I am very sad lately. I started feeling this way a few weeks after I broke up with my ex-GF. I knew something was wrong between us and I knew it was because of my gender identity. She wanted me to be the father of her five-year-old daughter. I broke u with her because we were drifting apart and we were t really different points in our life.

Most days I am on the verge of tears. Around 9pm last night, I was told that my great-grandmother died. I am sad. I am sad because of my body. I am sad because I am hiding from almost everyone I know. I am in pain and I am sad everyday.

I feel so much pain and sadness, but I can't cry. I've cried many times before, but i just can't do it. I don't know what is wrong with me (at least for the crying part). I don't know what to do.

You'll cry, when you're ready. I went like 15 years without crying. It's not something I'm proud of but it's not something I can force. Some people are more emotional and it seems to he something that comes easier to them. Unfortunately I don't have any experienced with that.

I'm sorry about your losses.

I can't either,my Mum died on Saturday I think I've become too hardened

Been there, did NOT enjoy it. I felt broken inside.

Went through most of the 90s like this thanks to depression.

Recently thought it was happening again.

But recently really started to cry while listening to Celine Dion.

The first time, it was mainly anime that made me cry again. Couldn't STOP crying for the most part.

But recent events have slowed it down a lot.

I think it's entirely emotional, not physiological, so you just need to find your trigger.

I know how that is. When I came out to my wife and parents, when my parents were fighting, and really every event thus far that should have caused me to cry happened, I just didn't. I locked up, kept it inside, made myself as small as possible, and occasionally became shaky and borderline catatonic. I couldn't cry, and I resent that. I wanted to let it out. Weeks later, my wife and I watched a Pixar movie and I bawled. It doesn't make a bit of sense, but know that you're not alone.

Hearing that it is normal makes this feel a lot better. I know that I am sad. I am sad enough to cry most of the time. I know that something is going to trigger it. Hopefully sooner than later

Quote from: cassandracav on April 09, 2013, 11:17:27 AM
I know how that is. When I came out to my wife and parents, when my parents were fighting, and really every event thus far that should have caused me to cry happened, I just didn't. I locked up, kept it inside, made myself as small as possible, and occasionally became shaky and borderline catatonic. I couldn't cry, and I resent that. I wanted to let it out. Weeks later, my wife and I watched a Pixar movie and I bawled. It doesn't make a bit of sense, but know that you're not alone.

OMG did you watch UP? I can't watch it without crying for like the entire second half. And the beginning. That movie makes me cry like crazy. 

Quote from: TiffanyT on April 09, 2013, 10:30:13 PM
OMG did you watch UP? I can't watch it without crying for like the entire second half. And the beginning. That movie makes me cry like crazy. 

Hehe, yes. Its when you let your guard down, when you aren't in fight or flight (like you are after an argument) and something so sad just hits you suddenly -- then you bawl. Up did that to me. As did Wreck it Ralph, Finding Nemo, Wall-E... Pixar has a track record of making me cry.

Dear Ally,

I'm so sorry... i know how hard this is for you.

Does it help to hear that you're not alone, that i have gone through the same thing... not being able to cry?

When you've had to hide who you really are, for a long time, i have personally found that i eventually start hiding even from myself.  That is when i stopped crying.

For years my only crying outlet was music.  It just turned on the waterworks for me.  Not popular music, but modern classical, as in: ...hope this helps, but it's different for everyone perhaps.

Hugs,
Karla

Quote from: Ally6691 on April 09, 2013, 01:28:06 AM
I am very sad lately. I started feeling this way a few weeks after I broke up with my ex-GF. I knew something was wrong between us and I knew it was because of my gender identity. She wanted me to be the father of her five-year-old daughter. I broke u with her because we were drifting apart and we were t really different points in our life.

Most days I am on the verge of tears. Around 9pm last night, I was told that my great-grandmother died. I am sad. I am sad because of my body. I am sad because I am hiding from almost everyone I know. I am in pain and I am sad everyday.

I feel so much pain and sadness, but I can't cry. I've cried many times before, but i just can't do it. I don't know what is wrong with me (at least for the crying part). I don't know what to do.

For me i found watching 'What would you do?' videos on youtube helpful. Sometimes you need reminding that there are good people out there and their acts of kindness, bravery and respect to complete strangers is overwhelmingly emotional.

I'm sorry to hear of your loss and hope you find that emotional release soon  xo

Ally,

I can't begin to imagine how hard things are for you right now. I know what it's like not to be able to cry. It's like you'reso so sad and empty that there's nothing left to come out. You are not alone in this. We are all here for you.

All the best

Hey everyone. Thanks for the kind words. Im feeling a bit better emotionally, but I still can't seem to cry. I just want to start it already. I've shed a tear. Total. I guess that's something. Hopefully, I'll be able to cry like normal soon. (That sounds so bad to type...)

Maybe you should watch a sad movie or do something nice for someone. Perhaps relate to something sad outside of yourself that will connect with you. All I know is that you gotta let it out. I spent the better part of holding my pain in and it has really damaged my ability to open up emotionally with a significant. 
If you want to watch a sad movie might I suggest "Grave Of The Fireflies", I really hope you feel better. Sorry about your pain.

Quote from: WorkerBeast on April 13, 2013, 09:18:10 PM
Maybe you should watch a sad movie or do something nice for someone. Perhaps relate to something sad outside of yourself that will connect with you. All I know is that you gotta let it out. I spent the better part of holding my pain in and it has really damaged my ability to open up emotionally with a significant. 
If you want to watch a sad movie might I suggest "Grave Of The Fireflies", I really hope you feel better. Sorry about your pain.

That film omg i cried so much at the end!

Quote from: Bardoux on April 14, 2013, 08:13:34 AM
That film omg i cried so much at the end!

With this movie it is pretty hard not to cry....

I had the same problem...and I still have trouble crying. But the one video that made me absolutely bawl was this one...



-Sky