Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on February 10, 2013, 10:39:39 PM
As usual, it seems I'm an oddity..

Apart from a lack of soul crushing depression, I'm much the same person I've always been. Sure, I'm happier and I no longer take hiding as an option rather than attend a social event, but I'm still much the same person..

You may still change more. I know I have over the nine years of my transition so far. Although I am not how much of it is due to growing older and how much is due to transition itself except for the happier part.

Quote from: crazy at the coast on February 10, 2013, 10:50:06 PM
You may still change more. I know I have over the nine years of my transition so far. Although I am not how much of it is due to growing older and how much is due to transition itself except for the happier part.

In the past week or so, I've realised I've come full circle.. I am once again the happy person I was in my teens, before the spectre of GID became all pervasive. I'm even looking at getting in to the same kind of work I was thinking of back then. And in so many other ways, I've again become who I was.. It's somewhat of a conundrum, but one I'm happy to live with.

Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on February 10, 2013, 10:39:39 PM
As usual, it seems I'm an oddity..

Apart from a lack of soul crushing depression, I'm much the same person I've always been. Sure, I'm happier and I no longer take hiding as an option rather than attend a social event, but I'm still much the same person..

I often feel odd in the community too.

I went to a creative writing workshop this past weekend.  As a youngin' I wrote short stories and one unpublished novel.  However, I hadn't really tried writing fiction in over a decade.  As I sat there I felt like I was tring to pick my growing up where I left off and it didn't matter to me I looked like a boy when I last expressed interest in writing.

There's still so much about me I don't know after all.  But I'm free to learn now as I am also free to go out and socialize, instead of be a hermit.

Quote from: Misato33 on February 10, 2013, 11:31:42 PM
I went to a creative writing workshop this past weekend.  As a youngin' I wrote short stories and one unpublished novel.  However, I hadn't really tried writing fiction in over a decade.  As I sat there I felt like I was tring to pick my growing up where I left off and it didn't matter to me I looked like a boy when I last expressed interest in writing.

If you haven't read it, you might want to check out Tillie Olsen's book, Silences. It was more or less the only required reading for students in Oberlin's Creative Writing Program when I was a student there, and I think it has a special resonance for trans writers. At least it had one for me, and unfortunately I could not really convey how important it was to me to my therapist, which was one of the big clues that he was really very wrong for me.

I don't know how much I've actually changed, but how I am in relation to society has changed a lot. Like before I was unconventional and aggressive and progressive and artistic and whatever, and lol now I'm just kind of a wuss. Not noticeable or interesting, and definitely a little suspect. It's not worse, just different. Takes getting used to.

yes but it's not as simple as that... I transitioned years ago now. Some of my friends mentioned this how they struggle to link me pre-transition to myself now. Several friends have expressed the sentiment.

From my flatmate Caroline who's known me for nearly 8 years now.
"Martin just went away one day... then sometime after that I met a girl called Alice"

I know what they mean... When I think back to my male self and his personality it's just that, memories. I'm a different person now because I'm dynamic I grow and now I'm scarcely even related to that lost desperate confused girl pretending to be a boy who was about to set out on a massive voyage.

I'm older tougher more crazy and way more fearless.