Five days short of 3 months on HRT
Quote from: Jennygirl on March 04, 2013, 01:31:48 AM
I find LA is great too, and actually since coming back home I've been properly gendered everywhere. Quite possible that the trach shave had a lot to do with it, my adams apple used to be gnarly! But honestly I think what really did it was getting a little better with the whole makeup thing. It definitely ups the way I feel about seeing myself and how I notice others seeing me, and from what I've read isn't that the whole point of wearing it? I am absolutely sure that learning how to properly hide the remaining beard shadow has helped a ton. Took me a few months, but it was well worth the trials and tribulations. I had to go through some really horridly bad makeup days to get where I am now. Yikes, lol.
I know my face has changed some with hormones, but without a little added help from makeup my face still looks rather boyish to me. Not like I'd expect it to be all girl after only 3 months though! It is definitely changing, but the makeup is giving my patience some much needed help. It's allowing me to get on with my transition and live the way I want. So, yay.
Thanks again for the kind words. It means a LOT to me to know that you appreciate my efforts- especially coming from two fine looking ladies like yourselves 
Jenny, I can see why you pass everywhere you go. You're gorgeous! I totally agree with you about makeup and its value in helping us pass and more, to just feel pretty and good about ourselves. We're women, after all, and are only doing what women do. Before beginning to live full time I thought I knew quite a bit about makeup, after wearing it hundreds of times throughout my life, but I really knew next to nothing and it showed. Plus, makeup styles change, and as you age what was once appropriate can make an old bag like me either look like a used up old whore or an aging queen. I had the opportunity to transition to full time after only six weeks on HRT, so I took it, even though in retrospect I wasn't close to being ready. There were several times I went out without lipstick, and several more when my mom caught me before I went out the door and said, "Are you missing something?" I said, "Oh yeah, I love you mom" and started to leave. She said, "I will not let my daughter leave this house without lipstick!" Miraculously, I passed, even though I think I may have been read by some people. But I'm of the opinion that if you're really being clocked or read, you'll hear about it or see people's reactions. I guess I'm a little jaded, but I'm positive that there are lots of people who aren't going to be sweet, supportive or even courteous if they have the feeling you're transsexual, for whatever reason, be it religious, old prejudice, watching too many 'Jerry Springer' shows or for some women, jealousy. I think there are cis women who really are jealous of some trans girls because even though they don't see us as women, there's nothing they can do to make themselves look better outside of surgery, that we might not have to do or can do just the same as them. If I had the money (I don't!) I'd still go to a Mac cosmetics or pay a makeup artist to do my face and teach me how to better hide my faults, or at least make them less visible. I've learned a great deal, but it took me much longer than it would have if I'd have had money. So I watched youtube videos and other how-to videos and info from cosmetics companies. I have green eyes and found both makeup videos and articles on what eye shadows make green eyes 'pop.' I also got a subscription from my mom, Christmas 2011, for 'Vogue' and that's helped a great deal, too. But it's impossible to quantify the benefits of hormones to our faces in both skin feminization and fat redistribution. As far as clothes, I learned early on about color wheels to find what colors and shades match best with each other. You can google 'color wheel' and some will come with an article telling you exactly how to use it. I'm sorry I keep babbling, but for some of you new to living full time, hopefully, I said something that will help your transition. Hugs to all, Mira
