Ok so I wanted to start a topic, about my trip to thailand and my surgery with Dr. Chattawut, and I figured it didnt seem to fit in with making a blog so , here is where I am starting it.
This is my intention, I'm not trying to bash or say bad things etc etc etc, I'm just going to coriograph (sp?) my trip the before,during and after so other can gett a somewhat idea what to posibly expect.
I am doing this as an outlet partially because of my excitement,nervousness, and just plain anxiety.
Something I would like to make clear also.. While I wont voice my complete opinion or srs and transgendered things I will say this because of a certain post that was made a bit back that I feel should really be addresed.
SRS is not to be taken lightly, there are rules to being alowed to recieve it, and while the most persistant person can find ways to cheat and work around these rules in order to recieve SRS it most be know
THIS IS NOT A REVERSABLE SURGERY so you best make sure this is a must for you before you decide you are ready to take too trip that I am taking. You are ultimately in control of your body and what you decide to do just be sure you are making the right choice, as if you have post surgery regret there is only one person to blame.
I have came to the decision that I would rather be dead than to continue on as I am, I have succesfully transitioned but I feel not complete so this decision is one of self preservation, if I couldnt make it happen than I wont go into the specifics but like I said a few lines back I would rather be dead than stay this way.
and now that I have got that out of my system on with the show, and feel free to ask questions and I will do my best to answer as I can

Today I am at T-10 days till lift off, I am to fly out on the 24th for my oh so-fun 29hour flight

I am getting more and more anxious as D-day gets closer, and I am sure I will make it throuugh it but sstill non-the-less I am anxious
Another thing that is fixing to happen is tonight will be the night I have to stop taking my preciouse hormone med's

and a couple other meds that are related to pain control, so I no-doubt have the feeling that I may go-off on some poor pitiful soul,either at work or random do to pain and lack of hormones which will be playing games with my emotions. While I have thought about forgoing the instructions as to not taking them I have decided to follow the instructions to the T as I want everything to go as possibly well as I hope fore,
so bear with me friends for I do believe the next 10-14 days are gonna be a doozy!!!
thats it for this eve more to come tomorow!!