As of today, I've been on hormones for 2 years. It's somewhat of a milestone. It's been a heck of a ride and I've come a long way. I've gone from being a scared and scarred girl to a strong, confident woman. I'll confess that I've not had all the physical changes I'd like, but they are not the be all and end all.

I came out and kept my friends and family. I've worked and studied as a woman. I've found acceptance and friendship. I have a great therapist and an even better gyno. I've even found love.

Which brings to me to the no celebration bit. The woman I love is currently lying in a hospital bed. She has severe liver disease and we are currently waiting to see if she has any liver function left, or whether it's history. She's severely jaundiced, weak and currently weighs 37kg (82lbs). I'm frightened that she and I have gotten together just in time for me to lose her. As strong as I am, I fear that losing her would also be the end of me.

I want her well and I want her home. I miss her. Any milestone date should be spent with her and will be meaningless to me until I can celebrate it with her.

Prayer for your girl Kelly I will say a prayer for your girl Kelly

Oh Kelly, I hope we can be here for you and help you stay strong for her.

Thoughts and prayers to you and your special girl.

Big hug! What a complicated mess life is, we get thrown the good and the bad, and it's up to us to try and sort it out. Best wishes for her speedy recovery. Hugs, Devlyn

Here's hoping she gets better! I know what its like to watch a loved one in this position. I've had it happen multiple times. Whatever the case, I'm sure it will ultimately work out for the best.

Wait, is this person you? It's written almost poetically, I read it the first time like you're saying you finally started to love yourself, only to fall from liver disorder from hormones. Forgive me if I'm mistaken.

Quote from: Hideyoshi on April 30, 2013, 01:22:02 PM
Wait, is this person you? It's written almost poetically, I read it the first time like you're saying you finally started to love yourself, only to fall from liver disorder from hormones. Forgive me if I'm mistaken.

No, it's not me. It's my GF, Alison.

I pray for you and your love. Please don't loose hope if the worst does happen, that's not what your love would want. The only thing I can really offer you is this quote,

Quote"Well yeah, and I'm sad, but at the same time I'm really happy that something could make me feel that sad. It's like, it makes me feel alive, you know? It makes me feel human. And the only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt somethin' really good before. So I have to take the bad with the good, so I guess what I'm feelin' is like a, beautiful sadness."

However I hope you do not have to experience that sadness, I am praying and rooting for your love, but I also congratulate you on your two year milestone, even if it seems bittersweet right now, *hugs*,

With Love to you,
Seb

QuoteThe good things don't always soften the bad things, but vice-versa, the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.

Don't know what to say...*hugs*...hope she can get better, and then you both can share more highs and lows together. (Sharing a low point doesn't sound like much, but it's better than having a low point alone)

*hugs*

I'm so so sorry Kelly. I really hope she gets better and things take a turn for the better. My thoughts are with you.

Thank you all for your support. 

I really wish there was something I could say or do to make things better.  However, I truly hope Allison gets better  and you both can celebrate many more milestones together.

Hugs.

Kelly, the both of you are in my heart and mind.  Good thoughts for you - be strong.

And here's an update..

Alison's lever function has improved some, she's not out of the woods yet, but she's improving. She has more energy and is more alert - even a little bossy.

Thank you to you all for your prayers and thoughts.

@Kelly My wife's brother was an alcoholic most of his life & for the third time December 2011 he tried to drink himself out of life. With many hospital visits on his last bought, a failing liver we thought this is it, to see what he went through is really gut wrenching and sad. In January of 2012, I asked a female specialist Doctor cardio pulmonary if they thought he would pull through (he was on life support). She said, "oh, we have at least a dozen tricks up our sleeve yet." A few weeks later he was able to breathe on his own, slowly his liver began to improve & by April he was released into the world. Lots of worry & prayers, the Doctors & Bro-in-law amazed us all.

It is the Best that Alison's liver is improving as you indicate in your update! A wonderful sign of hope that things can turn around for the positive. Thoughts and Best wishes for both of you in Alison's recovery & that you will have many years of love ahead.
Hugs
Jamie

Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on April 30, 2013, 11:43:57 PM
Alison's lever function has improved some, she's not out of the woods yet, but she's improving. She has more energy and is more alert - even a little bossy.

* hug *  That's good news.  I'm hoping for continued recovery!

I will keep Alison and you in my prayers tonight, hugs.

I know we all feel for you & Alison. I hope both of you can stay strong & support each other completely.

I know how you must feel. I lost a friend after 25 years of friendship. I took care of him during his last 3 months on earth. I still think about
him almost every day. That was the most painful thing I've ever been thru. I even totaled my truck in a Mc Donnald's drivethru the day
after his funeral. I REALLY hope your friend gets better. I am pulling for her. Please remeber you have friends here to offer support.
I wish you all the luck in the world. Hugs.    John