Boiled down as simply as I can make it,the issue is this you claimed,it was the Holy Spirit that was warning you,now you are saying it's not,but the dream is. If it wasn't the Holy Spirit on the warnings how can you be sure it's the Holy Spirit speaking to you now? For me that would be one huge red flag,because then I would have to question who am I listening to. That really is a question you need to get answered other wise you may end up in a place you may find you don't to be.

Maybe it's me but the one thing I do not want to lose even in this life is to be with Him,and walk with Him and talk with Him. With out Him in my life I have nothing. The one thing I want to be sure of is that it is the Lord who I am speaking with and getting dreams and visions from,because if I am wrong it's a major problem. I do not want dreams and visions to be the thing that comes between the Lord and me.

One more thing for you to think about,you can mimic other peoples voices,is it not possible that Satan after thousands of years of practice, he could very easily have learned how to mimic God's voice?

I do need to add this as I am getting prompted to ask it  Did the Psychologist ever deal with or pray with you to check if those warnings were coming from the Lord,or did they bypass it and tell you that they were coming from your fears? What is being impressed on me is that you and the Psychologist never spent much time discerning where the warnings were coming from. The psychologist went very quickly into that the fears were coming from inside you and you never really pressed the issue that you felt they were coming from the Lord.

It is your choice though,and I can only pass on that which is in my heart on this and I see a number of big red warning flags. And I will leave it with this be sure you know where this is coming from.

My doctor did pray for me, every time we had a session, its the one thing that we always do. Sarah, sometimes we just have to accept things on faith, in this case I was mistaken and I allowed my own personal fear to take over. I appreciate your concern, but really everything is fine. Satan cannot mislead me if I am seeking out God and God alone.

QuoteJoel 2:28
[ The LORD's Promise of His Spirit ] "Then, after doing all those things, I will pour out my Spirit upon all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy. Your old men will dream dreams, and your young men will see visions.

QuoteMatthew 12:26
And if Satan is casting out Satan, he is divided and fighting against himself. His own kingdom will not survive.

Satan wants me to be unhappy and not be able to trust in God's plan. You are seeing demons and devils in my path Sarah, when there are none. Please just accept that I am happy and I am only interested in doing God's work, not the Evil One.

Shawn,

Please part of this is something I went through,and I can speak from experience,I did have something like this happen to me and after eight years I am still having to suffer the consequences of not listening to some warnings. See my sister (Whom I love dearly as I am not just her sister but also the one to take of her) after many years of running finally came back,and she told me how sorry she was and how much she loved us,she had been into witchcraft (Not sure if she still is) she came back and claimed that she had become a Christian,and she had the gift of prophecy,she was having dreams and visions about me and what I was suppose to do. I started listening to her. She was very good at it and she knew a lot of scripture. She got me to doubt some of the things the Lord told me to do. She started using that to drive a wedge between me and my mom. (She was using scripture to back up what she was saying) I was looking at her through rose colored glasses and did not catch some the things that were off just a tiny bit.
My mom got warnings about false prophets,but because my sister had forged that wedge between my mom and I,I didn't want to listen. My sister got me to move out of my folks place (I knew I was suppose to be the one to take care of them) We ended getting a place together,in that time she cleaned out my bank account through manipulation (Which when she came back had over $23,000 in it) She ran up my charge cards to the tune of $10,000 and stole over $25,000 worth of inventory from my business. The Saturday before Easter she almost had me committed to the county mental health,tried to get me to sign my car and bank accounts over to her also. Her husband the same day hit me so hard in the sternum that I nearly passed out. All day before they took me in they were brow beating me into submission. They threw me out of the place,took my car,dumped me at the county,they didn't tell anybody they did this (I was paying the rent) The county sent me to a homeless shelter,for Easter Sunday.  The Lord did not leave me stranded though but He did let me suffer the consequences. (I am still paying off the credit cards)

My sister is a pathological liar. (She is so good at it she had social workers in tears because they didn't catch her at,and one nearly quit)

I just don't want to see you go through something like this.  It's a very hard lesson to learn.

I am sorry that your sister did this too you, my mom and dad abused me and screamed and yelled at me and I had nothing but constant chaos as a child growing up. My mom has already told me I was a freak and an abomination for feeling the way I feel. My younger brother wont associate with me If i go down this path, in fact most of my family will despise me.

I don't have anyone in my life that I know of who would clean out my bank accounts and such as happened to you though. What a horrible thing for a sibling to do.

Something else I should mention,she was going to help me with make up,nails,clothing and some other things (She had worked as a model for a short time) But in the end she was the one that betrayed me to my father (I hadn't come out to him yet and I wasn't ready) Because I ended up back at their place I had to get rid of all my makeup and clothing. (It was a condition of being allowed to come back)

so are you currently living as a male again then? Or what is going on?

She is the only person that could ever have come that close to doing so,I trusted her way to much and didn't see the warning signs. There is no way that we can ever get back together unless she runs a very hard gauntlet. If she doesn't reconcile to all the others in the family first,I can not allow her back in my life in any way shape or form. (And knowing my other siblings it won't happen,they can't stand her or me)

I know why she was able to. She was the baby of the family. I was fourteen when she was born. So I remember this cute little good,natured little girl. I moved out when I was nineteen so she was only five years old. I remember feeding her,changing her,and playing with her. In a lot of ways she was my baby. (Not that she physically was but emotional she was) I didn't see all the things that happened after that. (And my family really didn't talk to me that much about it)

I still present as male but I am female. Haven't been able to transition,no insurance and no money. 

Quote from: Shawn Sunshine on December 17, 2012, 11:08:49 AM
I am sorry that your sister did this too you, my mom and dad abused me and screamed and yelled at me and I had nothing but constant chaos as a child growing up. My mom has already told me I was a freak and an abomination for feeling the way I feel. My younger brother wont associate with me If i go down this path, in fact most of my family will despise me.

I don't have anyone in my life that I know of who would clean out my bank accounts and such as happened to you though. What a horrible thing for a sibling to do.

What bothers me the most is that she was able to get through defenses in a shorter period of time then most would not get through in a year. Within two months she had me wrapped around her little finger and I allowed her to do it to a point. (Till she found out I had no money left and that's when the manure hit the fan)

I do understand on the parents being abusive. Both my parents and my grandmothers were all verbally abusive. My mom finally got passed it,but the rest never did. My brothers and sisters all beat up on each other. I don't know how many times I needed new glasses because they were broken and I had them taped up and I had to wait to get them,but my dad always had his beer,cigars and lunch money for going out. If we had a couple of days of peace it was a long time.
Outside of the last time I will see them (It would be at my mom's funeral,and I am becoming very aware of the small but noticeable signs that she is going down hill,I would rather they don't show up at all) if I never see them again it won't hurt me. (I am OK with my mom now but it took a long time) She's been the one that has been the most accepting.

I do understand we weren't meant to live like that.