At my drug program yet!

Well, I don't know if it was more like I was hitting on her and she hit back! We wound up talking for ten minutes and she invited me to an event next month, she is in a different group but we will be running into one another every day.

She said something really flirty as we parted, I said "well, you are going to give a girl ideas" She smiled like'"Yeah, stupid, that's just what I am intending to do"

Then again, she could be just teasing me which women seem to constantly like to do.

Anyway, what I do know is that there a LOT of women who are attracted to me, I am holding off until I get the right equipment...but I am starting to get, like, really excited!

51 days to go!

Yay, that's great you got hit on.  I get hit on quite often, sometimes it's annoying, and other days it boosts my confidence a bit. I don't have the correct equipment yet, which sux. I also have a girlfriend, so yeah... not playing the game now. LOL

Quote from: gothique11 on May 21, 2007, 05:55:07 PM
Yay, that's great you got hit on.  I get hit on quite often

I guess so, you have like a 30 year advantage youth-wise. I NEVER get annoyed when women hit on me. Guys hit on me all day and it is very annoying.

Quote from: melissa90299 on May 22, 2007, 12:02:58 AM
Guys hit on me all day and it is very annoying.

Ugh...I got hit on one day in guy's clothes at lunch in a mall food court.  This gay guy kept smiling and giving me 'the look' from another table away.  I got tired of it in like 10 seconds, then finally said aloud to him "You're barking up the wrong bush!"
He rolled his eyes, and wandered off.  Fool made me laugh, and choke on my food!

I'll be sooo happy when I come out at work and dress female 24/7

Bev

So I ran into the same woman in the ladies room today, I started talking about this woman I met last night who gets too involved too soon when she is in a realtionship, Laura (not her real name) says "well, I only have sex partners and, lately, even they have flown the coop!" I am like wow, I felt like saying "well come see me when I get back from Thailand" instead I said, "Oh, you are giving me ideas again" and ran out of the ladies room.

Holy Moly, I need my surgery, fast!

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UPDATE:

She asked me to "hang out" with her at the AA GAY convention at the Bill Graham at the end of the month. I think there is a little something going on here.

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UPDATE: she is in my daily group now, we sit together, she constantly compliments me about my appearance and the way I dress. Problem is that she is early in recovery, only 28 days. I told my counselor about her and she said, yes, she is definitely hitting on me. It is against the rules to have a romantic relationship with other clients or staff. I aksed her though what happens if two women start hanging out and then become involved. She said that has happened before and it would be OK but the two would probably have to be assigned to different groups.

She invited me to attend church with her at the Church of St. John Coltrane on Fillmore St. Yes, the church of Jazz great John Coltrane!

No place but San Francisco!


UPDATE:

So we still have a date to go to the Gay AA convention that's at the end of the month. I think this woman has too much baggage for me to get involved with. Her "man" (she's bi) is in prison for life and when she was drugging, she turned tricks.

That said, I will probably sleep with her at some point. The sexual chemistry is just too strong to let it go unfulfilled.


LIKE SANDS THROUGH THE HOURGLASS SO ARE THE DAYS OF MELISSA NICOLE'S LIFE

Laura and I hung out today, went to the Fillmore Street Juneteenth Festival then went to an AA meeting together, I really like this woman a lot but she is sooooo much like me, I don't think we could ever pair off, I still really want her carnally though but I will deal with that in August. 

I really wanted to go to see the documentary on Gwen Araujo this afternoon at the LGBT Film Festival (Frameline) but everyone was tied up and I didn't want to go alone.

Quote from: melissa90299 on June 16, 2007, 05:23:24 PM
I don't think we could ever pair off, I still really want her carnally though but I will deal with that in August.

Melissa, surgery Aug 11th (?), back home nearer the end of the month, another three months before you'd want to "show" yourself to another woman without embarassing questions being asked ?

Prepare for some more abstinence !

I hope the surgery goes really well, who are you going to in Thailand, is it Chettawut, Sanguan ?

P.S. I can get away with a guy not knowing in a casual "straight sex" encounter, but a half experienced guy giving "oral" is going to read me as a bit different.  As a lesbian your partners are going to read you so much sooner still.  How are you preparing for this (?) ... I still haven't sorted it in my own mind as I'm still a post-op virgin.

Laura x

Surgery July 11th, I was thinking that I wouldn't even begin "worrying" about it til I get back. Many women do not like reciprocation and if I decided to hop in bed with her, (and her with me) I could use that tact. I have been with several women pre-op and I always simply kept my panties on. I also use my Jeff Stryker and harness quite expertly. Sex with women, to me, is so  sensuous and deep that it is still very satisfying without getting pleasured myself.

Almost all the women who know me I met through my recovery groups where I have shared all the details of my life including my gender status, celibacy and sexual addiction. I can speak frankly because most of my groups are all female. In fact, almost everyone knows that I am having SRS and that I will be "available" sometime afterward. Once, in a mixed group, I shared about my sexual addiction and, all of the sudden, guys were introducing themselves to me, when they normally don't.

Quote from: melissa90299 on June 16, 2007, 06:42:50 PM
I have been with several women pre-op and I always simply kept my panties on. I also use my Jeff Stryker and harness quite expertly. Sex with women, to me, is so  sensuous and deep that it is still very satisfying without getting pleasured myself.   

Sorry Melissa, why would you want to use 8 inches of latex "Jeff" when having the real product    ??

Wierd ?

Do gay girls really like to be "stuffed" with an oversized and "strapped on" dilo, the mind just boggles, thought gay women liked manual and oral stimulation, kissing and cudling, nothing as crass as an artificial penis and simulation of sex with a guy  !

Maybe I lead a sheltered life ?

Laura x

Why do you take everything I say seriously? But all kidding aside, I do have Jeff when ready when they say supersize me, actually jeff is ten inches but still a little smaller than my last boyfriend who enjoyed Jeff more than the girls do, but i have more normal sizes too.

Different Women like all kinds of different things, after 42 years of alcohol, drug and sex addiction, mostly with female partners, as a man and a woman, I have a pretty good idea of what women like but one thing I have never been comfortable is using that appendage that should not even be there.
Anyway, I am 89 days clean and sober and 99 days celibate.

More than anything I want love and affection but if all I can get is sex, well it is better than nothing.

QuoteMaybe I lead a sheltered life ?

Obviously.

Quotenothing as crass as an artificial penis and simulation of sex with a guy 

Str8 women......yeesh.  Men do not own the act of penetrating a woman. Women have been doing it with each other for millenia, using digits, vegetables and what ever else they can think of. Sex toys are not "artificial penises." They are toys for penetration and internal stimulation. Men aren't even in the picture, nor are they needed for that kind of sexual act.

QuoteSorry Melissa, why would you want to use 8 inches of latex "Jeff" when having the real product 

Because she is a lezbian! A penis is not required to drive.

When it comes to sexual matters, are all transitioning-women this binary?

Come on, I was half "jesting" myself    !

Of course I understand women penetrating each other for sexual pleasure, just that I thought "Jeff" looks so much like the male appendage that it would put gay girls off !

My own toy looks like a pink latex dolphin  ... really cute and the kind of thing I thought lesbians would go for as it doesn't have any connotations of simulating sex with a guy (not that in my case thats a problem) !

But stimulation through penetration isn't working for me, and triggering an orgasm is all about clitoral stimulation ...

Laura x

BTW "Good Vibrations" the popular sex toy store in San Francisco which caters to women is headed by a transgendered woman.

Really weird, and I am not kidding about this, but I feel really comfortable using a strap-on whereas I have never felt comfortable using "the real thing."

Ditto but with a guy, pegging is fun.

Quote from: Mawd on June 17, 2007, 10:13:29 AM
Ditto but with a guy, pegging is fun.

OMG yes, in fact, a guy bought me the big un to use on him. Oh gosh, this talk is going to lead me into my old behavior! I have never felt so dom and in control than performing that particular act! Especially when they want to be supersized!