I get so creeped out by it and the thought of me having a ( meow ) down there drives me mad. I am actually more dysphoric about downstais than I am my breasts. Seriously it's like I squeemish of my own body parts. I also feel so ripped off that I don't have a penis.
Anyone relate?
It feels like a big aching void! A friggin alien creature!
Hi me, I hust wanted to tell you that your post is very embarrassing.
Definitely, dude. You know, speaking of which, am I the only one who has a problem when they're really horny? Like, I don't know what to do when that happens, 'cause I'll be sitting there, and it's not like I can jack off. XD You know? Or maybe you don't and I just have problems.
But yeah, back to the subject. I know what you're saying. I'm with you there. I remember when I first noticed my downstairs, I wondered why it looked so weird. Lol.
I was taking a bath once and looked down and was so grossed out, so I can relate to you
if you ever get on T it should really help, I am much happier with what I have now that my dick has grown a bit
Quote from: Devyn on December 28, 2010, 10:44:46 PM
Definitely, dude. You know, speaking of which, am I the only one who has a problem when they're really horny? Like, I don't know what to do when that happens, 'cause I'll be sitting there, and it's not like I can jack off. XD You know? Or maybe you don't and I just have problems.
this. is. so. frustrating.
Like, there are other ways of doing it I guess, but what I am hardwired for is physically impossible to achieve. gah.
Quote from: phoenixflorida on December 28, 2010, 10:53:28 PM
this. is. so. frustrating.
Like, there are other ways of doing it I guess, but what I am hardwired for is physically impossible to achieve. gah.
Yeah, that's what I meant. It pisses me off so bad.
Same here dude. Sucks. :(
Quote from: Devyn on December 28, 2010, 10:44:46 PM
Definitely, dude. You know, speaking of which, am I the only one who has a problem when they're really horny? Like, I don't know what to do when that happens, 'cause I'll be sitting there, and it's not like I can jack off. XD You know? Or maybe you don't and I just have problems.
But yeah, back to the subject. I know what you're saying. I'm with you there. I remember when I first noticed my downstairs, I wondered why it looked so weird. Lol.
I second that.
Ugh I hate having one. I wish I had a penis. D:
Its so unfair. Its totally revolting too. I mean...just look at it. Hideous.
Quote from: Alex201 on December 28, 2010, 10:34:21 PM
I get so creeped out by it and the thought of me having a ( meow ) down there drives me mad.
Quote from: Alex201 on December 28, 2010, 10:38:17 PM
Hi me, I hust wanted to tell you that your post is very embarrassing.
I can't really relate, but I just wanted to say that I love your sense of humor! :D
The idea of my old penis being attached to me gives me a feeling of complete dread.
I hear you guys, looking down all you feel is something is missing and it sure is for me. Then every month I start bleeding down there and no guy bleeds like that. Taking a shower is bad everytime I have to take one.
It is, of course, completely expected, that we should react to our body dysphoria in different ways.
But the problem is those that make us jump through hoops and behave according their script before we can do anything about it.
Don't mean to butt in, but I'm honestly scared to do something about downstairs. I don't find it revolting, but I don't like it either. Its just kind of there. I'm honestly scared of thinking about SRS and right now I don't think I could go through the surgery...something about chopping something off of me seems very dreadful and full of complications. Maybe just a worrier...but I keep thinking something won't turn out right and I'll end up with a strange Frankenstein-ish creature.
This may seem totally weird but I don't have a problem with my body below the belt at all. If I could change anything it would be my breasts (small yet still noticable).
Also, if we can get totally graphic for a moment, once you have been on T for a few years (or less) you will notice significant growth in that area and you will find you are capable of many things!
Think of this as a bonus....at least you don't have to worry if you get a hard on in public!
Re: I can't stand my downstairs area at all
Well, your lucky, I live in a flat - haven't even got any downstairs area to decorate, unless you mean the stairwell and that always stinks of weed and piss.
Or your thinking about your body, in which case, take my cock and balls - it ruins the line of my profile.
Quote from: Double_Rainbow on December 29, 2010, 11:17:12 AM
Don't mean to butt in, but I'm honestly scared to do something about downstairs. I don't find it revolting, but I don't like it either. Its just kind of there. I'm honestly scared of thinking about SRS and right now I don't think I could go through the surgery...something about chopping something off of me seems very dreadful and full of complications. Maybe just a worrier...but I keep thinking something won't turn out right and I'll end up with a strange Frankenstein-ish creature.
You don't have anything chopped off during SRS...?
Yeah its called being repulsed :P
I haven't looked down there since I was 12 , its a combination of 'alien creature' and 'well I don't need to look thers
noting there anyway '
Its a hole that bleeds, leaks and don't get me ranting about swimming.
sometimes I forget I'm a human and not a sexless doll, but mostly it has its irritating ways of reminding.
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Definitely, dude. You know, speaking of which, am I the only one who has a problem when they're really horny? Like, I don't know what to do when that happens, 'cause I'll be sitting there, and it's not like I can jack off. XD You know? Or maybe you don't and I just have problems.
Aaarg I swear the only thing I'm disliking about T is that I'll probably get a libido, I have no clue on to deal with that in this female warp D:
I can definitely relate, although I still hate my tits worse, they don't even feel good, so I see no benefit to them. As for the downstairs stuff, during red tide week...ick. I don't particularly love those bits anyways, but the blood? So gross. I've been dealing with that for 15 years now and I'm still just as disgusted, probably more.
The other 3 weeks of the month? Meh. I don't like it. I like those parts on girls (quite a lot actually), but me? Can't connect with it. I've never let it keep me from getting myself off, but I've er, never been 'hands on' about it, that would kill it completely for me as I have to kind of detach in my mind from the reality of what I've got going on down there to enjoy anything sexual. I think T will help there, because if I had something I could 'jerk off' even with just my fingertips, I wouldn't mind the bonus hole so much since I kind of enjoy my mis-located 'prostate gland' as it were. XD
I imagine if you're a completely gay FTM things would be worse, at least these parts in the abstract don't completely repulse me.
I was 10 when a girl friend of mine informed me there was a hole down there where boys were supposed to stick their penises. I was shocked, then checked, and was totally disgusted. Then it got worse when I learned about the monthly red death.
So, yeah.
Jay
Yeah, I'm totally repulsed by my own body. Well, its female aspects anyway. Unfortunately, I have always had a raging libido (I hope that T doesn't make it worse, or I'll be in for some trouble). Most of the time, if its too much to handle, I don't mind using my imagination and pretending that I'm jacking off. I mean, it seems kind of like a stretch, but with a vivid imagination, you can do anything.
But of course, that'll never be enough.
I can relate entirely.
Often it consumes my mind. Its really quite unpleasant. It even makes me feel slightly sociopathic towards bio-males. Which is something I don't like at all. I find myself not caring if pretty much anything awful befalls a bio-male because at least they've always had a dick, and even if they don't get laid they can jack off properly. Its fairly horrible what my mind could justify with these thoughts. My best friend has told me many times things like "balls suck be glad you don't have them" makes me want to deliver a swift kick to that general with my steel toes on.
I'd rather get a boner in public from time to time than never at all.
And not to be a total downer, but all the growth on T has done is make the damn thing itch. Which just brings my mind to it more often. Packers also have that same general effect. Its really just a frustrating situation with seemingly no good solution.
in the past few months i've had a lot of bottom dysphoria, but i've never let that keep me from jerking off. i would go crazy if i didn't, so i had to learn the hard way to accept the fact that i was born with some things and lacking others. don't get me wrong, when i see someone i find attractive i'm always disappointed that for now i can't get a hardon. but that's just it - it's only for now. i don't know what i'm more excited for with T, my voice dropping, or dick growth haha
Quote from: Rye on December 29, 2010, 05:53:21 PM
i don't know what i'm more excited for with T, my voice dropping, or dick growth haha
I vote for excitement about all of the above :D
Alex man I totally relate. It sucks :( Though I've been lucky enough to be able to just ignore it some of the time. I hate my chest more only because no one has to see what is in my pants except for a few people but my chest doesn't bind incredibly well and everyone has to see that.