Quote from: Renee on April 30, 2013, 07:41:18 PM
my boss called me to tell me about something, but I forgot what she originally told me because we got to talking about stuff I have to call into the office to try and get fixed along with some issues with another clerk.  Hopefully, it'll come to me by the time I go into work in the morning.

Uh-oh now that you've turned 50 you have CRS, welcome to my world! 

I tend to think I am not all that smart, I feel really ordinary, so its always surprising when someone suggests that I go do something that I feel is only for wicked smart people. One of my professors today suggested I apply at the CIA, it seems awesome and I'd totally love to do it, but I don't feel like I am qualified enough or smart enough to do anything at a place that seems so prestigious. Yet, I know I'll get bored and feel unsatisfied if I keep working at the type of law firm where I am at currently.

Just go for it, LearnedHand. :3  Maybe you'll get it!

Now, if they were telling you something you obviously couldn't do (like when my mom suggests I look at jobs that deal wtih numbers) then maybe it wouldn't be a good idea.

Good luck, Liam!
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I'm thinking that I really hate being asexual sometimes.  Why the hell can't I just enjoy sex?  Why can't I have a sexual attraction? D:<

Gah!  It bugs me.

My father is something else.  He may but a smart man but he isn't right in the head lol.

I have the terrible itch for adventure. Spelunking or something. Oh gosh my heart yearns for it.

Stupid sore throat

Women are dangerous.

Quote from: Prof HB on May 01, 2013, 03:16:58 AM
Women are dangerous.

To you.
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I love my friend, Erin. x3  She's so sweet and deals with all of my quirks.  If I had money to go visit her, we'd be snuggle buddies. XD  Same with Alex...I might have a crush on Alex, but she's in a relationship with Erin. D:

It's nice outside so I'm working with the window open

I need insurance now. D:< This uterus needs to go.

Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 01, 2013, 09:35:15 AM
I need insurance now. D:< This uterus needs to go.

I feels this.

Quote from: Prof HB on May 01, 2013, 09:37:51 AM
I feels this.

Me too.

I wish I wasn't so awkward and shy. I wish I could just be myself without fear of having people figuratively rip my head off for it. I wish people who claimed to like weirdness actually liked weirdness. It would make life so much easier if everyone could just be honest.

Quote from: Wolf Man on April 29, 2013, 07:44:43 PM
I wish I had seen a USMC recruiter in my last year of high school so that I could have attempted to join. I'd be done with my active duty service by now. I would be a totally different person. I could also be at peace with things had I been deemed unable to join for some other reason than all this. Now I'm almost 2 years on T and 4 months post top surgery. The military would never accept me. It gets me at least once any given day, whether brief or drawn out. I hate it and I wish I didn't feel so awful about it. I'm just lost now and I have only myself to blame. I don't feel like I have any worth and I'm going nowhere fast. I feel depressed half the time and it's creeping into more of my life.

I feel you. I dreamed of a military career when I was young and was in JrROTC in high school until I got taken out and put in a hospital. I was the only girl in my class and it was rough at times (this was the early 90s). Later when I tried to enlist in my early 20s, I already had marks against me including a bit of a record and they wouldn't take me. I get a bit jealous whenever people talk about serving. I'm getting over it now though. It just wasn't meant to be.

Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on May 01, 2013, 11:00:38 AM
I feel you. I dreamed of a military career when I was young and was in JrROTC in high school until I got taken out and put in a hospital. I was the only girl in my class and it was rough at times (this was the early 90s). Later when I tried to enlist in my early 20s, I already had marks against me including a bit of a record and they wouldn't take me. I get a bit jealous whenever people talk about serving. I'm getting over it now though. It just wasn't meant to be.

Same here.  It used to be my dream to give my life for my country.  I get jealous when I especially see the classmates I was over in NJROTC serve.  Nowadays I just feel like I'm rotting away. There's a guy at my church who is in the Army Reserves and I pretty much have to duck him every time.  I feel bad but I just can't take it for the nerve of me.  It is getting better but honestly, I don't think I'll ever completely wipe that pain away.

I've always wanted to be in the military, but I was disqualified when I was 4.  I can't join because of remaining paralysis and a disorder that can flare up if I so much as get a cold.  It's not like I want to be infantry or any of that, but I still can't join.  Sh*t, I couldn't do JROTC either because I couldn't keep up physically.  -shrug-

Quote from: Malachite on May 01, 2013, 11:18:18 AM

Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on May 01, 2013, 11:00:38 AM
I feel you. I dreamed of a military career when I was young and was in JrROTC in high school until I got taken out and put in a hospital. I was the only girl in my class and it was rough at times (this was the early 90s). Later when I tried to enlist in my early 20s, I already had marks against me including a bit of a record and they wouldn't take me. I get a bit jealous whenever people talk about serving. I'm getting over it now though. It just wasn't meant to be.

Same here.  It used to be my dream to give my life for my country.  I get jealous when I especially see the classmates I was over in NJROTC serve.  Nowadays I just feel like I'm rotting away. There's a guy at my church who is in the Army Reserves and I pretty much have to duck him every time.  I feel bad but I just can't take it for the nerve of me.  It is getting better but honestly, I don't think I'll ever completely wipe that pain away.

Good to know I'm not alone in this. I tell myself the reality may have been different and I may not have been happy. But I'll never know. And honestly, part of me wonders how I'd have survived being surrounded by women, bunking with them, etc. For someone who never even had female friends...

No offense to the ladies or any military women here, of course. But I've always been really awkward and uncomfortable around women. Some of that is dissipating, but it was pretty bad when I was younger.

I want to thank each and every person who wants or wanted to serve. I wish our system didn't discriminate the way it does. There are many defense related civilian jobs that directly support the troops, there is a measure of satisfaction to be had in knowing you are helping our soldiers. Thanks to all of you who have a warrior trapped inside. Hugs, Devlyn

What if we all agreed to meet up in Australia and have a nerf-gun battle?

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on May 01, 2013, 12:19:33 PM
I want to thank each and every person who wants or wanted to serve. I wish our system didn't discriminate the way it does. There are many defense related civilian jobs that directly support the troops, there is a measure of satisfaction to be had in knowing you are helping our soldiers. Thanks to all of you who have a warrior trapped inside. Hugs, Devlyn

That's what I'm aiming for since I can't join.   I'm willing to teach in order to be able to help the military, and I don't care much for teaching.  I really just want a job working for the military or government in some way.

On another note...

I've been painting. I'm almost done with my friend's piece!   I was actually able to make it look like there's distance!  I'm so excited!