Yeah I also used to play with words when cursing.
I think I nailed the show no emotion suggestion xD I always do awkward faces when a picture is taken, I don't even try to smile, it's gonna be weird.
I'm also in girl mode at school so I know it's a pain in the *ss. But I'm greatful I started HRT in the last semester cause when it ends I can change my name and gender and I already look like a guy if I dress as one.
Congrats to you for losing weight! It's good that you have parts that you're ok with before any hormones. I think with some clever clothing you can solve the shoulder problem. That's true there are women with broader shoulders, once I saw someone, obviously cis woman, she had broader shoulders than an average guy. I thaught, damn why couldn't I born like this if I'm already trans? OTOH I always had lot of body hair, even a happy trail.
I wish you good luck with your life and I hope you get what you wish!

Thanks Jared. I wish I could magically get rid of the facial hair and chest hair. I don't mind shaving the legs and underarms and in a warm bath with some wine it's quite relaxing. But the constant growing of the beard, the next morning I wake up feeling like the Wolfman. Same way with the chest hair, shaving is irratating so I ended up waxing and now I have little red bumbs no matter how much I exfoliate.

Me too for the many advices. My ex used to use some cream that "burns" the hairs, I can't explain it better :'D

Seriously, this happens to all of us!!!! Every person on this planet has days that looks himself in the mirror and thinks they are a mess/old/ugly/loosers/nerds/weirdos and so on. In other words, their appearance is not what they would wish for. Happens to me all the time 

You see this avatar I'm using? (which IS me, but... modified... a bit to my liking )
Many people who I showed it to said it was looking really male, and that if I would look like that, I'd pass undoubtedly, etc. but when I look at it I sometimes STILL see a woman in it :s and wonder if people don't think it looks like a bearded lady, etc.

It's all in our heads. When you've been seen as the opposite sex all your life, it's hard to get rid of that thought, even if you want to :/

Εven I sometimes feel that I have quite an adrogynous face (which well, may be true and I do not like it), and other times I feel like a girly girl with babyface (that is true also). I really feel like a chameleon!

I've observed that how you feel, plays an important role on how you look and how people percieve you. E.g. being happy or in love makes us more beautiful and radiant. After making love the muscles of the face have less tension and we also look more calm and that makes us more beautiful too.

With this I want to say that these things do not happen only to transgendered people..

Good point there Hattie! *nod*
I totally agree with you.

Quote from: Erik Ezrin on May 12, 2013, 08:13:38 AM
You see this avatar I'm using? (which IS me, but... modified... a bit to my liking )
Many people who I showed it to said it was looking really male, and that if I would look like that, I'd pass undoubtedly, etc. but when I look at it I sometimes STILL see a woman in it :s and wonder if people don't think it looks like a bearded lady, etc.

It's all in our heads. When you've been seen as the opposite sex all your life, it's hard to get rid of that thought, even if you want to :/

How much work did you do to the picture. I love the hair by the way on top of the head and the chin. The only thing that I see are your eyes but not as much feminine but more caring and sensitive. With the hair and the beard and the whole persona, try squinting and using your eyes to put forth an image of "I don't give a @^$*" I did that with my eyes playing in various bands and taking various pictures in eighties cover bands in full makeup, and even though we looked like girls, using the eyes, there was no doubt we were guys. The good ol' days, I remember them well. I still like glam rock no matter what anyone else says.