I have the feeling there should be more time on my ticker than I've got. I should fix that or at least change it. That's how long I've admitted the situation to myself...anyway, I'm oscillating back and forth between possibly losing someone I love because of a fundamental difference. He's the light contrasting my dark, and I'm the dark to his life, but at my center I'm a dark soul and every ounce of pain from love and loss makes it grow darker still.
I'm afraid of turning into my father.