Managed to pull of a job interview so perfect that my colleagues were doubting I was the same person they deal with every day. So I keep my job for another whole year, although dressing manly did not feel very good this time (and I used to love how I felt with an oxford shirt and my Massimo Duty Blazer I keep for special occasions).
It is strange, some times it feels as if a different person was talking using my mouth, speaking directly from the heart and bypassing all that barrier of self hate that makes me look like a hideous person. I wonder if transition would allow that chained personality to come out.
Next day: Traumatologist appointment. Hip is OK and leg lenght too, but I seem to have a functional short leg. Physiotherapy, special exercising and postural hygiene to recover it and get the hips and pelvis back to a neutral position. For the last 5 years I have not used my left leg a lot and I could have caused the muscle to contract and shorten. Also, slight scoliosis on the upper part of the back that I should counter with swimming or Pilates. Swimming could be tricky in a future.
