thats totally normal. I always used to get extremly ill, depressed, and general uptight and dyshoria about anyone knowing, or showing. or couldn be close to people what if they found out?

Tampons are a life saver for me after the first day or so I can get by with changing only in the moring and evening in my apartment.  I started Saturday so will not have to change at school at all this month. My dysphoria is worst the day before I start when the cramps remind me I have those parts all day and night then when I start the pain is about gone.  As I dress as a guy and buy my tampons at Sam's in a big box so it last a long time and only have to go through the dyshoria of buying them every few months.

What about the diva cup? I was going to get one of those before I started T.

I'm sorry..I do not mean to offend by stepping in here. But I was reading all of your comments and everytime I do read these, I am always haunted by one single thought:

How much I would give where we could have some type of device in which we could transfer our consciousness from one body to another.

It's a cruel irony for all of you FTM and us MTF

We (for the most/some part) dread erections, our penis (former lol), our flat chests, testosterone, facial hair, testicles, a lack of hips, a lack of a uterus (periods, et al)and to bear children.

You all (for the most/some part) dread periods, your uterus, breasts, hips, lack of facial hair.

It's a cruel fate it seems. How much easier it would be if we could just transfer bodies and not deal with our issues like this.

Annah. I couldn't agree more about menstruating ovulating getting pregnant giving birth and breastfeeding.

Darrin Scott, I look into getting a menstrual cup, such as a diva cup.  You have to put your fingers inside yourself to get one in and then to take it when it is full.  This is way to much handling of my parts down there for me.  With applicator tampons you can put it in and take it out without getting your fingers inside.  I know they say you don't have to empty them as often but getting it and out is too much for me.  I will stay with tampon until I can start T.

I'm glad you brought this up! Not only do I personally get super depressed about mine but then my thoughts turn way darker.

Quote from: mm on September 24, 2012, 06:12:54 PM
Darrin Scott, I look into getting a menstrual cup, such as a diva cup.  You have to put your fingers inside yourself to get one in and then to take it when it is full.  This is way to much handling of my parts down there for me.  With applicator tampons you can put it in and take it out without getting your fingers inside.  I know they say you don't have to empty them as often but getting it and out is too much for me.  I will stay with tampon until I can start T.

Ah. Never had one so I did not know that. Sorry about that.

If any of you are interested in finding out more about menstrual cups here is a site maybe TMI,  http://menstrual-cups.livejournal.com/

Yep, I sympathise.  I got the ol' red army invasion a couple days ago and I hate it just as much as you do.  I find I get emotionally sensitive the first day of my p*r**d too - I think it's hormone related.  Have you thought about progesterone only birth control?  It balances out your estrogen and really helps with the bleeding, pain, duration and general horribleness.

Mine makes me really paranoid too, because I get it into my head that people can smell it.

Strangely, I never equated my desire for hysto with being trans.  I thought all girls must want a hysto, because it never occurred to me that anyone with a uterus might want to keep it.

As much as I hate bleeding, I hate the emotional changes that come with it even more.  I get super depressed and start thinking about suicide and sh like that, and then the next day I start bleeding and I'm like "oh... that's why."

I also can't do tampons.  I find them super uncomfortable and walking around all day with something shoved up into me is just weird.

Did anyone start reading this thread without checking the date first?  Talk about a freak out!  I seriously thought Elijah and Kyril (who I was like...he started posting again?) had both started again after being on T for 2 years.  Scared me for a bit until I saw the date.  Necroing...

Quote from: Adio on September 27, 2012, 09:39:43 PM
Did anyone start reading this thread without checking the date first?  Talk about a freak out!  I seriously thought Elijah and Kyril (who I was like...he started posting again?) had both started again after being on T for 2 years.  Scared me for a bit until I saw the date.  Necroing...

This.

I was going to point out the date on the thread, but I figured people were posting about serious issues regarding their dysphoria so I didn't say anything.

It kind of makes sense, doesn't your estrogen level go up during your period? Hence the onset of depression due to hormonal unbalance.  I agree with an above post, just let it out best you can.

I know what an estrogen imbalance feels like(many of us do on both sides) and it sure as heck is not a joyride.

Quote from: Adio on September 27, 2012, 09:39:43 PM
Did anyone start reading this thread without checking the date first?  Talk about a freak out!  I seriously thought Elijah and Kyril (who I was like...he started posting again?) had both started again after being on T for 2 years.  Scared me for a bit until I saw the date.  Necroing...

haha!

Quote from: Elijah on September 28, 2012, 02:14:23 AM
haha!

It's nice to be able to laugh about it now, isn't it?

yea that sucks man but, thankfully for me i only had my period for maybe 5 years before i went into Menopause. I was 16 when it happened to me, thank the lord lol my doctor said i had elevated T levels, and i couldnt make eggs or whatever. I thought on T your periods stopped completely?? how come your getting yours? lol

Mishamigo_Jared,  you lucky guys only had one for 5 yrs.  I have had mine for 10 years and that is 10 yrs to long for sure.  Sure hope to start T soon the pain and mess will end and can get on with being a guy full time.

Assuming it's alright for me to post despite how old the thread is...

I hadn't had a period for over a year and was getting quite used to it.  It felt natural for me not to have one and I certainly wasn't about to complain.  But knowing that there was a chance this could indicate some underlying health problem, I made an appointment to have some tests done to find out the cause.  Well, as I was waiting for results from an initial thyroid test (I had some big weight issues thanks to some medication I had been on, thus the likely cause of my imbalance), it happened.  For the first time in at least a year, I was bleeding again.  I actually cried; that occurrence had never been more unsettling to me and it felt so unnatural and awful.  It wasn't physically painful, as mine never have been, and there wasn't even a lot of blood.  But it was depressing just the same.  It was only within the past year or so that I had really been exploring and accepting my feelings regarding my gender, so this is essentially the first time it had happened while I truly felt like my chosen gender--after not having happened for quite some time.  I never thought a simple biological function could have such an emotional impact, especially one that I'd been living with my whole life without much issue.  So I talked to the lady at the clinic and told her what had happened and she just said to call them again if it doesn't return after two months as it should.  She expected me to be relieved, which I suppose I should have been to a degree since that meant it was likely just due to the change in my weight (I've been losing weight recently), but in all honesty I am not.  I hate this thing more now than I ever have and I don't want it back.

I never really had a problem with shark week until after I had my kid. Now every time it starts my bathroom ends up looking like a b-horror flick. Like, "oh gawd, how did it get on the ceiling!" level. (Absolutely TMI, so sorry, haha!) But I still don't get depressed, I get really... anxious? I feel like I've gotta just DO something, I get stir crazy. As if action of any kind will just fix it. It's strange. And one day that week will be my 'violent murder' day. But as a sideline, my husband walked in to the bathroom the other day, a day or two into shark week, and he notices and looks at me all confused and says "You still do that?" I laughed myself off the toilet. I'm pre-everything but I must pass pretty well, because the look of true confusion was priceless. I had to remind him I wasn't on 'medication' yet and "it" would continue till I was. He just shook his head and gave me a "well, you're tougher than me" look. I'm really starting to think he's what keeps me from getting depressed, he's my life saver