¡Hey there! Greetings from South America.
Im Meria, and I have 21 years old. I started my threatment like... 4 or 5 years ago, I dont even remember. I never felt that something really change, excepting for the breasts and some minor details. My face, my general body shape, my hair, absolutely nothing more than that changed, or at least, I didnt notice it.
When I started, I feel so excited, relieved, thinking I would physically change, and thus, I would be able to feel confortable with myself. Four years later, and I havent learn how to love myself. People usually tell me, familiars particulary, that I shouldnt worry at all. That no-one would notice it if I dont say it. And this is why I come here to seek some aid, because of this damn impossibility to feel confortable with the "cointainer" of all I am within.
Maybe its because I cant get on my mind the words of my family, I guess I cant stop thinking that those words are to spare me out of kindness, little lies to make me feel better.
So, I will show you some actual pictures. There are sometimes when I feel alright, like in this two.
And then there come other days, in which I dont feel so confortable about my shapes, specially my face. I have a very traumatic growing, as probably many of you did, and in days like these... The ghosts come back, and I see those masculine details that reminds me why I cant go forward, instead, pulling me back. Im thinking a lot lately about recurring to a facial feminization surgery, so Im kinda asking you for advice, because Im not 100% sure.
I know this must be like a "vanity topic" at first glance, but I believe it is important to feel good with your exterior, as well as with all that dwells within. I'd like to leave my fears behind at once, and to not give a damn about how I look, to feel safe. So I come here to ask you, people who dont know me at all... What do you see, and think? Please, drop it as tough as possible.
