Well, where to start. Probably the most depressing intro you'll ever read! I suppose you could call this a cry for help. I'm a 32 year old man with a secret thats been eating away at me for as long as I can remember. I've always known I was born in the wrong body, right from playing with dolls when i was younger, playing dress up with my sister, only i'd have a dress on instead of a spiderman costume, to waking up every morning wishing i'd wake up as a female. Without sounding big headed i've always been a confident 'bloke', always up for a night out with the lads, pulling some beautiful women along the way. But recently thats all changed. I've tried to supress my inner feelings that long i almost feel, dare i say it, suicidal. I'm so depressed i've alienated myself from my friends and family. I know theres no way i can come out to them as i live in a small comunity, all of which are very narrowminded and old fasioned in their ways. But if i dont come out i'm frightend i might do something stupid. I would love to talk to anyone with some advise, i live in the Hull area UK. Thanks. x

Hi Lucy,

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Janet 

Thanks for the welcome, it's a bit of a relief finding this site amongst others. I'm really new to all this so im finding it all a little overwhelming 
Lucy.

Welcome, Lucy - Take a deep breath, and hang around a bit.

I hope that you will find yourself more comfortable with where you are, and wherever you're heading, as you spend a little time here discovering others who have walked similar paths... I know that this forum has been very helpful for me, in the short time that I've been here.

My Very Best - Sadie

*Takes deep breath* Thanks Sadie, i'm finding out so much it's unreal, my brains on overload! ha. So wish i'd found all this sooner.
Lucy.

From southern California, welcome Lucy!  We have a fairly large contingent of members in the U.K.

I think you will feel right at home.

First thing, though, find out how gender counseling is handled in your area.

Again thanks for the welcome, it's a huge relief being able to talk openly about how i feel, it's like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders, i only wish i'd come here sooner. I've actually emailed my mother telling her how i feel, and that i need her support. I can't sleep for thinking what shes going to say.

She is going to have questions, Lucy.  The answers are not always the easy part.