I didn't know if this was the proper sub-forum for this or not.  I just took my best guess.  I don't post on here often.  I'm more of a lurker. 

However, something wonderful has happened and I felt it worth sharing.  Recently I've been romantically involved with a man.  And words are incapable of describing how happy this is making me!  I've been mostly single my entire life.  I'm 27.  But I met a man a couple months ago and we hit if off really strong.  He's kind, funny, and he's so open-minded.  I seriously don't know how I hit the jackpot.  Lol.  And he's actually my first real experience with being in a relationship.  I never even knew I could feel this much for another person.  I'm experiencing so much so late in my life, that's how I feel anyways.  And I think because of it I'm appreciating everything all the more.  Like being able to hold his hand or cuddle with him to watch a movie is something I crave and value immensely.  Or just hugging him!  Oh gosh and he's actually taller than me!  Again!  Jackpot!  I'm 6'1 and I actually managed to find a taller man.  (I've always been so attracted to taller men!!)

Now, I'm not post-op.  I'm actually non-op at the moment.  I told him about being transexual and it hasn't phased him.  He lets me dress up and be me around him.  Gosh I feel like I could write about this man forever!  I already feel like a woman in my mind but he makes me feel more accepting of myself about it.  Does that make sense?  Like I am not so ashamed of it. 

And I know all this has to be too good to be true, for it to last and for everything to be perfect.  Because I dream of already marrying him.  And being his wife and I already am looking at wedding dresses and I just want EVERYTHING.  But I won't say any of this to him because I am capable enough to know it's much too soon for that.  But still, he has at least sparked that part of the woman inside of me that wants those things.  I use to want those things when I was younger but dealing with my transexuality has been so hard.  I've had to hide it.  I live in a bible belt and I'm still not out to my family.  I'm only out to a few very close friends.

But seeing him smile makes me smile.  And being in his arms has made me the absolute happiest woman alive.  I started reading romance novels because of the passion he has lit inside of me!  All these things I've always wanted to do have been suppressed because I felt like people would judge me for doing them.  I feel like the girl I want to be when I'm with him.  I just don't want to lose it all.  But I'm realistic.  I'm a logical person.  I understand things don't always work out.  I wish I could have been this confident in myself without him. 

I think about him so much.  I wish we were together this moment, but he had to go on a trip to see his brother in Ohio.  I think I might be the type that gets way too clingy, Haha.  I love hearing his voice and I make sure we talk for a good couple of hours before bed every night. 

I love this feeling so much!  It's the best feeling in the world! 

this was very confusing with your symbol being a male gender and your name being brendabunnie and then you going on about being 6'1.

I'm assuming mtf?

also, aside from me being confused, that's lovely I wish you well.

It's a great feeling, isn't it Brenda?

What a cute message! Thanks for sharing! Love is always fascinating and wonderful, especially when it happens to one of 'our kind'!

I hope that blessings follow in this relationship, and may you both lead happy times together! 

Hi Brenda,

You've certainly gladdened my heart today.

Quote from: BrendaBunnie on April 17, 2013, 12:47:47 AM
Gosh I feel like I could write about this man forever!

Please. Don't let us stop you doing that. There is plenty of room here for more of this.

Quote from: BrendaBunnie on April 17, 2013, 12:47:47 AM
I already feel like a woman in my mind but he makes me feel more accepting of myself about it.  Does that make sense?  Like I am not so ashamed of it.

Absolute sense girl. Love is something not to be ashamed of in any way, shape or form.
 

Quote from: BrendaBunnie on April 17, 2013, 12:47:47 AM
And I know all this has to be too good to be true, for it to last and for everything to be perfect.

Do yourself a real BIG favour. Don't believe that statement, or any other negative nonsense like it. Please don't quell the fire of love before it creates the heat of a life long lasting event in both your lives. He probably is finding it a little hard to believe he has met such a gorgeous woman like yourself. After all, he started it.

Quote from: BrendaBunnie on April 17, 2013, 12:47:47 AM
Because I dream of already marrying him.  And being his wife and I already am looking at wedding dresses and I just want EVERYTHING.  But I won't say any of this to him because I am capable enough to know it's much too soon for that.  But still, he has at least sparked that part of the woman inside of me that wants those things.

And there is absolutely nothing wrong with dreaming. Or wanting your needs and desires to be met. He has similar needs and desires too, that he wants fulfilled, and he has seen they can be fulfilled through you. Gawd woman, I wouldn't be here if I hadn't dreamed.

And I know of at least, half a dozen women here alone who are experiencing exactly what you are experiencing. They are the living testament to the proof, it does work. And it works extremely well

Quote from: BrendaBunnie on April 17, 2013, 12:47:47 AM
All these things I've always wanted to do have been suppressed because I felt like people would judge me for doing them.  I feel like the girl I want to be when I'm with him.  I just don't want to lose it all.  But I'm realistic.  I'm a logical person.  I understand things don't always work out.  I wish I could have been this confident in myself without him.

If you'll excuse the Australian vernacular, but bugger what anyone else has to say about your life. They are not living it; you are. They can impolitely go to hell in a hand cart if they judge you for not living to their standards.

I'm glad you're realistic. Because realistically this is working. Forget about the logic. Love doesn't follow those rules, so just go with it and enjoy the bliss. But if you want to stay with logic, well guess what; logically millions of people fall in love each and every year. That's logical isn't it? There's even a mathematical formula for it.  (M+W+L=R)   Man + woman + love = relationship. What's more logical than that?

And, just sometimes we need our opposite to compliment us. Just think what the power of 2 can do for you now.

Quote from: BrendaBunnie on April 17, 2013, 12:47:47 AM
I love this feeling so much!  It's the best feeling in the world!

Well, that being the case. Kindle it, encourage it, feed it, care for it, promote it and finally; Love it.

Dreams do come true, all the time. Your dream will come true.

Huggs
Catherine

Brenda,

This is so amazing, I'm glad you shared your story & I'm elated for you! This guy sounds awesome & like he treats you well. Just be careful to not put him on a 'pedastal' so to speak....he'll have his faults, I mean he's human & noone is perfect. Just be good to each other & cherish each and every moment together. Whether he's 'the one' for you or not, I'm so glad he's making you happy right now.

Awwwww.  This post really put a smile on my face.  I am glad you found a guy who is accepting of everything.  I imagine you must feel wonderful.   Thank you for sharing and giving some of us (like myself) some hope that there are understanding/nice men out there.

Love it! 

First I just want to thank you all for the kind words!  So much love in here!!  To the person who was confused I am male-to-female non-op.  But the non-op may be temporary!

Quote from: spring0721 on April 17, 2013, 07:00:20 AM
Brenda,
This is so amazing, I'm glad you shared your story & I'm elated for you! This guy sounds awesome & like he treats you well. Just be careful to not put him on a 'pedastal' so to speak....he'll have his faults, I mean he's human & noone is perfect. Just be good to each other & cherish each and every moment together. Whether he's 'the one' for you or not, I'm so glad he's making you happy right now.

Thanks sweetie!  Its hard not to put him on a pedestal!  He's so sweet and cute! Lol

Catherine Sarah, your words are magical, thanks for taking the time to respond.  It means a lot to me. 


He's going to be back from his trip around six tonight.  I'm already getting ready and preparing dinner!  I'm making Fajitas and we're going to watch some movies and just relax.  I know he's going to be tired from driving all day.  It's a long drive!  I think around 8 hours.  I'm presenting as female today.  Which I've been doing more often since we started dating.    I'm letting him pick the movie because last time I made him watch Dear John!  Lol! 

Can't wait to be in his arms.