Quote from: Amazon D on March 18, 2012, 07:37:08 AM
Hey i totally understand part of your plight because i too take care of my 89 yr old mother. As for your business issues i do not have them. However, i am a farmer and do have to manage thousands of plants. You will be blessed for your good works. Keep knowing that life here on earth is but a dream of the true spiritual world from whence we came and to where we will return.  Your home above is waiting as is mine but we have to serve below and wait until that time. Hgs Danielle

PS: I hope your physical ailments are feeling better

Being a farmer is no picnic either. You do have the weather to contend with though. It's not easy to take care of our elderly loved ones. My mom is only 78 but she is slowing down quite a bit. I know this has been a big part of the depression, I see all these other things that need to be taken care of and I don't know how much time I have to get those things done before the time comes when taking care of her is going to be the main thing that needs to be done.

It was a bit weird this morning but I got this image of what it seems like what it seems like I looking at. I see this picture of a bunch of sand dunes that need to be moved but it feels like all I have been given is a teaspoon when what I really need is an earth mover. I know it's going to get easier over time as I am coming out of the deepest part of the depression. (I still have a ways to go) Right now I just need to keep moving and as it starts getting better I will be able to make a better plan how to work this stuff down.

With everything else I haven't noticed the physical part.

I have been listening to this song a lot lately.

Quote from: SarahM777 on March 19, 2012, 04:21:02 PM

Being a farmer is no picnic either. You do have the weather to contend with though. It's not easy to take care of our elderly loved ones. My mom is only 78 but she is slowing down quite a bit. I know this has been a big part of the depression, I see all these other things that need to be taken care of and I don't know how much time I have to get those things done before the time comes when taking care of her is going to be the main thing that needs to be done.

It was a bit weird this morning but I got this image of what it seems like what it seems like I looking at. I see this picture of a bunch of sand dunes that need to be moved but it feels like all I have been given is a teaspoon when what I really need is an earth mover. I know it's going to get easier over time as I am coming out of the deepest part of the depression. (I still have a ways to go) Right now I just need to keep moving and as it starts getting better I will be able to make a better plan how to work this stuff down.

With everything else I haven't noticed the physical part.

I have been listening to this song a lot lately.

I will lift my eyes - Bebo Norman


God My God, I cry out
your beloved needs you now
God be near, calm my fear
and take my doubt
your kindness is what pulls me up,
your love is all that draws me in


I will lift my eyes
to the maker, of the mountains
I can't climb
I will lift my eyes
to calmer, of the oceans
raging wild
I will lift my eyes
to the healer, of the hurt
I hold inside

I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to you

God my God let mercy sing
her melody over me

God right here all I bring is all of me

Your kindness is what pulls me up,
your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes
to the maker, of the mountains
I can't climb
I will lift my eyes
to calmer, of the oceans
raging wild
I will lift my eyes
to the healer, of the hurt
I hold inside

cause you are
and you were
and you will be forever
The lover I need to save me
Cause you fashioned the earth
and Hold it together
God so hold me now

I will lift my eyes
to the maker, of the mountains
I can't climb
I will lift my eyes
to calmer, of the oceans
raging wild
I will lift my eyes
to the healer, of the hurt
I hold inside

God My God, I cry out
your beloved needs you now

Many of us are caregivers to our parents. Look to it as a blessing not a curse. Your a spiritual being so worry not for all things here on earth because our time here is but a drop in the bucket of our true existence..

Quote from: Amazon D on March 19, 2012, 05:18:13 PM
Many of us are caregivers to our parents. Look to it as a blessing not a curse. Your a spiritual being so worry not for all things here on earth because our time here is but a drop in the bucket of our true existence..

It's not so much that, it's I already know how tough it is to handle these things all at the same. It is so uncanny that this time is so much like the last time.  I already went through this in 2008-2010 a little different but not by much. Ebay crashed my listings and I had to move them to a different site. My sister passed on in 2009 and in the meantime my father was needing care and needed to be driven everywhere and was more than a handful to deal with. In 2010 he passed on.  I know how difficult it was that time through it.

Less than 1 1/2 years later it seems like it's starting all over again. I would really prefer God willing that I can deal with some of these things before mom gets to the point she can no longer do the things she is doing now.
It would just make it a bit easier.

Quote from: SarahM777 on March 21, 2012, 07:24:39 PM
It's not so much that, it's I already know how tough it is to handle these things all at the same. It is so uncanny that this time is so much like the last time.  I already went through this in 2008-2010 a little different but not by much. Ebay crashed my listings and I had to move them to a different site. My sister passed on in 2009 and in the meantime my father was needing care and needed to be driven everywhere and was more than a handful to deal with. In 2010 he passed on.  I know how difficult it was that time through it.

Less than 1 1/2 years later it seems like it's starting all over again. I would really prefer God willing that I can deal with some of these things before mom gets to the point she can no longer do the things she is doing now.
It would just make it a bit easier.

Well let me say a prayer for you and her. hugs Danielle

Thanks Danielle,

It's a transition time. It's going to be learning to make the best use of the time and being able to do some things better and faster and letting go of the things that are unimportant. The question how do I get from point A to point B? For example why is there 2 1/2 acres of lawn to cut when at least 1 acre is not a good area of the yard to cut and no one sees it? Why not turn it back into wildflowers and trees? It would look better and save a lot of time and energy.
Take the sheds,if they get cleaned out,I can take the lawn and garden stuff and put that in the shed,and then the car can go into the garage. The car goes into the garage,and then mom doesn't have to try to walk to the car,in the weather during the winter. Less chance of her falling. If we have to leave quickly, the car doesn't have to be scraped off.
If I figure out a way to make the business more efficient it will help. Even though it's struggling right now there are some advantages to having it. My mom is not left alone during the day,I don't have a human boss to get on my case about taking to much time off for appointments or such,it can be set aside for a time if need be,and it can be done anytime during the day or night,and it can be much more flexable.

I know it hasn't helped looking at the whole picture. I need the wisdom to break it down into smaller areas and deal with it that way.

It's just a bump in the road so to speak right now,but God will get me through this.

Hugs
Sarah

Tell mom to save $ your letting 1 acre got back to nature and you will eventually raise bees for honey. You answered the rest. hgs have fun.

So once again another question. It seems like such a little one but could it have ramifications that one is unaware of? What if there is a task that needs to be accomplished first,as one is today? What then is that task?

you worry too much. god doesn't give us any secret tasks that we must accomplish before this or that can happen. everything that happens, will be according to his will, and there is nothing we humans can do to understand the reasons god has for letting things happen the way they do. god wants us to be happy, and do things that are good for us and each other. he tries to guide us through his words and angels (those are often another human being who happens to say the words you need to hear at the right time), but it is not easy, since it is typically human to look for and get lost in inexistent deeper meanings, or right out refuse to take good advice.

having read through the whole thread now, i have something i want to say about miracles. they do happen, but often not the way we humans think would be the best way. in the christian community where i belong, there are "healers" who will read special prayers they have learned to ask god to heal people who we think need it. mostly taking away pain or stopping blood. and the ways in which it happens can be mysterious.

once a life was saved because someone at the scene of an accident knew the words that can stop blood. he'd learned them purely by accident, but oddly remembered them for years until this day when they were needed. other times people have had a toothache healed, and got told to go straight to the dentist since only the pain is gone, not the cavity. but nowadays many healers refuse to heal toothaches because it turns out that healed toothache never returns, and many have gone to the dentist years after and found out that their teeth were rotting without any pain to warn them of it. if they were wise they'd have gone to the dentist every year for a checkup, but instead they relied on a pain that got taken away.

what i mean to say with that is something like, you don't know the full consequences of what you're asking for. so you should trust in god that his answer is the right one for you, and go on living the best you can in faith that you will reach the final destination, to finally come back to him who has created us. the right to be with our father in heaven, and get his gifts in abundance is not one that we can ever earn in this life, but what we get are only the gifts of his limitless love

whatever i'm trying to say, the girl in this video says it much better:
http://youtu.be/WyB6ZbGJSUQ?t=36m40s

Quote from: Taka on November 01, 2012, 08:47:34 AM
you worry too much.

You're right,I do worry too much. Not that I wanted to hear that. What it comes down to is I'm afraid. I know what's it from,I feel like I am just a total failure. It just seems like everything I touch turns out bad. (I know it's not true but it's so hard to keep fighting it)

Quote from: Taka on November 01, 2012, 08:47:34 AM
god doesn't give us any secret tasks that we must accomplish before this or that can happen. everything that happens, will be according to his will, and there is nothing we humans can do to understand the reasons god has for letting things happen the way they do. god wants us to be happy, and do things that are good for us and each other. he tries to guide us through his words and angels (those are often another human being who happens to say the words you need to hear at the right time), but it is not easy, since it is typically human to look for and get lost in inexistent deeper meanings, or right out refuse to take good advice.

I do apologize,I was not clear on that,I meant more in something that I need to let go of that I am still trying to hang onto.

I struggle with God wanting me to be happy. Some how some where I learned a very bad mind set on that. I picked up that happiness is something that is only for "special" people not for the likes of me.

Quote from: Taka on November 01, 2012, 08:47:34 AM

what i mean to say with that is something like, you don't know the full consequences of what you're asking for. so you should trust in god that his answer is the right one for you, and go on living the best you can in faith that you will reach the final destination, to finally come back to him who has created us. the right to be with our father in heaven, and get his gifts in abundance is not one that we can ever earn in this life, but what we get are only the gifts of his limitless love

True

Quote from: SarahM777 on November 01, 2012, 08:06:21 PM
You're right,I do worry too much. Not that I wanted to hear that. What it comes down to is I'm afraid. I know what's it from,I feel like I am just a total failure. It just seems like everything I touch turns out bad. (I know it's not true but it's so hard to keep fighting it)

I do apologize,I was not clear on that,I meant more in something that I need to let go of that I am still trying to hang onto.

I struggle with God wanting me to be happy. Some how some where I learned a very bad mind set on that. I picked up that happiness is something that is only for "special" people not for the likes of me.


True

Matthew 5:9-11
New International Version (NIV)

9 Blessed are the peacemakers,
    for they will be called children of God.
10 Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
    for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

11 "Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.

Quote from: SarahM777 on December 02, 2011, 08:30:22 AM
Please this is only my opinion but I see a major flaw with that line of thinking. If God does not exist then how is it that we value love,justice,beauty,friendship,etc when if God does not exist how do any of these things have anything to do with survival of the fittest? They would then seem to be flaws as if our only our only purpose to to procreate for the next generation. Why then would it be wrong for someone bigger than me to beat the crap out of me to take my lunch is wrong? He is bigger and stronger and he should be more fit to procreate so the species can survive.

A little learning is a dangerous thing indeed..

Seriously, read the Selfish Gene. Evolution is about cooperation within groups. It's about survival of the fittest of the 'organism', whether it's a beehive, an ants nest or a human social organism as large as a family or community. It does not relate to the fitness of individual organisms.

Survival of the fittest is a phrase that comes out of a quaint English writing style, now long forgotten.  What Darwin really meant was 'survival of the most adaptable.'  But I've always thought that out of every 100 people dissin' Darwin, maybe - MAYBE - one of them has actually read it.

And survival in a TIC (Total Industrial Collapse) situation would largely depend on your social skills, because all that 'rugged individualism' is just so much bull->-bleeped-<-.  Survival will depend upon communities, and getting to be a part of a survivable community is going to be at a premium, so it's going to be a long line of people selling themselves ahead of you.

Quote from: Brooke777 on November 02, 2012, 10:14:09 AM

Matthew 5:9-11
New International Version (NIV)

9 Blessed are the peacemakers,
    for they will be called children of God.
10 Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
    for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

11 "Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.

Thanks

Perhaps I have come to realize that for me,can I ever be truly satisfied with only an alteration of my body? Would it only be for me a temporary fix so to speak? Can any doctor or amount of science at this point give me the one thing I long so much for in the way it was meant to be? Can any of them take me to the point of where it would even be possible to be pregnant? To be able to conceive and give birth? If not then they all fall short of an incredibly high mountain that none of them can help me cross. It leaves me but one and one option only. What have I lost by doing so? I am no worse off than where I was yesterday or where I am today. I will face that mountain and and even if the answer is no,I will go for broke,and give it all I have in me. At the very least I will be able to take one thing from it,I will have no regrets seeking it this way.