When I first started trying to figure out why I'm a girl in my head, I expected that simply answering the question would help to put my mind at ease.  And for a while, I guess it did... but I eventually wanted more.  I've absorbed a lot of information over the last year or two about being transgender and everything involved with transitioning.  And the more I learn, the more I want.

It's actually the exact same feeling I get when I stand in line for a roller coaster.  I know that I'm eventually going to get to the front of the line and get to ride, but the waiting has caused me to build up a lot of nervous and excited energy.  I'm restless.  I woke up way before my alarm this morning and I couldn't lie still long enough to fall back asleep.  At least with a roller coaster you get through the line in a couple of hours, but over the last week or two I've been extra aware of how much this is building in me.

Does anybody have any advice for a new outlet so that I can at least have better luck concentrating while I'm trying to work?

Emschuma,

I am one of those people that likes to always have something to plan for and I like to set goals for myself.  I can understand the anxiousness of just waiting. I don't know that anything will completely eradicate the 'anxiety of waiting' from your mind. But I know when I'm waiting for something big, it helps me to set small goals toward accomplishing it...whether it be monetary or otherwise. Is there a way to maybe give yourself small step goals like say every 3 months throughout this transition? Then you'll be able to celebrate and be proud when you reach them.  Also I find staying on a regular schedule, like working out the same days every week, having plans for lunch or a day out every Saturday etc. Really help and it makes weeks fly by.  I am wishing you lots of luck!

Thanks for the suggestion, and I'll try to think out some small goals to work towards .  I'm not sure what, though... besides beginning to let my friends in on this.