Quote from: Kia on April 13, 2013, 04:14:55 PM
Steampunk Penile Prosthesis.

This just made my day! 
I really like steampunk designs.
I was born in the wrong era.
The wrong alternate universe.
Thank You, both of you.
Ativan

I chose to transition all the way because it seems more manageable to look like a girl and sometimes feel like a guy and express masculinity than look like a guy and express femininity... Mainly because the former is much more socially acceptable. Yay! patriarchy! Misogyny! sigh*

Ultimately I went full time female ( after 7 months of living full time as both male and female because of sporadic gender shifts) in order to gain full credibility as a woman thus losing credibility as a man drastically. I stopped switching altogether in public and in front of my kids and I found it's much easier to suppress the urges to switch on HRT. Now when I feel like a guy I just shift to a more butch presentation but I keep my female voice and I just become the most badass girl you'd ever seen. Rather funny because a few days later I can put my heels on and be obviously more feminine in my gender expression which leaves people puzzled but it's still much more acceptable than switching to alpha male mode... The world is just not ready for polygenderism. I pushed it to the extreme, I've seen its limitation and constraints and it just doesn't work. People just can't dynamically adapt and gender you accordingly depending on your "current" gender presentation.

The idea of switching dysphoria is a new one to me..although now I realize I've had it for years.  Mine tends to coincide with PMS.  As I get closer to menopause (I'm 49), PMS gets more unbearable.  My breasts (which I've always hated) have grown lumpy (benign cysts), but hurt something awful in the 1-2 weeks before my period.  And this makes me very dysphoric because bumping them, moving or trying to pull a binder over the swollen things just makes me angry and feel terrible.  They've also grown (much to my disgust) as I've gotten older...and now I've waited long enough.  I'm making the decision that they're coming off before my 50th birthday in August.  I'm very excited...and I'm really hoping this takes care of the dysphoria I have.  I dislike having the monthly menses, but my "bottom parts" bring me so much pleasure that it's more than worth having to put up with the monthly inconvenience....I'm in PMS now...hopefully nobody will come too close.

there are many types of hormone treatments that can shut down the cycle so you won't experience pms, without losing function in the nether regions. it would be good though, if only top surgery is enough.

I have no idea what to do or even if I want to do anything. Having genitalia disgusts me beyond words and if I had my way, I'd seriously consider being aesthetically neutered. It's not the thought of surgery that scares me, it's the thought of the permanence and the fact that I may, one day, want to have sex and won't be able to if there's nothing there.

All I know is that I feel very trapped stuck as a sexual person when I'm nowhere near sexual and am barely a person and more of an alien or strange animal of sorts. I don't identify with the human species very well...