Quote from: dean1229 on April 27, 2013, 11:00:57 AM
Me too. And it makes me angry, sad and agressive. I just can't deal with this dysphoria. I am like going crazy and i'm feeling helpless.

How much of that would you attribute to your cycle? Hormonal changes can put you on a downer in a hurry.

First time in a while where I just don't want to go anywhere. Just want to make lazy on the couch

Quote from: DirtyFox on April 27, 2013, 11:33:01 AM
First time in a while where I just don't want to go anywhere. Just want to make lazy on the couch

That's exactly what I've been doing all morning, just woke up from a nice long nap.

I'm just thinking of how complicated life must be for a whale.

I mean, if you're a whale you must have to go through life holding your breath for as long as possible, and each time you need to take a breath you have to swim up to the surface of the sea to reach the air.

I mean, you could be there with other whales, say for example your friends and then you have to excuse yourself to take a breath.

i mean it's not like visiting the loo is it? You see when you visit the loo you know you're going to the loo, you're inside a building and you know where to head back to.

But you don't have any of that in the sea. There's just water. Lots of it. What if as whales you were swimming with your friends somewhere out in the middle of the Atlantic, you go to take a breath, and then when you go back down into the sea you can't find your friends?

Or you get lost and forget the direction where you were swimming?

Surely this must make relationships and sex more difficult too. You have Mr and Mrs Whale and they've spent a couple of hours say getting into position, then one of them says 'Sorry, I've got to take a breath'.

I think this is why there's whalesong. I don't think it's whales actually singing, but whales trying to find each other after taking a breath. Or they're complaining about sexual frustration.

Quote from: ZoeM on April 26, 2013, 05:45:56 PM
Yes.
Can I interest you in the soundtrack to Anno 2070, perchance?

Sure, what are a couple of your favorite tracks from there?



I'm thinking that it's really cold.

Quote from: Malachite on April 27, 2013, 04:14:48 PM
Sure, what are a couple of your favorite tracks from there?



I'm thinking that it's really cold.

Okies. Keep in mind they're really all spectacular - the Ecos have a very nice set of softer, "pretty" music, while the Tycoons have a more intense, industrial soundtrack.

I need to watch out about talking to myself at work, don't need any more customers asking my manager about it. They're gonna think I'm crazy.

Quote from: Renee on April 27, 2013, 04:48:18 PM
I need to watch out about talking to myself at work, don't need any more customers asking my manager about it. They're gonna think I'm crazy.

That's hard to believe!

Quote from: Shantel on April 27, 2013, 04:49:53 PM
That's hard to believe!

I know, pretty far fetched if you ask me.

I have always been sweaty. Not smelly, but sweaty, since high school, and I just had to go buy like 4 new shirts because I was doing laundry too often on the few I had. -_-

But! I went in, expecting not to pass, so decided just to talk it up with the cashier (sometimes I don't speak much for fear my voice will give me away). But, she called me sir twice, one time yelling it at me as she missed scanning one item. And she called me "love", which is good because one time she called me dear and I presumed that meant she gendered me female. but it seems she calls all young people that, regardless of gender. Made me really happy as I have been insecure about my passing and general appearance lately. Especially as I spoke with her at length and she never changed her mind on my gender after hearing a lot of my voice.

Quote from: Renee on April 27, 2013, 04:48:18 PM
I need to watch out about talking to myself at work, don't need any more customers asking my manager about it. They're gonna think I'm crazy.

When people ask me why I talk to myself, I tell them, "It's the only place around here I can find an intelligent conversation."

Quote from: Shantel on April 27, 2013, 11:15:56 AM
How much of that would you attribute to your cycle? Hormonal changes can put you on a downer in a hurry.

I've been going crazy for more than a month now. Don't know why, i mean it just started out of the blue and this feeling of dysphoria, depression and sadness just won't go away. Sometimes i am trying to do something about it, like going out with a friend and things like that. It helps for a little while but when i get back home dysphoria and sadness hit again. It's so strange, i mean the last time i was so dysphoric was a few years ago. I seemed to be a lot better for the last year but now it's crazy. And i am not on any kind of medication so i have no idea what's the reason for this. :/

I am trying to justify buying costumes to myself.
I am also thinking about finances and budgeting.
I am also kind of pissed off that it is the end of April and my doctor still hasn't figured out what the requirements are for me to start hormones.

Just ate the last of the poptarts in the house, that means I have to go grocery shopping tomorrow after work.

Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 08:21:52 AM
Just ate the last of the poptarts in the house, that means I have to go grocery shopping tomorrow after work.

OMG I'm out of poptarts, what will I do? Henny Penny the sky is falling down! 

Don't go mocking my love for poptarts! 

Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 08:34:25 AM
Don't go mocking my love for poptarts!

You can't live on poptarts for breakfast and be a healthy girl, this is your Auntie Shan talking to you dear, Bacon, eggs and toast for you girl!

Quote from: Shantel on April 28, 2013, 08:36:43 AM
You can't live on poptarts for breakfast and be a healthy girl, this is your Auntie Shan talking to you dear, Bacon, eggs and toast for you girl!

I'm more apt to eat bacon, eggs and stuff for dinner than I am for breakfast. I usually don't even eat breakfast, but on my days off, I sometimes get hungry early.

Quote from: Renee on April 28, 2013, 08:40:06 AM
I'm more apt to eat bacon, eggs and stuff for dinner than I am for breakfast. I usually don't even eat breakfast, but on my days off, I sometimes get hungry early.

Well I would imagine that since you're not a big foodie like Jamie D that would be reason why you are kind of lightweight in the caboose.

Just had bacon, eggs, and a bagel. Still hungry.
I thought my appetite was bad before but now that I'm growing again it's ridiculous.