So uh...I'm Kai. Hi there! I might reveal my real name later on, once I get to know some of the good people who I'll no doubt meet here. =]
I guess I'll just get into a good & proper introduction, here. I'm a young, fledgling transsexual, FtM. Ever since I was younger I knew that I was "different". I've always been male inside, I know it. But because I was raised as a proper Christian and a Republican with a father who can be the worst sexist bigot you've ever known and a mother who just wants a normal life for her and her family....it was and still is rather difficult to be "different".
So...for quite a chunk of my life, I fought depression as I fought myself and struggled to find my identity and deal with the fact that it may not be what I want to admit...and it might not be what will make my parents/family proud of me. I tried to convince myself that I could be something I just wasn't.
The long and short of it is...I've been breaking out of my shell a lot more than I ever have in my entire life beginning last year. I did my own research and discovered so much about myself all on my own. This site, Susan's, was one of the places that made me nearly break down in tears of joy. Discovering yourself and admitting that it's okay to be what you are is one of the best feelings in the entire world.
I finally came out as trans to my friends and then my family earlier last year. Ever since then, life has been an uphill battle that is worth fighting. I've been kicked out of my parents' house one a few occasions, lived from friend-to-friend (thankfully I have a few close friends who are wonderfully supportive) and have struggled with my long-distance relationship. Thankfully, my girlfriend and I are still going strong after over 2 and a half years. I only got to visit her in-person once, but now our goal of living together is pretty close.
SMALLER SUMMARY: I'm a young trans-man and I'm strange. :B I'm a gamer, a nerd of sorts, a writer, an arist of sorts....I love music (mostly rock alternative) and I love people. I joined this site hoping to meet other LGBTQA folk, especially those who are also trans, and to get advice, share stories, build relationships, and hopefully just socialize with some like-minded people. My real life isn't full of many people who listen to me, let alone understand me at all.
As far as my transition goes, so far I've changed my hairstyle from long to short hair, changed my name (though not legally yet), have been trying to use mens' restrooms & pee upright without tools, have my family/friends who support me use male pronouns, use a binder occasionally and do pack occasionally as well. I don't have any fancy equipment yet and I'm still pre-op since I can't afford anything of that sort. @__@
I guess that's it for now! If you have any questions/comments/hugs, let me know.
