So we all know guys like to joke around and test each other's strength. It's what friends do. I have 3 brothers and at least two of them like to test me a lot. Thing is, it flares up my dysporia something fierce.

Whenever I wrestle or playfight with them, they always grab me and end up touching my chest with an arm or something and I'm always afraid they can feel my boobs. On top of that, I'm a lot shorter and of course weaker than they are with this stupid female body. This is exactly why I have managed to stay away from playfights for years. And my youngest brother, who is 16 now, is starting to be stronger than me and I really, really hate it!

Today one of my brothers blocked my path and of course, that was a challenge. We ended up playfighting but he pwned my behind with just one hand available. He ended up saying 'Geesh, you really got weaker'. I know this is not the case. He's 21 and grew a lot since the last time we wrestled, so he just got a lot stronger but maaaan, I feel so terrible now. I hate my body more than ever and figured I will have to stay away from playfights and look like a chicken. But I'm a guy...I actually like those fights!

How do you guys (pre T) deal(t) with that?

try lifting and getting fit. if you bind dont worry about your chest ive had girls feel my chest with their hands on purpose. they didnt realize anything was different. me and my brothers do the same but im the oldest so the only one i cant beat is the one two years younger then me but i dont feel to bad because he actually wrestles and is strong also i can hold my own.

My twin brother and I used to wrestle and playfight all the time when we were little. Then, it must be karma or something, he suddenly started getting huge, while I of course did not. Now he's 6'5" (!), a solid foot taller than I am.

So, eventually I had to simply face the reality that there was no way I was going to win these wrestling matches any more. Does that suck? Absolutely. But even now that's I've been on T for 3 years, and work out, etc., etc. I'm still not as strong as he is, and never will be. No matter how big or strong you get, there's always someone bigger and stronger.

I "dealt" with it by just not wrestling with him any more. In retrospect I actually think that was a mistake. Yes, it sucked to lose and was frustrating, intensifying what you are feeling about hating my stupid little weakling body. But at least I occasionally did learn some things I could do, even against a much bigger / stronger guy. So I guess I see two different ways to deal with it: avoid it, if it causes too much dysphoria. Or, embrace it and try to learn what you can from it, but with the mindset and understanding that you will not always be successful any more. Having brothers is great actually, because you don't have to worry about them "reading" you, etc.

Find a Judo class or a BJJ class.  You might have to go to them in "girl mode" because they're gonna find out (unless they're trans-friendly), but learn some skills.  A trained little guy has a very good chance against an untrained big guy.

If I were you I would be going to a martial arts club, or better still, find some one that teach's mixed martial arts. As they teach how to really hurt people that attack you. They will teach you how to get out of holds etc. Pressure points are really helpful to, I know a few of them, bring the biggest bloke down to the ground with 1 finger Even at 6 foot tall 2 pick handles across the shoulders like myself, still get beat by other blokes, and some cis- females can whoop a blokes arse!

I just finished my first MMA class at the local school. My mate teach's the class for 2 bucks a lesson, cheap as Bro!
Thought some pratice in self defence might be the go, seeing I am just starting my transition! Been a few years since I needed to be mean and have to hurt some one. I really don't like hurting people. If they attack me look out! I will defend myself, and I have had lots of practice.