Hi All,

I just felt the need to post this. but I was doing a little bit of self refection today and really wanted to share my thoughts. I'm currently been on HRT for 5 months 1 week, and could not been happier. Even just being on HRT was a life changer for me. I have gone from a constant depression and suicidal thoughts, to actually finding my smile. I still do have depression and my Dysphoria is still alive and well, but it has become somewhat less vicious.  The Suicidal thoughts have somewhat faded, and I am now at a personal record for not having that cross my mind.

Its actually amazing how much has changed for me since November. Some good some bad. I am now is about a 3/4 transition, although I still am having troubles with a passable voice, however I do believe I am very much passable looks wise, and as far as developments from HRT go, Have have gotten some decent breast growth (almost a B cup), my face has softened up a lot, Emotionally I calmed down, I'm generally a lot more relaxed, however now in issues that anger, I tent to start crying instead of flipping out, and I've lost what little understanding of how guys think  I had.

I can honestly say, even 6 months ago I would of never believed I would be were I am, I kinda believed that transistion and happiness was a pipe dream. But now I realized that it is no pipe dream, Its a reality! However my journey has not been with out pain, it has cost me my wife,  and I still am working to fight through that loss.

I leave you all with a Pic I took last night.



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I posted this to help the others that feel how  I did in the beginning to never give up hope. It really does get better as long as you help yourself to make it better!

Hugs
-Christina

I know exactly how you feel.  Though I was never suicidal, I was at time depressed, and terribly confused.  The HRT allowed me to feel "whole."  I posted a six month update some time ago, but at that time I suffer a stroke, and my medication regime has put HRT into the background.

If I had my way, I would just as soon take the risk and recapture the rainbow.

Thank you for this post.  Honestly, I do worry about the possibility that HRT won't work and get scared about not passing.  I try to keep positive, but it isn't always easy.  So, it's nice to see others moving along and doing well.  It really does give me some hope.  Now, I just need to start hrt (damn my lack of money).

Also, I am really glad to hear how everything is going.  It really does make me happy when I see that others in our community moving forward and living the life they have always dreamed.

By the way, that is a great photo.  I would never be able to tell anything from that picture.