Hi everyone,

So, I was wondering how many other people struggled with their sexuality? I resisted my feelings for a lot of years and I always dated girls and I did have sex with one girlfriend because at the time, I thought "she was the one". More recently, I stopped repressing these feelings I had and finally accepted in my heart that I wanted to transition. During this time and being honest with myself, I have become actually attracted to males and less attracted to females, but not completely either way. I have not started hormones quite yet so that is not the explanation, but I am starting hormones this week. What could explain this sudden shift in my sexuality and why are my desires being so strong as perceiving myself as a female with a male? I can't say before I ever desired a woman like I desire a man now while in my true mindset as a female. Sorry if this is confusing, it confuses me =/

Any feedback or advice or thoughts will be greatly appreciated!

Love you all,

<3 Emma

One word "acceptance" of who you are. However once starting HRT, and completing the process, you sexual orientation could again change. Gender and sexual preference are independent of each other.

I haven't started HRT yet and I know that the hormonal changes will likely change my sexual perspectives a bit, but I look at the sexual aspect as mostly separate from the GID.  And of course sexual feelings can be and often are separate from romantic feelings.

Personally, I've known I was bisexual since high school.  I've always had more attraction towards women, but found sex with men easier and less messy (psychologically and emotionally).   Most people do their sexual explorations earlier in life and figure out their orientations during puberty or before the early twenties at the latest (with some exceptions).  i was no different and the struggle for me was not recognition of my orientation but acceptance of the depth and degrees.

Since I've come to accept and see myself as a woman my mind has changed by degrees in my acceptance of 1)my role in the sexual dynamic (ie woman vs man) and 2) flipping my hetero/homo associations (ie thoughts of women now elicit homo-erotic associated response vs hetero-erotic).

Not sure that helps but if think just wipe the slate clean and start from scratch on how you view things it might be more productive than trying to fit your perspective into an old and obsolete mindset (while removing as much prejudice and bias as possible).

For what it's worth, a lot of people's sexual orientation is quite fluid, and moves around over the course of their life. Plenty of people here (including me) experience wandering orientation, it's pretty normal. I've always been bi, but since I began transitioning, the kind of men I'm attracted to has changed a lot (and the kind of women hasn't). At the moment I'm mostly into women, but more than anything it depends who I meet - since we're attracted to individual people, not genders, in the end, even if we have clear tendencies.
I'd say: let it be how it is, watch and enjoy, don't assume it's not going to keep changing, especially during transition where you're forming a new relationship with yourself (and being a teen!)

Sexual orientation is a lot more fluid than most people think, but it does appear that women are more affectionally  orientated than men, as Axelle' said.  The physical side of the relationship is then accomodated to suit.   
Myself, I have found that since I have sorted out a few issues I can trust men more and am finding some attractive sexually, but don't think I could deal with a long term relationship yet.  This may change, but at present any LTR will be with a woman. 
Finally coming to terms with my real identity allowed me to explore aspects of my sexuality that I had repressed before starting transition, and this process will be ongoing, and it's a lot of fun.  That's the main thing to remember, sex is adult fun, and if whatever you are doing ceases to be fun, best to stop and try something else.

Karen.

Some good reading in this thread https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,120835.20.html  but after my own transition Im now just a hetro woman attracted to that all handsome guy who gives a girl lots of attention. That all changed with hormones,
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