It varies so much from person to person.
Ok.
I keep a journal and that reminds me of how i felt and went.
The first thing was total relief and happiness, I took my first Prognova at 2.28pm. Sitting in my car outside the Pharmacist. I felt great.
During the month my T levels dropped very quickly, though they were low anyway. I rarely got erections but I lost that ability basically straight away. I could, prior to going on E orgasm and have some sort of ejaculate, never have had an ejaculate since being on HRT. I do still orgasm but it is totally different in how and when and feeling and everything. There is no male remnant of sex in me, but there was very little anyway.
Nipple sensitivity increased quite quickly, thickening behind the nipple, slow development on tissue in the boob area over the first 6 weeks. A lot I think was due to imagination rather than reality.
After several months, definite boobs, fullness in the face, better head hair growth, decreased body hair. I had my face lasered prior and going on E basically stopped any more facial hair growth. During this time breast sensitivity went through the roof. Oh my Goddess don't bang them on the car door or anything else, being 'hit' by a friends baby as I held her was a shock times 10.
Started wearing bras FT. Protect and also looked good.
Decreased testicle size, and total lack of erections (Yippeee)
Emotional stability and contentment. Happy thoughts rather than negative.
Slow but increasing realisation that there was no going back, eventually realising that going full time was the only option. Took a while.
Went full time.
Had to go to a bra shop for a fitting, no way could I cope anymore. Recognised and treated as female in the general population. No way could I hide anymore.
Very very happy.
Many of the effects are difficult to assign to hormones but may also be due to your acceptance of your self and maybe decreased inhibition of your previous feelings.
I also had/have an excellent psychiatrist who has guided me through all of this and helped me deal with 'stuff'. I also have a brilliant gynaecologist who looks after my hormones and she is capable of inspiring the dead to walk again. So if I ever feel flat I don't have a hope to remain that way. I very very rarely feel flat anymore. I'm very happy and positive.
Problems?
None.
I have had averse reactions to some forms of E and my medics have worked out combinations best for me.
I have had no public or private insults since going FT.
I'm treated as, and I expect to be treated as female at all times.
I do not compromise but I do understand mistakes.
I was not going to have surgery. I now will have surgery when I'm cleared for it.
But everyone is different, there are rumours that Janet was so successful on E that she was a boob model for playboy. Not sure who told me that, and of course I never spread rumours.
Cindy (ducking for cover)
