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Hmmm, I think I when I wear male clothing is when I feel uneasy and uncomfortable especially in public now that I have begun transition.

Quote from: muuu on February 22, 2013, 04:03:25 AM
I also attempted to cook rice (first time >.<, but it went quite well).

I've only done instant rice.  That's easy too

I spend my afternoons working from a "co-working society" designed to keep people from going crazy working from home.  I've found that being around attractive girls again sets me off... but it's also a good opportunity for me to observe them so I can practice how they move on my own.

I agree with EmSchuma, being around a pretty girl makes me super jealous and I get upset =/

As for rice, I won't even go there, I love my microwave! No.....I don't cook rice with it lol

Stress, facial hair, forgetting to take morning dose of hrt, eating bad food, going to the men's bathroom, wearing male clothing, being dirty, talking like a man, talking to myself in a male voice, being called 'sir' at work.... All I can remember off the top of my head

Mine is probably any women or girl sadly.. I tend to look at the ground in shame if I walk by or they walk by me.. Which is like 99% of the time. Also looking at the mirror does it for me.  Rather not look at my ugly self.

Quote from: Heavenlywind on February 22, 2013, 08:04:24 AM
Mine is probably any women or girl sadly.. I tend to look at the ground in shame if I walk by or they walk by me.. Which is like 99% of the time. Also looking at the mirror does it for me.  Rather not look at my ugly self.

I'm sure you're lovely. Don't look down in shame sweetie.

I didn't even think about looking in the mirror. That's definitely one that bothers me often because I'm constantly looking for change and so I'm constantly bothered.

Quote from: Heavenlywind on February 22, 2013, 08:04:24 AM
Mine is probably any women or girl sadly.. I tend to look at the ground in shame if I walk by or they walk by me.. Which is like 99% of the time. Also looking at the mirror does it for me.  Rather not look at my ugly self.

It's that and more for me. It's how others perceives me that hurts the worst. I'm two months on hormones and I'm pretty huge mostly in the upper torso. I just hate how others perceive me especially those close to me.

The mirror is defiantly depressing. Have you ever watched Mulan and listened to the song reflection.

"Why does my relection show someone I don't know...
"When will my reflection show who I am inside"

I don't know, I still doubt I can make it. It seems like my dysphoria is everywhere with no one to hug who can offer me support... A shoulder to cry over. *sigh* I'm sorry I guess I'm just everybody's problem.

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Quote from: BurningBrilliance on February 22, 2013, 08:50:45 AM
I don't know, I still doubt I can make it. It seems like my dysphoria is everywhere with no one to hug who can offer me support... A shoulder to cry over. *sigh* I'm sorry I guess I'm just everybody's problem.

But that's why you're here, right?  * virtual hug *

Mirrors can be terrible things at times.  And for years every girl I see could make me feel she has something I can never have, and her looks or age really don't matter.

I went to bed early the last two nights also, so you're not the only one muuu.  But I have an injection today and I hope it turns things around.

Kathy

Ugh.. triggers. That time of the month really gets to me, because for five days I have a constant reminder. Sometimes masturbating and sex because it doesn't feel right, but not always because sometimes I can get past those feelings. Having to wear the wrong clothing, like female clothing when I really don't want to. People saying 'good girl' or 'you're my girl' or basically anything like that. Looking in the mirror is a massive one as well.

Definitely mirrors. Also, pictures of me in male clothes. Having to present as masculine at work. My voice on the phone. Being around a lot of cisgendered men at one time. Being around pretty girls doesn't trigger me, it just makes me envious and I have to try no to stare as I watch their mannerisms and movements.

Quote from: AnarchoChloe on February 22, 2013, 10:36:15 AM
Being around pretty girls doesn't trigger me, it just makes me envious and I have to try no to stare as I watch their mannerisms and movements.

I have to agree on that point.  I feel jealous all the time and I don't like the feeling. 

As for my triggers?  The mirror is a big one but I also find the shower is, I can't stand it, increasingly lately, have to look at the wall.  I work in a field where we have a lot of lifestyle posters and advertising, I find that they can also set off my GD, but one of the worst things for me is men's underwear, even jockeys are loose and allow way too much movement it's that slight movement, ever so small that can set off my body dysphoria in the biggest way, some days I just want to scream.

C.

The shower is a huge one for me as well. For the most part I'm able to avoid looking down, but on leg shaving days things get really maudlin really quickly. Actually, all of my body hair is a huge trigger. I can not wait until the chest hair is gone for good.

Seeing a nicely shaped female, getting hit on by a cute guy, seeing myself naked. The worst though is when I get sincerely asked out by a nice guy, makes me feel so damned freakish knowing that I can't because of my body.

Short answer, everything

Long answer:
mirrors
male clothes
being refered to as male
my male voice
my male bits
body hair
facial hair
my masculine features
seeing women (I hate them, the jealousy gets overwhelming)
Seeing men (how dare they be comfortable with their gender)
seeing mothers pushing prams (i'll never know the joy & pain of childbirth)
the worst of the lot right now is smelling like a man (it's disgusting, repulsive & at times I smell myself & want to throw up)

Quote from: muuu on February 22, 2013, 04:03:25 AM
I think basically pictures of females, not necessarily super models, but females with some flaws who still look so very feminine.

Yeah, this. These images of imperfection make them seem more tangible.

Also, pregnant and nursing women are triggers for me as those are things I'll never have.

Touching my face and feeling stubble, even if it's clearly not visible to anyone else.

Oh, and showers. I limit those to once a week.