Heyy everyone I'm John, I am 21 years old. I was born male, but lately I have been thinking of changing my gender. I decided to register to this forum in hopes for some answers to the many questions constantly overwhelming my brain.
About me:
I have a very hard time looking back and remembering my past anything before 12 years old. I do remember though when I was some where between 6-10 I would play with the neighbor kids this is where I start to question myself. Looking back at it there where a few signs that make me wonder. I loved putting on jewelry and would ask the girls I hung out with to dress me up. Now they where fine with it but some of the other kids started to make remarks that jewelry and dress where only for girls and I was a boy so I could not do that. I quickly stopped doing that. Not sure if that made me sad or I was ok with it I cant remember. I really remember though around the age of 12 when I started hitting puberty and first discovery of what my gender part was and how i use it. I would look at women and be jealous of there body's and clothing. I would go to bed at night praying and wishing that I would wake up as a girl. I dreamed that one day I would wake up and that my whole past would be rewritten making me female from the day I was born. I was to afraid to tell anyone of these feels for fear of destroying what little social life I had. To help deal with these thoughts I went to the internet. I created a second me on the internet only this time I was female. I kept this hidden from friends and family. Still to this day I go online and let out my female self. Sometime I go away from it for periods of times but I still come back. Lately I have been deeply thinking of doing what I have dreamed for many years.
