Hello everyone,
I am a mtf transsexual, my girl name is Jenny. I have always wanted (since I remember) to be a girl, not a boy. When I found out what was happening to me, I tried to discuss this topic with my parents and after they told me their negative opinion I decided to forget and deny my desires. My male body is quite attractive but even though I could never stand it. It may seem illogical, but I found a girlfriend, tried even harder to look very masculine then, after four years I met another girl and a baby was born. All these events brought me even deeper into a male situation in life and since then I feel like I will explode. My desires are now million times stronger, I can´t spend an hour without thinking of transition to female, my penis stopped working (it used to get hard every time I was to have sex with a girl, now I have to feel like a girl to make it hard and still it takes a long time and it is not full), my  nipples have somehow become sensitive and in privacy I masturbate doing my anal with fingers and the other hand stimulates my nipples, I don´t need to touch my penis at all and my orgasms are huge if I compare with earlier times, I even started thinking of men for sex.
I am 23 years old, do you think the result of my transition may be still good, so I could pass as a girl?
What would you advise me about my girlfriend and my 6 month son? I suppose if she tolerates my being different my son might accept as the second mother.
I was thinking of money and job. I work in factory as a laborer and I don´t they might keep me there, is there any general option for transsexuals to make money for family?
Would anyone have a clue why I started to change as for physical feelings? It seems strange I haven´t told anyone and have never used female hormones, even other offered things (like herbal hormones).
If you wonder, I come from Czechia, but I have find help here because all Czech sites have stopped working lately.
Thank you a lot for your replies,

Jenny

Have you spoken to your doctor about how you feel? That is usually the first step for transgendered people.

Do you currently live in the Czech republic then? I really would have no clue what you need to do there. But first step regardless of where you live is to seek out a therapist. They can talk you through some of the emotions you're pry experiencing and help you decide what steps to take next. I'm not sure how the Czech Republic is, but my assumption is that they are not cool with gender deviant people. For some reason, the word Czech=dictatorship in my mind. I may be wrong. I think no matter where you live, you should be able to find someone you can talk to: therapist, doctor, priest, teacher, etc.

Hello and welcome.   At least being in the EU you may have the possibility of seeking help elsewhere if the situation in the Czech Republic is less than helpful.
What you have described sounds pretty typical for a lot of us.  There are a lot of us here who are a lot older and have made good progress, so don't let your age worry you.  We are all different and there is no single right way to transition, so whatever works for you is the way to go.

Karen.

Czech republic is okay with transgender people, there are quite many therapists, it is even democratic, but there are so few transsexuals that all the sites for them had almost no visitors and were deleted (speaking about forums) so I have to discuss somewhere else.
I am intending to visit a therapist shortly after the new year begins. What I wanted was some advice about the family. I know I can´t function as a man for them, but I feel I should take care of them, at least get money for them. Are women usually tolerant? Once I say it there is no way back.