I think I have finally did it, i have been placed on medicine that seems to be working for my bi polar and depression issues, for the first time in 20 years, yes no kidding 20 years....i feel alive and focused and confident....i feel supercharged and ready to take on new tasks....i even was able to admit to strangers in the group....that I was partly female, both mentally and in body and hormones...i was suprisd and was not judged even though it was a small town....thanks for your prayers and advice.