I'm not jealous of any transgender people because it's just such a heavy thing for anyone to be saddled with, even if you can transition. Even if you pull through it you will always have been limited. I'm not jealous but I somewhat admire people who were able to win the fight for their truth.
I'm jealous of normal guys whose body just gives them the height, the voice, everything. I think sometimes, why don't I deserve that? Yeah, they have to deal with the rough male side of society, no one's perfect, but they'll never know this level of humiliation. They've always had at least the opportunity to have a place in the world. I would have loved to have a normal childhood and adolescence and own and be proud of my body, I think I could have dealt with everything else if I didn't have that desolation weighing on me.