Although some things haven't been going well at all as of late with life, my progression with self comfort and transitioning has taken a few new positive steps that I feel like sharing.
For the first time, a week ago, I started presenting with my Boyfriend in Public. I was so nervous about this, seeing he has always been labled as a Strait male...and for the general fact that I had only ever presented by myself or with friends who knew. Over all I was a bit nervous, but it was the best experience I have ever had. It felt so great to have him hold my hand, kiss me, and treat me the same...even thought I was not showing as my birth given sex. I was so afraid he wouldn't be able to handle it ((even though he already knew about it and said he was ok with it)). BUT he didn't change a thing! Our area kinda sucks due to being mostly overly religious and sheltered people...Gays are looked down on so we got loads of nasty looks, but it didn't even make him break a sweat. It felt so nice, and so true, like its the first time I had ever been really loved for me...I am so grateful to have him in my life.
It was also nice at the end of the day when we got home...we went to our room and I threw myself on the bed and he came over and petted my hair and kissed me and told me what a gorgeous "GUY" I was....I never thought Id ever hear this from a lover...It was the best experience in the world! I am just so happy right now, even with all the other life BS going on it seems like my life is going to start going in a propper direction!
Along with this, he shared with my my Xmas gift/surprise early. He is paying for my legal name change before I start a new semester in college so that I can start off presenting my propper gender and not waiting until things become akaward! I'm very happy right now ^^ just wanted to share with you guys! Thanks for reading!
