I hold some intense, powerful, nontraditional spiritual reasons for why one should never take her own life, but I don't think that many people would understand what I was talking about if I state them here. I learned so much about the nature of life and death and suicide during the 30 months that I was the sole caregiver for my spouse who eventually died of tongue cancer in 2005.
After Wendy died in my arms, I thought that I would never love again. Not only was a wrong about that, I had no idea how good my life was about to become. On the second anniversary of my partner's death, I met the woman who would turn out to be the love of my life. It might sound crazy to some, but I remain in 2-way communication with my dead former partner, and it was she who put Peaches in my path, it was my dead partner who very strongly encouraged me to stay close to Peaches, because I wasn't feeling it in those first days. By the end of 2 weeks, I knew that I had met the love of my life, and Peaches knew it too. Six months later, we were married. Five-and-a-half years later, our love and our life together is still getting better, more joyful, more exciting and more intense by the moment.
Don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle. We have no idea what life has in store for us. I would never in a million years have wanted to miss this opportunity to grow without limits in true love!
Big Hugs!
Miharu
