Hello,

My name is Nat. Or something. My given name is Nathaniel; I have always been called Nat for as long as I can remember.

I am trans (whatever that means) and have known this about myself for a long time (whatever that means).

I could write a few thousand words about how much I have mulled over in my mind the topics of gender and sexuality in this post, but tbh I haven't the energy nor the time, and I'm crafting this post from my mobile.

Suffice it to say that I am a 'thinker' and I have spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about gender.

I consider myself as having started transition around my twenty-first birthday, in 2007.

I consider my transition to have been a slow process. Painfully so. Yet, precisely the pace that I require.

I have been on hormones for a month and some change.  I was purchasing electrolysis for two years, from early 2010 through early this year. I have understood that I am a woman for a long time; I am ruled by fear of other people and the notion that I am "not really a woman."

I have been Googeling anything and everything related to transsexualism, gender, transitioning, et all for the better part of six years.

I am a wealth of knowledge, and I lack in self confidence.

I love you all on this forum.

Pleased to meet you.

Nat, are you sure I can't call you Lurky McGee, I just love that! Get thee to my lurker thread! Glad you found us, and making me smile has it's rewards. Welcome to Susan's Place, hugs, Devlyn

Hi Nat!

I can relate a little bit.  I never really identified myself as a thinker, but I do enjoy it, and I've usually excelled academically (any time I wasn't being dragged down by emotional issues).  Most of my professors tell me I should change my major to their area of expertise after I'm done with their classes.  The irony is that the only ones who haven't singled me out are my psychology professors, which actually is my major.

Specifically, human sexuality is the area I'm most interested in.  So I knew quite a bit about this field before I even considered that I might be transgender myself.  I guess I don't have to worry about research, at least.  I already know a lot about the transition process from having studied it from an academic perspective.  The biggest thing I'm unclear about is my own feelings.

You can message me if you ever want to think . . .  or talk.  I actually enjoy reading Thoreau and Emerson, so I have no problem listening to those with a wordy bent.  I draw a line at the Randian level of rambling, though, as fair warning.

- Kupcake

Hi Nat,

Welcome to our little family. Over 9036 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

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Janet 

Hi Nat and welcome.

Join in the fun we are quite a friendly bunch here.

Hugs

Cindy

Hi Nat, and a big WELCOME 
If you are looking for support, acceptence and tons of information, you're in the right place.  Like you I have known for a very long time and have been thinking about it for way too long.  I'm new here too, and have been finding that the confidence you are looking for is here - and it's on sale!!!!  Just be a part of the family and they GIVE IT AWAY!  I am looking forward to hearing from you on your journey.  Welcome!
Peace, Holly

Nat

Loved your introduction.  I was where your at about 2 years ago.  Now I'm nearly 9 months post op.  Marci Bowers was the surgeon and I'm happy with the results.  Well...   ok...   wish I looked more like a Vitcoria's secret model but that has nothing to do with Dr Bowers handiwork!

I used to joke that I was an attractive, young, intelligent, rich, happy, woman trapped in a man's body.  (At least the happy woman part is true!)

The most surprising thing about transitioning is that most people don't care.  I've experienced (for lack of better words) reverse discrimination fairly often.  People go out of their way to help you feel accepted. 

For so many years I used fear of what people would do if they found out to help me keep my secret.  Geez, If I had only known...

I can't say it's gone without problem but, it's been easier than I thought.  "I may not have gone where I intended to go but I ended up where I needed to be." -- Douglas Adams

cheers!
jenna

Hi Nat ,

A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.

There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.

Nothing wrong in being a thinker. In fact the world needs more of them. I hope Susan's provides you with a place you can debrief yourself of all the information you have sourced.

Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.

Lotsa huggs
Catherine