I'm thinking that because of the botched shot I may get a period. I've obviously felt PMS-y (world is dark, aaaah) due to having low T for a while, but I'm getting really vague cramps that I can see turning into full blown period cramps and some bleeding. kdsjfweignerw.

It's always really funny when people point stuff out though. Because historically, whenever I've had those issues, I've just made surviving the day a priority because of dysphoria, pain, and generally bleh. Someone at the university noticed I was just wearing a baggy hoodie, clinging to my caffeinated elixir for dear life, and obviously just trying to get through the day, lol, and he just looks at me and says "next week will be better, it happens to us all." And smiles awkwardly like "what is wrong with you...ok, have a great day!" I'll really need to clean up my act over the next week because it's obvious I am off balance.

Dinner was amazing too. Deliciousness. Uncertain if we looked straight or like lesbians.

Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 14, 2013, 03:13:36 PM
I love American Gods by Neil Gaiman!

It's got Thoth in it.  And Loki.  And Anubis [-insert girlish squeal-]. I'm most of the way done with it and I'm dying!  xD I love this book so much!

I agree that book is so fun.

My trans-related stuff is all hidden away, except for the clothes on my back (those will be packed away as soon as I change).  I think I'm ready for my parents to get here in a few hours...

Ready to go home and put on a bra. My nipples are tender. Stupid rubbing fabric and wearing button down guy shirts.

Nervous. Trying to figure stuff out. So I'm thinking round and round about Big Important Things, with a dash of stupid thrown in from all the sleep deprivation.

Pondering whether or not to go and get myself some pepsi...
And possibly chips.

Quote from: Felix on February 15, 2013, 09:54:24 AM
I agree that book is so fun.

I'm having nerdgasms all over the place. xD  Since I follow the Egyptian gods, I'm dying. XD  [And I follow Loki...now, I'd truly die if Arawn and Cailleach showed up. xD]

I have discovered Starfighter!  It is a totally awesome comic filled with yummy guys in leather suits!  [The two main characters are gay...probably all of the characters are since it's that type of comic.]  Anyway, I read chapter two this morning and I giggled really hard.  I'm surprised my dad didn't ask me what was going on. xD

Speaking of...my dad is in the hospital.  He had chest pains yesterday and back pains so he had an appoint today and they took him to the E.R. in the fort across town.  He sounded fine on the phone so I'm not terribly worried. 

On another note...

I think I should write a small blurb of my view of sex changing a little since coming out, but I dunno if anyone would read it and understand or having anything to say to it.

Just got back from taking a career assesment test.  Now to wait and see if they call me in for an interview next week.  If they do, great, if not, oh well more sleep time.

Quote from: V M on February 14, 2013, 11:57:58 PM
Winter sucks because my hot food/drinks go cold far too quickly     But then on the bright side, I don't have to worry about my beer getting warm too soon 

Well, I like to eat my food fast, so I prefer it cool. If it's hot, it becomes too hard to inhale.

I', thinking about getting my old RPG going again. I miss creative writing and I miss my ship, the USS Exploration. And I'm working on  my models again.

Keaira, do you have a brother just as nerdy as you?

I think that's a pretty awesome ship. ^^ And I miss RPGs...

On a sad note, my dad's being kept over night for observation.  He'll be fine, but they sill want to keep an eye on him.

Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 15, 2013, 03:38:17 PM
Keaira, do you have a brother just as nerdy as you?

I think that's a pretty awesome ship. ^^ And I miss RPGs...

On a sad note, my dad's being kept over night for observation.  He'll be fine, but they sill want to keep an eye on him.

Aww. I hope he's okay. As for my brother, No... he's the opposite. he smokes, lifts weights, loves sports, etc. I'd post pictures but I'm worried he would trigger dysphoria because he is buff.  Why do you ask? and you're welcome to join in on my little RPG. It's Star Trek based. It used to be my escape from my dysphoria. its all creative writing. ^_^

Quote from: Keaira on February 15, 2013, 04:04:28 PM
Aww. I hope he's okay. As for my brother, No... he's the opposite. he smokes, lifts weights, loves sports, etc. I'd post pictures but I'm worried he would trigger dysphoria because he is buff.  Why do you ask? and you're welcome to join in on my little RPG. It's Star Trek based. It used to be my escape from my dysphoria. its all creative writing. ^_^

Because I can't have you as you're a girl. [That sounds incredibly sexist...but I like nerdy people...preferably guys. ] I'm very much a not-buff-leaning guy. xD [I almost but "not-butt-leaning"...I can't type.]

o.o Star Trek..omg...marry me? XD I love Star Trek.  Roleplaying is actually my escape and it's what I use to keep from going nuts. >.>

And my dad's fine. ^^ The doctors are just being safe than sorry.

Quote from: Aaron Gabriel on February 15, 2013, 12:41:34 PM
I have discovered Starfighter!  It is a totally awesome comic filled with yummy guys in leather suits!  [The two main characters are gay...probably all of the characters are since it's that type of comic.]  Anyway, I read chapter two this morning and I giggled really hard.  I'm surprised my dad didn't ask me what was going on. xD

I love that web comic! Always eagerly waiting for a new page. Tumblr is a good way to know when the next page is up.

MMA Fighters

My grandma who has been fighting tooth and nail to deny my transition, and flat out refused to use my name, just sent me an email that started with "Hi Caleb."

What the...? When did this happen? What? Why? I can't even be happy about it because I can't comprehend it. This literally came out of nowhere, she made no effort previously to even...anything...what...why...how. Does this mean I don't have to confront her about the old name now? I was planning to this Sunday and it was making me angsty as hell. No, it can't be that easy. But I was convinced the...what.

Legend of Zelda rap. My cheeks hurt from laughing so hard! 

"I'm the real Ada Wong!"

"No you aint, you tryin though"

Lol I love theradbrad

Quote from: Tossu-sama on February 15, 2013, 06:51:09 PM
I love that web comic! Always eagerly waiting for a new page. Tumblr is a good way to know when the next page is up.

I'll just bug you about it.   I don't have a Tumblr.  And I'm so glad another person on here shares this love with me. XD  [I'm a yaoi addict, I swear. xD]  I'm also waiting for Teahouse to update...and Elan Meets Rafe, which is also a pretty awesome comic.  I love all three dearly. x3

>.><.<

I really do like my therapist.  If I could afford to see her weekly then I would.  In our latest session, I discussed with her about how it didn't feel right for me to go to women's group meetings at our church, even though I liked the socialization of it.  She asked me if there was anything they talked about that was gender-specific and after I thought about it, not really.  She was like "well they don't sit around talking about their periods do they?".  That made me laugh and feel better about going.  It's still a little awkward but hey free food there so it isn't all a lost. 

Speaking about periods, I should be on the look out next week.