I am happier than a witch in a broom factory!

I am unhappy because I simply have not really begun, but i was really happy when I at least attempted to do so about 3 months ago, not giving up though going to try again soon.

Terrified. I don't know the first thing about living as a woman, don't know if I'll ever pass as one (though transition would still be worth doing if I didn't), don't know if I'll be accepted as one. Right now the only reason I'm even considering it is that I can't face the thought of continuing to live as a man and no one knowing who I really am.

Freaking thrilled. also terrified, apprehensive and shell shocked.

Seana

Quote from: agfrommd on November 18, 2012, 01:25:10 PM
Terrified. I don't know the first thing about living as a woman, don't know if I'll ever pass as one (though transition would still be worth doing if I didn't), don't know if I'll be accepted as one. Right now the only reason I'm even considering it is that I can't face the thought of continuing to live as a man and no one knowing who I really am.

Well just remember that there are plenty of cis gender women that have a masculine look or are butch or tomboy, but still get seen as a woman, I myself would probably be a blend of feminine and masculine when its all said and done, and i can live with that. Seeing as how I found out technically I am inter sexed and have AIS anyways.

I couldn't live without being female. I still have my bouts of "I'LL NEVER BE CIS!!" but it's much better than living a lie.

I love being a woman. I love being able to walk into a shoe shop and buy whatever I want without looking nervously over my shoulder and rehearsing a speech about it being my sister's birthday in my head. I love the looks, the freedom, the feeling of contentment. I never thought I could be this happy! I may not be very far into my physical transition, but so long as I have my studies, my flat and my man, I don't see how anything can go wrong.

I am both happier and unhappier than I have ever been in my memory.

I am happier in that I am living the authentic me, and about 30 years of depression had seemingly vanished when I started transition.

I am unhappier in that transition has cost me the most important thing in my life: my marriage.

Quote from: Constance on November 18, 2012, 02:08:25 PM
I am both happier and unhappier than I have ever been in my memory.

I am happier in that I am living the authentic me, and about 30 years of depression had seemingly vanished when I started transition.

I am unhappier in that transition has cost me the most important thing in my life: my marriage.

*hugs!*

*pokes at myself* I could be happier  but right now is pretty good. There are days when I feel super happy about who I am and then there are other days. Really though I am just happy I made the decision to transition because I could not take another day as "him" Anything was better than that.

I just made a vlog kinda about this. I did a speaking panel at a large SoCal state university and someone asked me "what do you like about being a girl?" I joked about more clothing selections then basically said I don't really think about it, it's not something I can point to one thing about. Ultimately, it's being happier than you ever thought because you have something that most people will never comprehend because they never lived in a gender they didn't identify with. It's funny how you can tolerate a whole bunch of blah stuff when you are right in your gender and everyone around you recognizes you for who you are. You can't really put a price tag on it. I took like 12 minutes to try to answer the question, lol, but that's pretty much what it was about. Here it is if you get bored:

What Do I Like About Being A Girl? What Do YOU Like About Being Your Gender?

Glad I did it,sorry I wasted 10 years when I knew for sure I was TS not having the confidence to go for it.

Happier than a Sow in a Mud Palace

Happier then a college junior in Colorado. 

Much happier than before but because I'm so scared I'm not really out or living as a woman.
(Whatever that actually means)
I've let myself down really.

I am thrilled to finally see myself being authentic. Every day when I look in the mirror since starting HRT, I smile a little at the girl I am starting to actually see instead of just dreaming about.

Quote from: josee on November 18, 2012, 04:59:13 PM
I am thrilled to finally see myself being authentic. Every day when I look in the mirror since starting HRT, I smile a little at the girl I am starting to actually see instead of just dreaming about.

Yes, and it justs keeps getting better!

Well I practically just started but I'm much happier and excited as hell!

i am so much happier now

Much, much happier. Is everything peachy? No, 'cause cameras hate me. But, when I'm by myself, and feel SO good about myself and my path...I can overlook bad pics.

:-)