Seriously, it's day 36 for me on testosterone via Androgel and I swear, the sexual energy this stuff generates is completely overwhelming. Worst of all, because I am very dysphoric about my lower region, I don't really have a means of release. So I'm really horny, want to cum really hard, but I can't because I don't have the right parts. God damn it!
I heard it takes a couple of years for this to calm down. I don't know if I can take it. Now I understand why guys are such sex monsters. This is out of my hands.
Ya just gotta j/o, dude. There are lots of ways to do it without having to touch yourself down there.
I found I got used to it after about a month or so. I think your body just acclimates to it and the feeling becomes normal. However, this meant I was very glad about not having a penis so I didn't have to hide any signs of erections lol... so I suppose thats the bright side? I hope you find a way to relieve the er, stress, soon.
Hang in there!
feel for ya my friend. My own labido craze has calmed some but then again it's coming up time for my next shot too. Very distorphic feeling the desire but not the parts to complete the action to resolve it.
Quote from: Aiden on February 20, 2009, 10:13:10 PM
feel for ya my friend. My own labido craze has calmed some but then again it's coming up time for my next shot too. Very distorphic feeling the desire but not the parts to complete the action to resolve it.
Packys and dildos fit the bill quite nicely as substitutes for missing body parts. Just sayin'...
Jay
We have have the dreaded dysphoria, and until they perfect phallo a lot of us won't ever spend the money to get it. But let me tell you something...being comfortable with what you DO have will do wonders for yourself. I used to just hump ->-bleeped-<- as a kid, all the time, because I couldn't bring myself to "touch myself". And still have yet, and never will, insert anything. But if you know how to touch your little guy just right, you'll be ok...and the release, at least for me, is 1758247528945 times more delightful than it was before T. I'm an avid porn watcher, once you pop..you just can't stop!
Porn makes me dysphoric too.. I get really envious of the guys.
Quote from: Elwood on February 21, 2009, 10:24:19 AM
Porn makes me dysphoric too.. I get really envious of the guys.
Yeah, same here.
I couldn't watch porn because the only thought going through my head was "Ahhhh! YOU BITCH!" :x (at the girls, of course.)
Infact, it helped convince me that I was trans, because looking at them I realised they had thier body the same way I always knew it should be before seeing something like that.
Quote from: Elwood on February 21, 2009, 10:24:19 AM
Porn makes me dysphoric too.. I get really envious of the guys.
Why don't you try FtM porn, of which I've seen floating around the internets :3
Quote from: kestin on February 21, 2009, 04:08:04 PM
Why don't you try FtM porn, of which I've seen floating around the internets :3
OMG. That's such a good idea.
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Quote from: ell on February 21, 2009, 04:13:30 PM
aw jeesh, what an mtf could teach you. don't fool yourself. when it comes to *really* getting off, you've got top of the line equipment there.
Well, an MTF does have the parts I want.
i think it's easier when 'relieving oneself' to just focus wholly on something whether it be the porn movie or the picture of the stacked girl, or whatever it is you're getting turned on by. if you're too dysphoric to put yourself in the moment, take yourself out of it.
i don't even think of my parts during it or even notice them at all, just how they feel at that moment.
Dan, sounds like you're just plain thinking too much.
the whole process is just mechanical as it should be. just a means to an end.
Quote from: kestin on February 21, 2009, 04:08:04 PM
Why don't you try FtM porn, of which I've seen floating around the internets :3
Or lesbian porn.
Quote from: Nero on February 21, 2009, 06:09:43 PM
the whole process is just mechanical as it should be. just a means to an end.
I've always had a hard time thinking of it as anything other than mechanical (maybe someday I should try it with somebody else--might actually mean something to me then :P). It's satisfying a physical need; to me it's a lot like eating to assuage hunger. I don't visualize much of anything and porn is unnecessary (probably would make me a bit dysphoric like the OP, anyways). It's just a physical act and takes less than five minutes; catch is, for me, I have to be clothed. Any direct contact with those parts will make it absolutely impossible to 'get off,' and I actually have a hard time if I don't have something to grab on to (TMI?). Maybe try keeping your pants on, with a packer as someone suggested (hell, even a sock could work in a pinch). I like what Nero said: don't over-think it, just feel.
I keep hearing about guys having this crazy libido rush after they start T... I've really not experienced the same thing. There was a slight increase for maybe the first 1-2 weeks, but it was nothing unmanageable. It kind of makes me worried that maybe I'm on too high of a dose and it's just converting into estrogen. I actually had a higher drive & a harder time with myself when I was 13... at that time, I was insatiable, but now... I can't tell if it's lessened or if I've just gotten used to it.
Quote from: kestin on February 21, 2009, 04:08:04 PM
Why don't you try FtM porn, of which I've seen floating around the internets :3
wait.....ive seen no ftm porn lol
*salivates*
Quote from: Elwood on February 21, 2009, 05:59:29 PM
OMG. That's such a good idea.
Yay! I suggested something valid XD
Quotewait.....ive seen no ftm porn lol
*salivates*
*cough*google should turn up something, mostly you'll find Buck Angel but theres links to related sights, I think? I mostly stick to lesbian prons myself >_< eh heh...
Didn't know FtM porn existed... :icon_suspicious:
And I agree, lesbian is far less dysphoria-inducing (not to mention the women aren't treated like simple sex objects as much, which is what turned me completely off straight stuff). The first one I ever saw didn't look so much like sex as just an amazingly beautiful dance. Naked on a bed, of course, but they moved in time to some background music, and so smoothly and gracefully that it seriously looked like an incredibly beautiful, sensual, intimate underwater dance.
Quotei think it's easier when 'relieving oneself' to just focus wholly on something whether it be the porn movie or the picture of the stacked girl, or whatever it is you're getting turned on by. if you're too dysphoric to put yourself in the moment, take yourself out of it.
i don't even think of my parts during it or even notice them at all, just how they feel at that moment.
Dan, sounds like you're just plain thinking too much.
the whole process is just mechanical as it should be. just a means to an end.
I have to think of myself as being *completely* male and (usually) passive with another guy, otherwise it either doesn't work at all, or I feel physically sick afterwards.
Quote from: William on February 22, 2009, 03:55:53 AM
Didn't know FtM porn existed... :icon_suspicious:
If you can imagine a kind of porn, it exists. There is
transformer porn. Seriously.
Quote from: Mr. Fox on February 22, 2009, 01:51:00 PM
If you can imagine a kind of porn, it exists. There is transformer porn. Seriously.
Rule 34
I once saw a video of an man err... umm.. "fornicating" with a chicken, not a dead one, a live, very unhappy chicken. So, yeah, if you can think it up it exist.
Quote from: Cami on February 22, 2009, 01:54:16 PM
I once saw a video of an man err... umm.. "fornicating" with a chicken, not a dead one, a live, very unhappy chicken. So, yeah, if you can think it up it exist.
Unfortunately I've seen this too >.>
Doncha love the internet?
Yup, reminds me of the WoW video , "The internet is for porn"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRgNOyCnbqg#hq (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRgNOyCnbqg#hq)
Quote from: Mr. Fox on February 22, 2009, 01:51:00 PM
If you can imagine a kind of porn, it exists. There is transformer porn. Seriously.
lol NO! ya mean from the toys? :laugh:
Quote from: Nero on February 22, 2009, 02:06:39 PM
lol NO! ya mean from the toys? :laugh:
Reminded me of this:
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.geekstir.com%2Fimg%2Fpwy.jpg&hash=6020d6abd6f539e9ce7b341c3da3cdc04994dba2)
I apologise for the thread-jacking xD
Quote from: Jeatyn on February 22, 2009, 02:08:50 PM
I apologise for the thread-jacking xD
Pun intended dear? ;D
Quote from: Jordapple on February 22, 2009, 02:12:00 PM
Pun intended dear? ;D
Dammit I considered re-wording it because I thought somebody would pick up on that :P
I have very few insights that others haven't offered. A few months ago you were experimenting with anal...does that still hold possibilities? And remember that some men are just born with microphalluses. Can you start shifting your thinking and begin to view your own part as a small penis? It might be very difficult to do until it grows some, but I'm just sayin'. I've already started thinking of mine as a d*** rather than a cl** (there hasn't been any growth down there yet, I should add). I don't have the same level of dysphoria as you do, obviously, but I'm shifting my thinking and finding that helpful.
I am struck by the disparity in timelines here. My sex drive kicked in after only five days on T (injected). My libido has been driving me nuts, too. Fortunately, I am fairly comfortable with my lower anatomy and can take care of myself when the sexual tension becomes too strong. I have some hangups, of course--I don't know many transguys who don't. But I'm trying to work through them. I'm reaching a compromise with myself. I don't know whether you can do that, but I hope you can.
*Heartwood wonders if there is FtM on MtF porn...*
Quote from: Heartwood on February 22, 2009, 08:28:28 PM
*Heartwood wonders if there is FtM on MtF porn...*
lulz leith and les (l35i5m0r3 and riftgirlblog) on youtube are pretty sexual. :P not really porn though.
and if anyone is looking, search ftm on the x version of the tube... you know like youTUBE with an X.
Quote from: Josh on February 22, 2009, 09:01:52 PM
lulz leith and les (l35i5m0r3 and riftgirlblog) on youtube are pretty sexual. :P not really porn though.
and if anyone is looking, search ftm on the x version of the tube... you know like youTUBE with an X.
I don't know of that YouTube. Are we not allowed to discuss it's real name?
Quote from: Cami on February 22, 2009, 02:06:00 PM
Yup, reminds me of the WoW video , "The internet is for porn"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRgNOyCnbqg#hq (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRgNOyCnbqg#hq)
Uh... that's Avenue Q.
Quote from: Josh on February 22, 2009, 09:01:52 PM
you know like youTUBE with an X.
Excellent site! ;)
Quote from: Elwood on February 23, 2009, 02:08:03 PM
I don't know of that YouTube. Are we not allowed to discuss it's real name?
well i dont think that im allowed to post those types of links on such a tame forum. :P
You know one or two of you guys told me about it in my blog thread, why not here? do a search for xtube. Once find it you can search on there for ftm if want.
Quote from: Jeatyn on February 22, 2009, 02:08:50 PM
Reminded me of this:
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.geekstir.com%2Fimg%2Fpwy.jpg&hash=6020d6abd6f539e9ce7b341c3da3cdc04994dba2)
I apologise for the thread-jacking xD
I LOVE THIS!!! LOL
QuoteQuoteYup, reminds me of the WoW video , "The internet is for porn"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRgNOyCnbqg#hq (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRgNOyCnbqg#hq)
Uh... that's Avenue Q.
From YouTube... (that's not me recording).
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-TA57L0kuc&feature=related#hq (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-TA57L0kuc&feature=related#hq)
>:-) :laugh: ;D
Quote from: Elwood on February 20, 2009, 07:24:24 PM
Seriously, it's day 36 for me on testosterone via Androgel and I swear, the sexual energy this stuff generates is completely overwhelming. Worst of all, because I am very dysphoric about my lower region, I don't really have a means of release. So I'm really horny, want to cum really hard, but I can't because I don't have the right parts. God damn it!
I heard it takes a couple of years for this to calm down. I don't know if I can take it. Now I understand why guys are such sex monsters. This is out of my hands.
Make sure it's someone's else's hands then!
Seriously, make the most of it and don't feel any guilt, I envy you! :)
Could someone message me the YouTube X site? Or give me a hint on how to find it? ;D
just google xtube.