I just found out some high school friend commit  suicide. I just don't understand. She wasn't ugly (pretty by most), she came from money, don't understand it. I guess I'll never will. She was only 19.

It's just confusing. She had it all, at least in my memory she did.

looking good and having money doesn't prevent ->-bleeped-<-ed up ->-bleeped-<- happening to you. She probably had something really bad going in her life that she didn't disclose.

Back in high school, I wanted to die. At that time, I couldn't figure out why. Now, I think it might have been GID.

My more recent thoughts of suicide were last year and were due to the fact that I was going to be divorced. Only practicality (helping my ex with out shared debt, being sure my kids had a landing place while in college) kept me going.