I have extreme paranoia that has been going on for about a year but it has reached the extreme. I think everyone is plotting to kill me and that if I leave my house or let anyone in my house then they will rape and/or kill me or jump me and beat me up even when they give no sign they are about to do something like that. I'm even afraid of people I've known for years. That started when I watched that movie Boys Don't Cry and I live in a very redneckish and conservative area in the country where everyone is always wearing camo and talking about redneck pride. They are mostly homophobic but will never say anything to your face but I'm as stealth as possible to people I meet and I'm afraid I'll be raped, beaten, and killed if they find out. I'm not on any hormones or anything but I pass very easily. It's probably because no one is like me around my area. They're all straight with an occasional bi person. That's the only good thing about living in my area. I'm also paranoid to cross the street, I finally toughed it up and went across the street yesterday to get a pizza but then I twisted my ankle and scraped my knee and ended up in the road and had to back up really fast because a car came speeding by. I do not trust anyone at all and I refuse to drink from anything that's opened or exposed because I'm convinced the people offering it has poisoned it. My mother is the only person I trust. I stopped going out with friends because I'm convinced they're trying to kill me. I've become more obsessed with death since I saw one of my aunts die on April 28th. I'm terrified of dying or being harmed and all I want to do is crawl up in a ball and stay there. Does anyone have any guesses about what is going on with me?

Your aunt just died less than a week ago? My guess would be PTSD. The death of a loved one is very hard to deal with and you're feeling vulnerable because of being trans. Not that this helps or is necessarily a good thing or anything - but while there are  alot of cases of trans women being killed, there aren't a lot of cases at all of trans men being killed. Brandon Teena seems like an isolated incident. I know his story is scary and all but I've only ever heard of one other case of a trans man being killed because he was trans - his girl's ex came to the house and killed him in the shower and said it was because he discovered he was trans when he saw his genitalia but it probably had  alot more to do with common jealousy than trans status.
Maybe there are other cases out there, but it doesn't seem to be common at all.

Thanks for the reply. I guess I just need a little time to calm down and realize that not everyone is out to get me. I've heard that seeing death makes you question your life and realize your own mortality so maybe that's what it is.

I'd suggest that you talk with a therapist (if you're not already). Living a life of extreme paranoia is a bleak existence that nobody deserves. I think most trans people are aware of their surroundings when out and are careful about who they associate themselves with (I know I am).

When it comes to not leaving the house because you're afraid to be murdered (as well as cutting ties with everyone but your mother) there is a problem. You could have an anxiety disorder and need medication. There are ways to alleviate what you're going through.

Well im paranoia but not as much as you are, to me it sound alittle OCD with the whole
"what if, what if.. thinking.

It sound your in a vulnuable situation for the moment.
if you have the option talking to a psycolist it might be a good idea, or just someone you trust with all the things going on with your life to get it off your cheast.

for your paranoia thing don't let it controll you, as more your getting it controlling you as harder its gonna get to get out of the spiral.
I do understand the fear, I actually been threatned on life with torture by a sick guy once who wanted to cut of my hand. it made me pretty scared obviously, not to mention the whole trans-crime thing, but as said its more rare for transguys than transwomen and it would specially seam unlike that your friends would kill you, unlike your in a very closeminded country/comunety, or other, in that caise maybe you should get some new friends.

so in general, talk to someone you can trust to get things out
and then challenge yourself not to let the fear overtake you, of course you shouldnt jump of a brigde but try do what you normally do and wasnt scared of doing.
also try not to be stressed, neither bored. overcoming a fear and getting better can be challenging so its best not to have to many other projects going on.