Oh... why, hello!
So I was laying in bed last week and I was like, "Ughhhhh I wish I had trans friends ughhhhh." (Most of my sentences begin and end with "ughhhhh.") And then it hit me... "Why don't you just start posting on that webforum? The one you're already registered to? The one that *every trans person in the universe* has been to?" And here I am!
I'm in my upper-20s, physically male, mentally female. I'm from the boring state of Illinois.
My history as it pertains to the subjects to which the website to which this forum pertains pertains:
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I first found out that ->-bleeped-<- was a thing in 2010. TWO-THOUSAND TEN. Wayyy later than I would have liked. I had always assumed that "transsexual" was synonymous with "intersex" and that all crossdressers just do what they do for funsies like in the movies (I am super resentful of that trope because of this). I had always thought that I would be alone in feeling as though my mind doesn't match my physical appearance. But that was before I searched Google for the phrase "gender is a social construct" and realized how wrong I was.
Anyway, long story short, once learning that Transition is an actual thing that is actually possible (and that *actual people are doing it*), I knew it was something I wanted to work towards. Really, I had no choice, as it has never left my mind since entering. The entire process has been a "take one more step and see how you feel" kind of thing, because my primary goal isn't to transition, but to help ease my gender dysphoria. Every step so far has left me feeling, "Yes, this is right. But not enough," and so I continue forward. I just recently went out in public for the first time (FINALLY), fearing that I would be emotionally unaffected and wondering why I did it afterwards, but I was giddy to the point of tears. So yeah.
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HI EVERYBODY! You will see me around, like, for sure. Like, totally, like. So let's be friends! I haven't decided on a name yet. But ummm, Cara is fine. It's short for "Caramel Prisoner".
Thanks for reading!!
