Hello Everybody,
Hi, I am new here, and I would love to introduce myself to everyone. Almost everyone in life knows me as Christopher as I have not told many people about me yet, but I would love it if all of you lovely gals and guys would call me Kasihnya. It is pronounced, Ka-Sin-Ya. ;-) It is my pleasure to meet all of you and I would be delighted to converse with all of you and learn.
So without delay, a little about me. I'm a 25 year old transgendered woman, stuck in the wrong nutshell so to speak. All my life, I have known that I was different, started talking to friends about it in 4th grade and started expressing it a little, but always tried to hide my female side and feelings as best as I could as I was scared out of mind about it. I grew up in a very homo and trans phobic place, or perhaps that was just what I imagined and I interpreted it incorrectly. My mother became aware of my feelings of me wanting to be a girl when I was in 6th grade and all that came of our talk was that I should observe and learn from all the girls. Never did I get see a therapist for it when I was a kid, and really wish I did. As the years went by, I told more, and more friends, and family, and for the most part, they all said do what makes you the happiest.
It has been many years since I told my family, and some people ask why I didn't transition before. simply put, I was scared. my fear of losing family and friends, the dire question to whether or not I will fit in and live like any woman would, and also the ridicule that I might and probably will receive. I know I am only 25, almost 26, but throughout my late teens and my 20's, everyone says I am so manly. Hearing this made me so nervous, scared, and worried that I would look like a guy after I transitioned, but I will leave that up for my first, non-introductory post. so, I finally got the courage to contact a therapist and I am finally taking the first baby steps towards living my life the way I feel and know I was supposed to live.
Thank you everyone and I hope you have room for one more sister here. :-)
Sincerely,
Kasihnya
