex related side off this)
My question is, if you would have been in my situation, would you still have done the surgery, considering the cost and pain involved, not bringing any other advantage that a little better image reflection in the mirror. As soon as I am dressed, one would hardly be able to see any difference between our neither regions.
Quote from: Denise on January 17, 2019, 04:55:30 PM
Today marks 5 weeks since GCS. Some random thoughts, some are repeats, sorry
* * The swelling is mostly gone.
* Dilation is BORING and gets in the way of living sometimes.
* The incision is still a little tender but massaging it helps.
* The feeling/sensation is SLOWLY returning and I think I'm behind the curve on that one.
* I can sit for longer and longer periods of time
* I did 30 minutes elliptical and 17 on the treadmill today
* I now don't need to stop and think about tops needing to cover below the zipper. Which is nice.
* I've put on 5 pounds not doing anything. Which is NOT nice.
Hi Denise I am 1 week ahead of you at 6 weeks....so nothing in other words
There is still a bit of swelling to go, dilation is boring but good for "me time", touch sensation is really minimal but I get all sorts of other sensations, I can sit a bit longer but over an hour and I have to stand or lie, started exercise this week 3 ks every 2nd day, I have put on about 4 pounds since 30/11/18..sounds like out tracks are very similar...congrats on your progress and I hope you keep getting great results
Take care
Liz
Quote from: Dietlind on January 17, 2019, 07:20:59 PM
This may sound to be a stupid an inappropriate question, and please send me into the desert if you feel i deserve it!
I did not get really well endowed with my male parts, and I am slowly becoming more and more female (until 2 month ago without HRT). Those parts I have have had so dramatic amounts of atrophy that I have nothing left to tuck, and I can wear tight leggings without any problem (I would not want to expose the world to me wearing bikini's of any style).
And I have to also lean forward to pee (can't do urinals anymore) and have nothing to hold down. Which means those parts down there are working almost the same as your "new" parts for urination purposes. (I am not really interested in the sex related side off this)
My question is, if you would have been in my situation, would you still have done the surgery, considering the cost and pain involved, not bringing any other advantage that a little better image reflection in the mirror. As soon as I am dressed, one would hardly be able to see any difference between our neither regions.
This is definitely a personal decision on your part. Here is why I WOULD have done it with a cautionary note. I too was able to wear almost anything I wanted without fear of exposing myself. So like you there was some shrinkage.
I definitely would get the surgery because I'm interested in having a lesbian relationship. I'm late 50's and I was/am concerned that lesbian women of my age would not be interested in having the extra baggage below.
There is a process called zero depth (some members have done this recently) which as the name implies, makes everything "look right" but there's no vagina. There's no dilation and some of the complications are gone.
Here's my cautionary note: I came through the surgery with a smile on my face. I experienced NO real pain so for me it was easy. I can't stress enough that you know your own body and it's ability to recover etc from major surgery. Ultimately the choice is yours.
Good to hear your recovery is going well Denise. If I may add a word for Dielind, I too am at that shrinkage point that I can wear almost anything. For me, it simply isn't enough. The bits are still there and in some situations, you can't hide it. This is unacceptable for me and this is just one aspect that drives my desire to get GCS. Another, of many aspects, for me is that, I am a girl. Those parts are not supposed to be there.
As Denise mentioned, it is solely your own decision. There are many things to be considered. Many questions to ask ourselves. Sex may not be of interest to you at this time but it is certainly something that can change in the future. Especially after finally becoming the whole person that we truly are.
I hope I didn't babble on too long. I'm sure you have already considered many of these things.
Quote from: Denise on January 17, 2019, 04:55:30 PM
* I now don't need to stop and think about tops needing to cover below the zipper. Which is nice.
This is one of my reasons for GCS. Not the only but it will relieve a lot of discomfort. Love ya Denise!!! [emoji171]
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Quote from: Denise on January 18, 2019, 12:03:49 PM
I definitely would get the surgery because I'm interested in having a lesbian relationship. I'm late 50's and I was/am concerned that lesbian women of my age would not be interested in having the extra baggage below.
There is a process called zero depth (some members have done this recently) which as the name implies, makes everything "look right" but there's no vagina. There's no dilation and some of the complications are gone.
I am like you, only quite a few years older! The zero depth would be the one i would do, if i get surgery.
I see myself in my dreams for well over 15 years now as a person with a vulva! Even in dreams that have no need to expose those parts, I ran around with an exposed vulva! This has nothing to do with any sexuality, it seems to be my identifier! I never did in my entire life (at least I cannot remember) see myself with mal e genitalia.
If my dreams want to tell my something, I better get going and get me one of those vulvas before they are sold out!
Quote from: Donica on January 18, 2019, 12:49:41 PM
Good to hear your recovery is going well Denise. If I may add a word for Dielind, I too am at that shrinkage point that I can wear almost anything. For me, it simply isn't enough. The bits are still there and in some situations, you can't hide it. This is unacceptable for me and this is just one aspect that drives my desire to get GCS. Another, of many aspects, for me is that, I am a girl. Those parts are not supposed to be there.
As Denise mentioned, it is solely your own decision. There are many things to be considered. Many questions to ask ourselves. Sex may not be of interest to you at this time but it is certainly something that can change in the future. Especially after finally becoming the whole person that we truly are.
I hope I didn't babble on too long. I'm sure you have already considered many of these things.
No, you did not babble! I am glad that you ladies share those points with me, thy help me with my decission making i am not dysphoric of my parts, they are just there, sometimes in the way, but mostly not. I am definitely going for an orchi, but i really don't know what person I am, I am still without any clear gender identity and am absolutely gender fluid. I prefer to be female, because mot of my body is female. The only clearly male part of my biology are my penis and one testicle (somebody made that decission after my birth that I should be a guy).
In all my dreams for about the last 15 years, I am clearly female, because I have a vulva and no penis.
Denise,
Thank you so much for sharing your updates. As someone who will have surgery in July, others' experience is very helpful medically and emotionally. I'm excited and can't wait. I've been tucking since I was about 10 years old. I'd stand in front of my bedroom mirror or lie in bed looking at myself with boy parts tucked between my thighs and out of sight. It's my dream. It's what I was supposed to be from the start. I have tons of support from family and friends. I can't wait.
I am one day behind Denise at five weeks. I had no problem hiding my modest genitals, even in a bathing suit. I have been full time for over one year. I did GRS for me. So I could feel complete as a woman and not have to look down on something that just did not belong when I would shower. I love my beautiful, female body! I do have to admit that even though I did a partial vaginoplasty, my recovery has been awful, including minor complications. However, at no point did I have any regrets, just a bit of surprise at how much I am suffering. Today I can say I have reached a milestone, I can sit for longer periods and my depression has lifted. Denise, I hope I am adding to the discussion and not hijacking your thread. I so much appreciate you sharing your experience.
Quote from: Dorit on January 19, 2019, 12:05:50 AM
I am one day behind Denise at five weeks. I had no problem hiding my modest genitals, even in a bathing suit. I have been full time for over one year. I did GRS for me. So I could feel complete as a woman and not have to look down on something that just did not belong when I would shower. I love my beautiful, female body! I do have to admit that even though I did a partial vaginoplasty, my recovery has been awful, including minor complications. However, at no point did I have any regrets, just a bit of surprise at how much I am suffering. Today I can say I have reached a milestone, I can sit for longer periods and my depression has lifted. Denise, I hope I am adding to the discussion and not hijacking your thread. I so much appreciate you sharing your experience.
This is so great Dorit, because if I have anything done, it would be the minimal depth version. Do you feel that some of your complications could have been avoided?
I know from my profession that any infection can be avoided, infections are always caused by breaches in sterile procedures.
Quote from: Beverly Anne on January 18, 2019, 04:04:25 PM
Denise,
Thank you so much for sharing your updates. As someone who will have surgery in July, others' experience is very helpful medically and emotionally. I'm excited and can't wait. I've been tucking since I was about 10 years old. I'd stand in front of my bedroom mirror or lie in bed looking at myself with boy parts tucked between my thighs and out of sight. It's my dream. It's what I was supposed to be from the start. I have tons of support from family and friends. I can't wait.
@Beverly.Anne it's more than my pleasure to share. I find it therapudic. Thank you for listening.
I offer myself, through PM, to anyone, to ask any questions you want. There are no dumb questions. I asked @jillianc some of the most silly questions that I didn't want to bother the doctor's office about.
Questions like:
When do you get real food?
What was physical therapy like on day one?
What did you bring to the hospital you didn't need?
What is the number one thing I should bring (a stuffed animal for comfort!)
Just silly personal worries I had. Without Jillian's help I would not have slept the night before. You know what? Almost 5 hours of peaceful sleep. I had no worries, no questions, I knew what was going to happen.
If you can find someone who had surgery with the same surgeon recently and is open to questions, Jackpot!! But I'll fill in otherwise.
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Hi Denise, I'm glad you're doing well. Exercising must make you feel more normal and back in your life. I know you will, but keep following what the Doctors say! We're all so pleased an proud of you!
Hi Denise,
Exercise must feel good. Remember to still take it a little easy as you are still healing. Gaining 5 pounds, I gained a lot of weight. I went from 190 to 220 over a year period. I was 200 and was told to lose weight for GCS, not because of my BMI, but because I have extra fat in the GCS area. Now that you are regaining mobility and exercise you will be less board and use more calories.
I went back to work at 3.5 weeks post op and was dilating 5 times a day. I was so exhausted. So enjoy your last week.
It has been a little over 2 years since I had GCS and I just do the things I do on a daily basis and never really think about my past anatomy. I hope you find peace going forward.
Aww, Denise, I'm glad I was able to help you out so much:D As you mentioned, it was therapeutic to write out those experiences and helped me process what just happened. Good luck to us next week...I'm looking forward to feeling like I contribute to something again.
Quote from: JillianC on January 19, 2019, 10:57:29 PM
Aww, Denise, I'm glad I was able to help you out so much:D As you mentioned, it was therapeutic to write out those experiences and helped me process what just happened. Good luck to us next week...I'm looking forward to feeling like I contribute to something again.
Thanks. Good luck to you too
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Funny story...
I ordered a case of lube for dilation. I think it was about $25 for 10x4oz tubes of lube. Then I found online, bulk lube in 64oz pump bottle for about the same price so I ordered it.
It arrived today, a case of it! Not just 1 jug but 4 jugs! Two gallons! I can lube the world!
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Quote from: Denise on January 21, 2019, 03:00:57 PM
Funny story...
I ordered a case of lube for dilation. I think it was about $25 for 10x4oz tubes of lube. Then I found online, bulk lube in 64oz pump bottle for about the same price so I ordered it.
It arrived today, a case of it! Not just 1 jug but 4 jugs! Two gallons! I can lube the world!
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There is a fitting German proverb for this:
Wer gut schmiert, der gut fährt! (anybody who greases well, rides well) >:-)
That's good to know for my future GCS Denise. Would you provide the information about the Lube? What brand and where did you order it from? Was this information provided by your surgeon?
Quote from: Denise on January 21, 2019, 03:00:57 PM
Funny story...
I ordered a case of lube for dilation. I think it was about $25 for 10x4oz tubes of lube. Then I found online, bulk lube in 64oz pump bottle for about the same price so I ordered it.
It arrived today, a case of it! Not just 1 jug but 4 jugs! Two gallons! I can lube the world!
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LOL...I found the same 64oz bottle. I didn't order the case but seeing as how I'm already halfway through and it's only been a little over 2 weeks I probably should have. BTW...Dr. S's office uses the same brand. I searched on Amazon for it when I was looking up cheap lube. The brand I bought is Aquagel it's a little bit stickier than other surgical lubes but it does the job.
Quote from: JillianC on January 21, 2019, 06:48:42 PM
LOL...I found the same 64oz bottle. I didn't order the case but seeing as how I'm already halfway through and it's only been a little over 2 weeks I probably should have. BTW...Dr. S's office uses the same brand. I searched on Amazon for it when I was looking up cheap lube. The brand I bought is Aquagel it's a little bit stickier than other surgical lubes but it does the job.
Jillian ordered the same as me. It's from Aquagel. At my last appointment it was what they used so I figured it's good enough for me.
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Ugh! Back to work.
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Quote from: Denise on January 22, 2019, 06:30:24 AM
Ugh! Back to work.
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@Denise Dear Denise:Ugh! is right..... "back to work" ...back to the world that allows us to pay our bills, that in part allows us to continue to pursue our life goals, including our transition goals.
I have so much enjoyed following your journey as you have been feeling the liberty to share your transition details on your threads and on other various threads around the forums.
As always, thank you for sharing your thoughts.
I will be eagerly looking for your continuing updates as you feel so led to do.
Hugs and best wishes as always.Danielle
You've heard of lactation rooms. I have a private dilation room.
Locking door, no windows, space heater, couch... What more could a girl want? okay, there isn't a TV. But I do have internet service.(https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20190124/ceec0f88e592abb5cce1d35a8f8154ff.jpg)
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Quote from: Denise on January 24, 2019, 12:12:01 PM
You've heard of lactation rooms. I have a private dilation room.
Locking door, no windows, space heater, couch... What more could a girl want? okay, there isn't a TV. But I do have internet service.(https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20190124/ceec0f88e592abb5cce1d35a8f8154ff.jpg)
Very nice! Even stanchions and a tape to keep the spectators back!
Quote from: Denise on January 24, 2019, 12:12:01 PM
You've heard of lactation rooms. I have a private dilation room.
Locking door, no windows, space heater, couch... What more could a girl want? okay, there isn't a TV. But I do have internet service.(https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20190124/ceec0f88e592abb5cce1d35a8f8154ff.jpg)
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@Denise Dear Denise:Privacy is obviously very important but the room looks so sterile in appearance.
It's great that you have internet
but do you have important food and coffee service??? Thanks for keeping us all tuned into your continuing transition adventures.
Hugs,
Danielle
Wow Denise! It sounds like your employer is a wonderful person to work for.
Edit: I have to agree with Danielle. It does looks so sterile in appearance. No doubt you will be spending a lot of time there. Perhaps you can add a little personal touch and brighten it up with a few items from your employer.
A coffee table and end tables, an easy chair, some pictures and flowers, a TV and a restroom would be nice. The room does have some potential but I would think you'd want a place to get cleaned up?
That looks so, well, uninviting. I hope you have a comfy blanket with you.
I only need it for three weeks. Then I'm down to morning and night dilation in the privacy of my own home.
I wish it had a sink to wash up in, but I use baby wipes. There are no single use restrooms, that I know of so I wipe everything down and wash it when I get home.
As for "nice employer" I work for a large financial institution in Chicago. They needed to find a place for medical accommodations laws.
The interesting thing is I'm the first person to transition on the job here in +10 years. So all this is new to HR and they did a great job. I give thanks to Sandy who laid the trail and did it well!
I do bring a towel and underpads to put under me and another towel on top just Incase maintenance comes in by mistake.
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Quote from: Denise on January 25, 2019, 08:49:10 AM
another towel on top just Incase maintenance comes in by mistake.
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You want to deprive them of a free of charge show? That is not very nice of you! Can't you lock the door? Maybe maintenance could install a privacy door knob ?
I guessing maintenance has their own keys so it could be a nasty surprise. I gave my apartment manager permission to enter my apartment if I wasn't home and they needed to do some maintenance. I had my headphones on and didn't hear the doorbell. I was only wearing a skimpy cami minidress :o Needless to say, it was a surprise!
There is an occupied/vacant sign and the door locks. But if someone is not paying attention... Maybe I should allow the free show.
It's still weird getting naked in a supply closet. It seems nefarious.
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Today marks 50 days.
Nothing really to report but peeing is, at times, more of a stream than a spray. The other thing that I've not figured out yet is how you "push" urine harder. I can stop it but trying to get the last bit out is challenging.
I still have some pains across the top of the genital area where the internal work was done for the orchi portion of the surgery.
Dilation has just become a habit. It still takes a few hours of my day but only one more week of three-a-days. I think I could have gone to twice-a-day this week, but better safe than sorry.
I'm glad I had the surgery as I smile when looking in the mirror and my confidence is returning in groups of ladies.
Now if I could only finish electrolysis.
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8 weeks post-op update.
I'm hoping I'm not the only one with this annoyance. When I pee the stream, when there is one and not a spray, it shoots so far forward it misses the bowl.
Leaning forward doesn't help and has the side effect of spreading on my shirt.
I have a follow up appointments on the 18th and I'll ask about this but I thought someone here might have had a similar experience.
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Quote from: Denise on February 08, 2019, 01:29:01 PM
8 weeks post-op update.
I'm hoping I'm not the only one with this annoyance. When I pee the stream, when there is one and not a spray, it shoots so far forward it misses the bowl.
Leaning forward doesn't help and has the side effect of spreading on my shirt.
I have a follow up appointments on the 18th and I'll ask about this but I thought someone here might have had a similar experience.
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@Denise Dear Denise:Wow... 8 weeks already... time sure flies when you are having fun!!! ;)
Regarding your issues with streams of pee versus an unwieldy spray that goes everywhere that you don't want it to go... I know that it will be of no comfort to you, but you are not the first post op MTF transitioner to have this issue... gosh, waiting 10 days to talk to your doctor about it seems like a very long time, have you tried getting an earlier appointment? ... or have you communicated with the doctor's nurses about this issue?
I trust and hope for you that this problem can be taken care of quickly for your own comfort and for less washing of your shirts and cleaning around the toilet bowl... I feel your pain !!!!
Perhaps there might be others here that will chime in and post their comments with their similar experiences and solutions that came from their doctors....
I hope that you are staying warm and dry with all the bad weather that you are experiencing.
Where I live we are having our continuing cold, icy, snowy weather... lots of snow today, later this afternoon there will be very heavy snowfall... lots of fun. I actually enjoy it all. As long as one is prepared with proper clothing, and proper maintenance of vehicles and homes, it is not a problem.... always a full tank of gas in my vehicle, extra full gas cans at home, and a full propane tank at home.
Thank you for your 8 week update.
As always I am eagerly following your thread as you feel free to post, and your other posts on other areas of the Forums. Of course you can always continue exchanging enjoyable PM's with me at any time.
HUGS and more HUGS,... and wishing you well with your follow up appointment with your doctor.
Danielle
I had the issue but putting my chest on my knees would keep everything in the bowl. After a few months the swelling went down enough that my aim corrected it's self and while I still leaned forward, it's not very much of a lean. The swelling can take a long time to go away and it's a problem you don't really expect going into the surgery.
Update.
I spoke with the PA tonight. They think it's caused by swelling of the vaginal area. I tend to agree.
I think I'll be less aggressive and stick to the smaller dilators for the weekend and see what happens.
I'm not concerned about waiting a week. Besides I'm on a tight deadline on a project. It's going to be a long week.
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Quote from: Denise on February 08, 2019, 10:40:40 PM
Update.
I spoke with the PA tonight. They think it's caused by swelling of the vaginal area. I tend to agree.
I think I'll be less aggressive and stick to the smaller dilators for the weekend and see what happens.
I'm not concerned about waiting a week. Besides I'm on a tight deadline on a project. It's going to be a long week.
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@Denise Dear Denise:Thanks very much for you update... I am so very glad that you were able to speak with the PA tonight. I am glad that you have eased your mind now and that will patiently work through this as you continue to heal.
Good luck on our tight deadline project..... you go girl!!!!
I am always wishing you the best and am happy that you have come so very far in your transition journey.
I fondly recall some of our message exchanges early last year when you were pondering your future and how you were going to continue with your transition.....
....and I am so happy for you that you have made amazing progress.
Thank you for feeling so free to share your story and for keeping us updated...
....I always eagerly look for your posts whenever I login to the Forums.
Hugs and more hugs,
Danielle
Hi Denis, its Dorit one day behind you! I just the other day asked another trans woman how long it took her to learn to pee. While I do not spray and have a stream directed down, I usually wet myself and the inside of my legs. ;D It seems that this just comes with the surgery, and the months of swelling.
Quote from: Dorit on February 09, 2019, 02:25:51 AM
Hi Denis, its Dorit one day behind you! I just the other day asked another trans woman how long it took her to learn to pee. While I do not spray and have a stream directed down, I usually wet myself and the inside of my legs. ;D It seems that this just comes with the surgery, and the months of swelling.
Yeah, peeing is messy. For that, I miss my built-in pointing device. Not only that but my toilet paper use has tripled!
@dorit I hope you're doing well.
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I had to lean forward and put my head on my arms which were on my knees. The pee stream would go down but a little forward. After my revision surgery I could just sit straight up and pee straight down. However, most of the time I put my head on my arms and arms on my knees because I like the down time when I am peeing.
Swelling when it goes down will allow you to see how the pee stream will naturally flow. After a few months you may like the down time when you pee and put your head on your arms and arms across your knees.
Quote from: Denise on February 08, 2019, 01:29:01 PM
8 weeks post-op update.
I'm hoping I'm not the only one with this annoyance. When I pee the stream, when there is one and not a spray, it shoots so far forward it misses the bowl.
Leaning forward doesn't help and has the side effect of spreading on my shirt.
I have a follow up appointments on the 18th and I'll ask about this but I thought someone here might have had a similar experience.
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Hi Denise
No you are not alone with this one...the explanation I was given is the age old...swelling give it time , it could take months
Liz
Nine week update
Pre op I could fluctuate my weight a couple of pounds either way in a day or two. Not so any more. I want to lose a few pounds but it's not coming off.
Dr appt on Monday. I think I'll ask about getting on a bike. My guess is he'll discourage it.
On Monday this week I did a little ice skating at one of the parks here in Chicago. The shiney thing behind me is the "Bean" (search for it. It's also called Cloud Gate)
Healing is coming along. The scars are mostly soft. I'm working on the ones around the clitoris. They need a little TLC. Feeling is coming back slowly. I suspect it will be months before I'm sensitive in a good way down there.
I've realized that most everything in my life takes longer. I have to plan trips to the bathroom. There's a lot of nooks and crannies to pat dry.
Oh, the spraying forward has gone way down. Something must have been swollen.(https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20190214/26d333e209c09520902ed784323c7bb3.jpg)
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Hi Denise.
I have seen some threads about the pee problem before. Seems that it is common with certain doctors and less so with others. I read a thread somewhere where many ladies had to go to get revisions 6 months later to correct it. This is something I have been asking about while looking into surgeons. It seems as much surgical technique related as much as I have been reading about long versus short recovery times for type 3 forehead FFS work is. Some doctors you can be up and about in a few days, other doctors you are bruised for weeks.
Now I think I need to ask for more experiences from the GCS surgeon I'm seriously looking at going to.
@Denise Dear Denise:I am so glad to read that you are getting along well in your post-op stage.
I hear you about our body weights.... this winter season makes it difficult to lose any significant weight for me because of all the social activities this time of year, and most of them include FOOD ... lots of FOOD and candies, cakes, cookies, etc. Of course I am my own worst enemy because I like to bake and cook all the time!!!
Your Doctor will probably advise you not to do things that require a lot of movement and strenuous exercise below your waist.... I would be surprised if he would approve of you ice skating, a good hard fall could cause you problems I would think. It will be interesting to find out what he says to you.
It is good that you are starting to minimize the "spraying" issues that you have been experiencing... as you continue to heal I am hoping that things get much better. We should all have sympathy for why the women's restrooms have such long lines. ;) ;)
I have been to Chicago many times. My best memories are at Millennium Park where the Bean is located, and also a small amphitheater there where I attended a music festival and of course all the other things that go on in the Spring and Summer months.... never went there in the Winter to go Ice Skating. Then of course all the things that Chicago is famous for like Chicago Dogs, Chicago Pizza, Garrett's Popcorn, Portillo's great food, etc.
I trust that you are keeping warm and dry with the bitter cold and stormy winter that is going on there in Chicago.
Thank you for keeping your followers up to date with your life endeavors and your healing. We are your biggest fans and we are always rooting for you.
Hugs and best wishes.... and
Happy Valentine's DayDanielleQuote from: Denise on February 14, 2019, 06:54:24 AM
Nine week update
Pre op I could fluctuate my weight a couple of pounds either way in a day or two. Not so any more. I want to lose a few pounds but it's not coming off.
Dr appt on Monday. I think I'll ask about getting on a bike. My guess is he'll discourage it.
On Monday this week I did a little ice skating at one of the parks here in Chicago. The shiney thing behind me is the "Bean" (search for it. It's also called Cloud Gate)
Healing is coming along. The scars are mostly soft. I'm working on the ones around the clitoris. They need a little TLC. Feeling is coming back slowly. I suspect it will be months before I'm sensitive in a good way down there.
I've realized that most everything in my life takes longer. I have to plan trips to the bathroom. There's a lot of nooks and crannies to pat dry.
Oh, the spraying forward has gone way down. Something must have been swollen.(https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20190214/26d333e209c09520902ed784323c7bb3.jpg)
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Your looking great Denise! I'm glad to hear your recovery is going well and that you no longer need that built in pointing device.
Hugs!
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@Denise
Dear Denise:
... I would be surprised if he would approve of you ice skating, a good hard fall could cause you problems I would think. ...
Then of course all the things that Chicago is famous for like Chicago Dogs, Chicago Pizza, Garrett's Popcorn, Portillo's great food, etc.
...
I have a better chance of falling while walking than skating. I was one of my son's ice hockey coach for 11 years. I've been doing since I was able to walk. My surgeon's PA thought I was crazy. I sent them that picture saying I hope I didn't void any warrantees.
Chicago had lots of good food, but pizza? Gimme New York style any day.
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Almost a full 10 weeks post...
I had an appointment with my normal doctor this morning and my surgeon two hours later.
The GP gave me a full exam, specula included. He said all looks good.
My surgeon said the same thing. I'm cleared for everything (!) Except anal sex and thought I should hold off a month before biking. It's snowing and it's very chilly so I don't really expect to have a desire to get out and ride.
Basically all is good.
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@Denise:
Dear Denise:
I so enjoyed reading your good news about your post-op visit with your doctors.
.... AND HOLD OFF ON BIKING FOR ANOTHER MONTH!!!! Doctor's orders!
Hugs and well wishes.... thank your for sharing your update.
DanielleQuote from: Denise on February 18, 2019, 01:10:12 PM
Almost a full 10 weeks post...
I had an appointment with my normal doctor this morning and my surgeon two hours later.
The GP gave me a full exam, specula included. He said all looks good.
My surgeon said the same thing. I'm cleared for everything (!) Except anal sex and thought I should hold off a month before biking. It's snowing and it's very chilly so I don't really expect to have a desire to get out and ride.
Basically all is good.
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AND HOLD OFF ON BIKING FOR ANOTHER MONTH!!!! Doctor's orders! As Danielle and your doctors put it. I couldn't imagine riding a bike in the snow anyway. Well I could but not without causing a great deal of pain. Yes indeed Denise. Glad everything is going well. Now is a good time to bake something ;)
Hugs.
Yes I'm waiting the month. What he was saying was that if I started now, it would hurt like hell. And that a big padded seat would feel better than a road bike seat. It was all for my comfort not for medical reasons.
At the end of March I'm going to get a professional saddle fitting. That will help too.
New topic... Yesterday was national Margarita day. So to be patriotic I had two. Thank God for Lyft! But when I got home I had to dialate. I always use two starting with the smaller one then switching to a bigger one. Well, last night I passed out for two hours. I didn't get to the second one. :)
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Yup! It sounds like your got lost in Margaritaville Denise. Maybe 2 hours with the smaller dilator worked the same as using two. That is if you woke up with everything still in place?
Hugs.
Margaritas before dilating? Skip the salt on the rim.
13 weeks, 2 days update (okay that's silly but today was actually a huge day!!!)
I got back on my bike. Well, at least the trainer. The trainer is the same saddle as my road bike and there was no pain. NONE! I only did 5 minutes to make sure it wasn't going to be a delayed reaction. But so far, after 90 minutes, no issues.
Now to work up to 8 continuous hours for 7 days so I can do my 500 mile ride through New York, Pennsylvania and into New Jersey this summer. (Anyone want to join me? It's fully supported hotel-to-hotel and cheap!)
@DeniseDear Denise: Your planned biking trek this summer sounds quite bold and certainly an enjoyable event obviously just as long as your doctor approves... certainly your
choice of the bicycle saddle is an important decision....
.....
choose wisely as it is said in the movie.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0H3rdfI28s0
Hmm, can you wait for me to ride 4500 miles on my bike from Alaska so I can join you? ??? ;) ;) ;)
Have fun, be safe..... I will be looking forward to reading your updates....
Hugs,
DanielleQuote from: Denise on March 16, 2019, 10:32:40 AM
13 weeks, 2 days update (okay that's silly but today was actually a huge day!!!)
I got back on my bike. Well, at least the trainer. The trainer is the same saddle as my road bike and there was no pain. NONE! I only did 5 minutes to make sure it wasn't going to be a delayed reaction. But so far, after 90 minutes, no issues.
Now to work up to 8 continuous hours for 7 days so I can do my 500 mile ride through New York, Pennsylvania and into New Jersey this summer. (Anyone want to join me? It's fully supported hotel-to-hotel and cheap!)
Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on March 16, 2019, 10:47:29 AM
@Denise
Dear Denise:
Your planned biking trek this summer sounds quite bold and certainly an enjoyable event obviously just as long as your doctor approves... certainly your choice of the bicycle saddle is an important decision....
.....choose wisely as it is said in the movie.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0H3rdfI28s0
Hmm, can you wait for me to ride 4500 miles on my bike from Alaska so I can join you? ??? ;) ;) ;)
Have fun, be safe..... I will be looking forward to reading your updates....
Hugs,
Danielle
I'll have a smoothy recovery drink ready for you when you arrive.
Quote from: Denise on March 16, 2019, 10:32:40 AM
13 weeks, 2 days update (okay that's silly but today was actually a huge day!!!)
I got back on my bike. Well, at least the trainer. The trainer is the same saddle as my road bike and there was no pain. NONE! I only did 5 minutes to make sure it wasn't going to be a delayed reaction. But so far, after 90 minutes, no issues.
Now to work up to 8 continuous hours for 7 days so I can do my 500 mile ride through New York, Pennsylvania and into New Jersey this summer. (Anyone want to join me? It's fully supported hotel-to-hotel and cheap!)
Great effort....8 hours on a bike sounds like a lot of hard work but I can imagine the health benefits are enormous. Good luck, I am sure you will make your goal.
Liz
Quote from: LizK on March 18, 2019, 01:00:38 AM
Great effort....8 hours on a bike sounds like a lot of hard work but I can imagine the health benefits are enormous. Good luck, I am sure you will make your goal.
Liz
The 8 hours isn't the problem. It's the 8 hours on the 5th day in a row that's tough. Then you still have day 6 and 7 to go.
Liz, how are you coming along on your recovery? I see you are 9 days ahead of me.
Hi Denise
My eyes are watering...day 6 and 7...I am not sure what it is about bike riding but it seems from those I have known that ride, it seems that once bitten by the cycling bug its a life long (good) habit. I had a good friend who just could not get enough and rode 30ks to work every day and then would go for recreational ride over the weekend.
Thank you for asking about my recovery I am going pretty well, had a couple of minor issues that have taken some time to heal but I am using the largest dilator twice a day looking to move that to one a day in the next month or so. I continue to heal slowly and my sensation is slowly returning. Unfortunately the operation destroyed what was left of my hip and I am now really dealing with the effects having difficulty walking even around the house. I contacted the hospital today begging them to give me a surgery date to get it fixed and I am hoping it will be soon...they were talking May but are now seeing if they can't fit me in sooner. Consequently I have stacked on a heap of weight which I know I can move once IU am able to get back to my exercise regime. Hopefully not too long...I am going through the "what comes next" scenario and putting things into place for my future.
Take care
Liz
Quote from: Denise on February 23, 2019, 09:20:20 AM
At the end of March I'm going to get a professional saddle fitting. That will help too.
I am late to your thread here Denise, and from what I've read you are making great progress post op.
I am interested in your bike saddle fitting and how it goes.
Hugs and healing
Cynthia -
Quote from: CynthiaAnn on March 20, 2019, 08:35:29 AM
I am late to your thread here Denise, and from what I've read you are making great progress post op.
I am interested in your bike saddle fitting and how it goes.
Hugs and healing
Cynthia -
Cynthia, sorry girl. I've decided to keep the saddles I have. They are okay and my butt knows them. No fitting for me.
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Quote from: Denise on March 21, 2019, 12:18:14 PM
Cynthia, sorry girl. I've decided to keep the saddles I have. They are okay and my butt knows them. No fitting for me.
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That's great news Denise ! Thanks for answering hon...
C -
Quote from: CynthiaAnn on March 21, 2019, 12:37:49 PM
That's great news Denise ! Thanks for answering hon...
C -
I did get it to try some saddles two weeks ago and none were as comfortable as the one I have. Sticking with what I've got.
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Four months... (Sorry for the long gap)
Time flies, where has it gone.
In Feb my surgeon cleared be too ride a bike starting in mid March. Well the weather in Chicago in March is not biking weather. So I pulled out the trainer and started slow.
Two weeks ago I did a 20 mile ride and was physically tired but the surgical area was okay. Sore but okay. This past weekend I did 50 miles which was about 4 hours of saddle time considering all the traffic lights around me. But I feel great. No issues down below and my strength is returning.
If you are considering GCS consider asking your Dr for a Pelvic Floor physical therapy referral before and after surgery. Prior to surgery to help you learn to relax and understand the muscles of the pelvis. After surgery to teach you how to use the muscles again and to strengthen them. She is also helping to keep the skin soft and pliable. I think she's helped a lot.
My physical therapist is at the hospital where I had GCS so she sees MTF GCS patients all the time. Nothing beats experience.
On to other fun things. ;)
In the last few weeks I have been having trouble inserting the dilators. They were sticking and not sliding in easily. So I figured I need to get lube up inside. Well, let me tell you, the sensation and feeling is, ummm, wow. I have not carried that feeling to conclusion, yet, but I will be 100% able to.
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Quote from: Denise on April 23, 2019, 05:56:07 AM
I did get it to try some saddles two weeks ago and none were as comfortable as the one I have. Sticking with what I've got.
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That's great Denise it just goes to show the answer is sometimes with us all along. I am still shopping around myself, what I have "works", but I want better. Heading to an island here in the Puget sound for a week of leisure riding soon.
Enjoy
C -
Quote from: Denise on April 23, 2019, 06:14:25 AM
In the last few weeks I have been having trouble inserting the dilators. They were sticking and not sliding in easily. So I figured I need to get lube up inside. Well, let me tell you, the sensation and feeling is, ummm, wow. I have not carried that feeling to conclusion, yet, but I will be 100% able to.
If anything deserves a
squeee! that sure does. Congratulations! (And I can't wait! [emoji16])
Also congratulations for the riding. Looks like you'll be ready for the long one coming up. Very cool.
Stephanie
Great news Denise. Enjoy your bike rides. Bundle up. I see it's still cold in Chicago.
Awesome news Denise. There is a lot of new equipment to learn about :) .
I was wondering about the skin pliability. What does the physical therapist do to keep or make the skin soft?
Quote from: Rachel on April 26, 2019, 07:47:30 PM
Awesome news Denise. There is a lot of new equipment to learn about :) .
I was wondering about the skin pliability. What does the physical therapist do to keep or make the skin soft?
I'm VERY flexible so lay with the bottoms of my feet together and heels up to my crotch and she does a soft massage. It includes lightly stretching the skin in all directions, pinching the skin together (like grandma does to your cheeks :) ) and also some bigger motions of pushing the area above the surgery down and pulling up.
Now I do it before/during/after dilation and it's really helped with the whole area feeling less tight.
5 months and 2 weeks post op
Things are still a little (lot) numb with is very frustrating for me ;)
After a long arduous bike ride there is a little swelling but I assume cis-women experience some of the same.
I'm very happy with the way it's all turned out and my girlfriend says it's "normal looking". She hopes the numbness goes away soon too. ;)
Denise
Hi Denise
Thanks for the update. I am always keen to hear how you are going because of the similar timelines. I understand you frustration with the numb sensation but 5 months is still "early days" or so my surgeon told me when I was talking about the same a couple of weeks ago.
Great to hear the cosmetics of your surgery are so good. Always nice to know everything looks good.
I am still getting those "flashes or pain" and I use the term pain loosely as they are not always a pain but maybe a weird kinds of sensations? I was told that is a good sign because it indicates nerves are still connecting. Anyway I hopefully given some more time you will get improvements in sensation.
Congratulations on your progress so far.
Liz
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Quote from: LizK on May 26, 2019, 05:16:17 PM
Hi Denise
Thanks for the update. I am always keen to hear how you are going because of the similar timelines. I understand you frustration with the numb sensation but 5 months is still "early days" or so my surgeon told me when I was talking about the same a couple of weeks ago.
Great to hear the cosmetics of your surgery are so good. Always nice to know everything looks good.
I am still getting those "flashes or pain" and I use the term pain loosely as they are not always a pain but maybe a weird kinds of sensations? I was told that is a good sign because it indicates nerves are still connecting. Anyway I hopefully given some more time you will get improvements in sensation.
Congratulations on your progress so far.
Liz
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Thanks Liz. I agree with the flashes of "pain". It's more like mosquito bite or maybe a bee sting.
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