To those who are Gender Fluid, Bigender, or GenderQueer: How do you experience dysphoria and how do you deal with it? How does it affect your decisions about social and physical transition?

Quote from: DrillQuip on March 02, 2013, 11:01:24 AM
How does it affect your decisions about social and physical transition?

I don't make social decisions with transitioning in mind. I can't. I'm incapable. The following list is fairly common among the transgender community, I know. But the combination of living with a very long-term GF and our young son, thinking of the welfare of others more than my own and having a family that would never understand (despite their pretence of a simple, bohemian lifestyle) means that I will never fulfil my ambition to transition. The person that I am will always beat down the person that I want to be. I hate my life. I want it to end. That is all.

Quote from: Servalan on March 02, 2013, 06:01:38 PM
I don't make social decisions with transitioning in mind. I can't. I'm incapable. The following list is fairly common among the transgender community, I know. But the combination of living with a very long-term GF and our young son, thinking of the welfare of others more than my own and having a family that would never understand (despite their pretence of a simple, bohemian lifestyle) means that I will never fulfil my ambition to transition. The person that I am will always beat down the person that I want to be. I hate my life. I want it to end. That is all.

I know that feeling very well!  As cliche as it sounds it really is an every day struggle (at least for me).  Actually more like a  "every couple of days" struggle.

I've been trying my best to just react to how I feel in any given moment. When I feel feminine I take that path and when I think male I go down that one.

Slowly coming to the realization that even though I may think I want R.S. it's more then likely just a phase for any given week.

What helps me through the day is knowing that I would still be me whether I transition or not. I still feel as though I would be a lot more comfortable as a woman but I know that if I did make the transition, who I am now will not change. Being male or female doesn't stop me being me and for the time being, that kind of thinking has helped me keep control of myself.