I'd love to hear of moments when you realized your brain has shifted to a more female way of thinking.

For example, tonight my roomie was watching Karate Kid in the living room (which is in total view of my room). At the end of the movie the kid did some spinning thrust mega jumper down bang kick (sure, that's what it's called) on some kid. That's pretty much the only part of the movie I saw and I said out loud "How can anybody watch that? Kids beating the crap out of each other. It's so barbaric". Now, action movies or Karate Kid never really caught my interest before, but watching some kid knock out another kid has never bothered me before. But what I thought tonight was literally the very first thing I thought. I'm becoming soft! Ugh! lol

Who's next?

Very true.  I am now a lot more open to emotion. This morning I cried when my girlfriend described how she had to have her dog put to sleep in her presence.

Karen.

I was at a dinner party - presenting male - and a couple I've known for years came in. I shook the guy's hand, then kissed his wife on the cheek and, without thinking, said, 'Oh God, I LOVE your boots!' Which I did. They were gorgeous. She laughed and said, 'That is SO you ...'

3 months ago a gal at church and i were talking, and I found myself saying something that i would have not said before out loud. She told me I had nice shoes and I replied "Guess how much I paid for these shoes"!  She replied "yeah that confirms it for me, your a girl, no guy that I know would talk about how much he paid for a pair of shoes and be excited about it". I only started getting moments like that after i accepted myself.

The other day I watched all the twilight movies. In a row. 'Nuff said.

Today, I was watching an anime episode in sync with a friend, over the Internet, and I almost told him about how I liked a character's shoes, and later how I found weird the huge chain she was wearing. I literally typed it out then erased it because he wouldn't care.

Also, I more and more often tell myself that sometimes, I just don't understand guys.

And uhm... Before, I would often imagine things about being part of some adventure, video game, anime, etc. Being a shinigami, being in Tales of Symphonia, having ninja powers, etc. Now much less. Also, my attraction to swords and such has diminished to almost nothing. Though it might be just not being such a kid anymore. But anyway, now, if I daydream about things, it'll mostly - or almost only - be things related to love and friends.

Hmm, despite not being very grown-up myself in many ways, I have this sort of motherly instinct that's showing itself. Before, children were just children, and I wouldn't look at them too much anyway because guys can't really look at strangers' children without being branded a pervert or something. Now, I see children and am really drawn to them, and sometimes start daydreaming about having children. And before, if a child cried at the restaurant, I'd think "Why did they bring their baby? Make it stop..." Now I'm more like "Poor him! What's wrong?"

Finally, before, I wasn't the biggest fan of action and superhero movies, but they entertained me to an extent. Not anymore, and when there's action in something I'm watching (and usually there isn't that much), I sometimes think "This is endless! Why don't you just tell us who won the freaking fight?" On the other hand I'm much more patient with longer, slower parts in a movie. When I saw the Twilight movie before the last with my mother, for example, she thought the "being in love in a country house" chapter was overly long and they could have gotten it over with. But I actually really enjoyed that part of the movie. I thought that for once, they were letting the happiness last more than two minutes before the next disaster came.

I will always dream of being the heroine. x3

My personality is very tomboyish, the feminine twist has always been around.

Quote from: Alainaluvsu on December 18, 2012, 01:22:29 AM
I'd love to hear of moments when you realized your brain has shifted to a more female way of thinking.

Who's next?

For me, it was when I started to consistently dream i was a female. When i realized both my conscious and subconscious accepted then i was good to go

For me it was when I realized I was reading the magazines geared for women and I was reading the ads,or seeing them on TV and I was catching myself that I was paying more attention to the feminine ads.

for me it was when people started noticing that I got moody at certain times. they told me at like 6 months in that I just seemed to really not be one of the fella's anymore. so they started treating me like a lady.

 My mind hasn't really shifted significantly. I have become more free to be myself, but I made very little effort to be someone I wasn't before transition, so the change is minimal.

I acted 'flamboyantly' before, and that now translates into 'femininely'.

If anything, I've gotten more "masculine" because I'm way more secure about my femininity. I didn't like the idea of working out, or doing martial arts, or participating in knife or gun training, but I now see how practical - and fun - these activities can be, so I will pursue them. My interest in swords is also healthy.

It helps to have strong females in your life. Women that show you how badass a woman can be while still being incredibly feminine. I owe my family for these sorts of lessons.

QuoteFor me, it was when I started to consistently dream i was a female.

That's a really good post. I find this more and more. To be honest I don't think I've really paid much attention to my gender in my dreams but after about six months or so of "full time" I've noticed the occasional dream when I'm very aware that I'm a girl. It's possibly due to anxiety over passing or that kind of thing? No idea really. My dreams never make much sense. The other night I dreamed I went abseiling with a friend of mine but we kept getting our ropes all tangled lol.

  I'm single and I like kids.  My nieces and nephews used me as playground equipment until they were teenagers.  I didn't mind.  I took a tour of Lowell Observatory on Mars Hill above Flagstaff, AZ this past May.  Me and a handful of visitors were joined by a large group of first graders on that tour.  They loved the displays in the museum of Percival Lowell, "Canals" on Mars; Clyde Tombaugh, pluto discoverer; Vesto Slipher, galaxy red shift discoverer in which he was discredited with that notion and Edwin Hubble got the credit for that later.  Those kids were in awe with the Alvan Clark 24" refractor in the original wooden dome that Percival Lowell used to look for canals on Mars.  I took a good panorama shot with those kids around that telescope. 
  To a week ago when 20 kids, most of them first graders lost their lives to a nut case.  That brought back to a local for me school called Columbine.  And the flashback of those first graders in awe around the telescope that helped unravel some of the mysteries of the universe.  This hit me deeper than Columbine did.  I credit my recent use of HRT as the main cause.  I was walking around the house that day saying "Little 6 and 7 year olds. Why? Why? Why?"  A lot of difference from the simple angry "Goddammit to Hell" response I had with 9-11 and Columbine.   

  Joelene

  Lowell observatory 24" page with a picture of kids:  http://www.lowell.edu/visit_clark.php

It was quite early for me actually and it would usually kick in when I was doing art projects or hanging out with the other neighborhood girls and my sister instead of the boys my parents thought I should be playing with.

   In adult days while in boy mode running my art based business I get all animated and exctied when going over art projects with customers, I'm sure its obvious to them that something is up, but I think they just attribute it to me being the "temperamental artist"

  And I am SO sensitive about a lot of things, way more than normal males should be...like last night I stayed up late watching the 1947 version of "Miracle on 42nd St." getting all misty and teary thru the emotional parts 

  And, even though my daughters are grown adults I still like braiding their hair and going shopping with them they really like that and often say that none of their other friends dads would dream of doing that!  (btw, I'm not out to my girls yet)

  I cant imagine what I'm gonna be like when I start HRT this next year, lol

For me it was several years ago on my last ever dear hunt. I was with several guys sleeping on cots in a large tent, it was freezing ass cold and an argument ensued over who would have his cot close to mine. I thought, "What the hell am I doing here? I don't want to kill anything and these guys are acting like dorks!" I own several guns and all the reloading equipment and it's all been gathering a lot of dust in my little shop space for several years now because I'm no longer interested in something that was once an obsession. I let my range membership lapse as I'm not remotely interested in guns or shooting anymore. My old life is a closed book to me other than being able to dredge up some wisdom gleaned from my past life. It's as if i was reborn and am a new and uniquely different person than from my former self. I suppose that's as it should be!

 Like just recently I realized that boys like in subtle way demonstrate their dominant role, specially when they are in a position of power and in front of other powerful boys, by asserting their masculine roles with the girls under their command.

Well, one of my boy bosses recently did just that with me -not in a demeaning or machistic way- In the old times I would have not let that one fly, but this time I felt pretty please with myself by fulfilling my submissive female role.

Well, this is an absolutely incredible mind shift for moi.

Parenthetically, I could not help but notice that the other bitches seemed annoyed jealous of the attention I received. 

It happened for me when I was out at goodwill with a friend helping her pick out dresses and she held one up to herself. I said, "Oh my god! That dress looks perfect on you! But you dont have any shoes that go with it..." She laughed and said, "Yep, your a girl, no guy would know my shoe collection like that."

I have always been into martial arts, but I found it hard to present myself in the feminine role as a fighter. Once I did however I turned it into a dance and now I love being the heroine. ^.^ I just couldnt be superwoman, im much to naughty.

Well, I'm not completely feminine in thinking. I love comic books, superhero movies, and video game/cartoon violence. Gotta love Tom and Jerry. 

Anywho, I have had so many of those girly clothing-related moments. Get this: I went to Sears to buy a pair of boots that were 50% off, and I also had a 35% off coupon (35% off sale price. Oh well ) along with a $20 coupon AND some points on my Sears card. I got a $120 pair of boots for... wait for it... $0.50!!!!! AAAAAAAH!!!! 

Quote from: DianaP on December 23, 2012, 07:37:19 PM
Well, I'm not completely feminine in thinking. I love comic books, superhero movies, and video game/cartoon violence. Gotta love Tom and Jerry. 

Anywho, I have had so many of those girly clothing-related moments. Get this: I went to Sears to buy a pair of boots that were 50% off, and I also had a 35% off coupon (35% off sale price. Oh well ) along with a $20 coupon AND some points on my Sears card. I got a $120 pair of boots for... wait for it... $0.50!!!!! AAAAAAAH!!!! 

wow cool beans, yeah im also kinda mentally part male and female, but i got a deal like that too:
I went to cvs pharmacy and was looking for perfume, I signed up for the beauty club and got a $5 coupon off any fragrance, when there was some shakira brand pefume on clearance for $8.63 and marked down from $24 , I paid $3.63

Quote from: peky on December 23, 2012, 04:49:49 PM

  with the girls under their command.

Quote from: peky on December 23, 2012, 04:49:49 PM

fulfilling my submissive female role.

If only it was a joke... Saddening.