Hey people, I would like to thank you all for the help and advice you have given me. One theme that kept on cropping up was that you didn't know much information about me so I have decided to share some more.

I have heard that on HRT, libido can decrease but this is not something I would want. I have been on sertraline (anti-anxiety) since last May and it has markedly reduced my libido and this annoyed me but now I am coming off the tablets (under medical supervision) and my sex drive is coming back to what it was which I am happy about.

Earlier I thought about how my life would be different if I was born female and I think that I would probably be skinnier and I would model my look on celebrities (e.g. Cheryl Cole), I think I would have had similar interests but I would probably be into make-up and other female things. I'd also enjoy the attention from guys and having drinks bought for me and stuff and I would like to show off my body (not in a naked way lol)

Since making my other threads and using the chatroom, my worry about this has reduced markedly but when the thought that I might be trans comes into my head, I don't know how to respond to it or when I think about the posts and stuff, I'm not sure if I should spend time thinking about them or not.

I once tucked it between my legs and looked in the mirror to see if I preferred it but I didn't.

I sometimes get anxious when doing certain yoga positions that I am unconsciously pushing too hard on my penis (I also worry about this when sleeping in certain positions) but I have been worrying about this less the last few days

I have also noticed that I only seem to worry about my penis when it is cold and it shrinks and when I am in tight clothing down below. Could I have been mistaking that for gender dysphoria since worrying I was trans? Maybe, maybe not. When I think about trans I tend to think about that area more but before I worried I was trans I didn't worry about it.

I'm also happy when people compliment the size of my penis (but I guess that maybe pre-ops or pre-pre-ops could be happy when told that anyway so this may not be an indicator)

As I have said in my other threads, I really like my torso and I like the muscles I have built at the gym. I like touching them and I just generally like the way they feel. I have been into using the gym and exercise long before I worried I was trans so I am not just going to gym to cover up being female. I developed a keen interest in exercise since around age 14, with a focus on lifting weights although I got proper into it when I was 19 and first joined a gym (this was also before I thought was trans)

I don't feel discomfort when peopel refer to me as male.

I do get annoyed in clubs when they say 'ladies shout out' but they don't always ask the men to shout out but this is only in certain clubs.

In the last day or 2, I have been slightly annoyed with people keep on pointing out that I'm gay because I already know that I am so I don't need others to constantly tell me (I guess knowing that I am gay kinda contradicts my worry that I am trans and straight but I guess quite a few MTFs that are into men did go through a period of being gay so maybe this isn't really an indicator)

I have tried to be unbiased throughout this where I have put both sides of arguments or at leats attempted to, I think that this is long enough for right now haha

I am also aware that I could just be in the denial stage of transsexualism

Also I like urinating standing up. However, when I was around 8 or 9 I used to sit down to urinate but I felt more normal about it when Richard from Richard and Judy said he did it too because he thought it was more humane.

Also, when I am listening to songs that I sing along to or relate to, when they use female pronouns I usually change them to male when I think about how they relate to me but maybe this is just denial :S

OK, let's look at a couple of these. I'm not a doctor, but here's my opinion:

Quote from: FreshGuy on February 12, 2013, 07:50:09 AM
I have been on sertraline (anti-anxiety) since last May and it has markedly reduced my libido and this annoyed me but now I am coming off the tablets (under medical supervision) and my sex drive is coming back to what it was which I am happy about.

Your posts over the last few days suggested to me that you may be feeling anxious. I'd imagine your doctors have replaced sertraline with something else... if not, you might want tell them you're feeling anxious again and get them to look at it. Incidentally, withdrawal from sertraline can make your symptoms worse, especially if you're coming off it after having been on it for longer than 6 months - so please report this to your doctor straight away.

Quote from: FreshGuy on February 12, 2013, 07:50:09 AM
Earlier I thought about how my life would be different if I was born female and I think that I would probably be skinnier and I would model my look on celebrities (e.g. Cheryl Cole), I think I would have had similar interests but I would probably be into make-up and other female things. I'd also enjoy the attention from guys and having drinks bought for me and stuff and I would like to show off my body (not in a naked way lol)

Many people wonder what life would be like if they'd been born the opposite sex, or a different race, or a different nationality, or in a different historical period, or whatever. All sorts of people like getting attention and showing off their bodies. The overwhelming majority of them are not trans. Anyway, who's to say you're not allowed to experiment with 'make-up and other female things?'. The 1980s were pretty much dedicated to guys doing exactly that.

Quote from: FreshGuy on February 12, 2013, 07:50:09 AM
I have also noticed that I only seem to worry about my penis when it is cold and it shrinks and when I am in tight clothing down below. Could I have been mistaking that for gender dysphoria since worrying I was trans? Maybe, maybe not. When I think about trans I tend to think about that area more but before I worried I was trans I didn't worry about it.

It sounds like you prefer your physical characteristics to be typically male. Which would probably make you cisgendered. It also sounds like you're self-conscious of an obvious bulge in tight clothing. Which would make you human.

Quote from: FreshGuy on February 12, 2013, 07:50:09 AM
I'm also happy when people compliment the size of my penis (but I guess that maybe pre-ops or pre-pre-ops could be happy when told that anyway so this may not be an indicator)
I don't feel discomfort when peopel refer to me as male.

Trust me, most people with gender dysphoria would feel absolutely awful whenever someone points out our (original) primary or secondary sexual characteristics. If you like yours and are perfectly comfortable with being referred to as male, you probably don't have gender dysphoria.

Quote from: FreshGuy on February 12, 2013, 07:50:09 AM
I do get annoyed in clubs when they say 'ladies shout out' but they don't always ask the men to shout out but this is only in certain clubs.

Just from that quote you sound like you identify as a man. Otherwise you'd just want to shout out with all the other ladies.
Either that, or you're just annoyed about sexist DJs.

Quote from: FreshGuy on February 12, 2013, 07:53:28 AM
Also I like urinating standing up. However, when I was around 8 or 9 I used to sit down to urinate but I felt more normal about it when Richard from Richard and Judy said he did it too because he thought it was more humane.

Lots of guys urinate sitting down. Lots urinate standing up. Some urinate standing up in public, but sitting down at home. There aren't actually any rules so whatever you prefer to do is fine. It doesn't necessarily mean anything.
Richard Madeley probably said it was 'more humane' because he was less likely to get a beatdown from Judy for leaving the seat up.

Quote from: FreshGuy on February 12, 2013, 07:54:33 AM
Also, when I am listening to songs that I sing along to or relate to, when they use female pronouns I usually change them to male when I think about how they relate to me but maybe this is just denial :S

Which, once again, sounds like you think of yourself as a man. So you appear to identify as male. You see where I'm going here?