Came to this forum to find people like me. I'm 22, and I'm in serious problems, as I lack courage to start transition, and come out to my family. On other hand, I've tried to ignore those problems, and tried to just "quit being transgender", but it's not working. Because of trying to "quit being transgender", I developed depression, and anxiety disorder, and as the time passes, I think that I'll go totally insane, and kill myself. I know that the transition is the only way to go, but fear of losing my family is really strong, and it's preventing me from living normal life.

Only step that I took so far was a visit to psychologist 2 years ago. It felt so great to talk with him, and after the talk, next step was to come out to my family. And that's why I never returned again, to continue with the therapy. 

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I did the whole "Ignoring" thing and for 54 years I was totally miserable.  Only once I decided to just go for it, I began to enjoy life.


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Welcome to Susan's, little_mei. The therapist helped you once. Coming out is tough, but there comes the time when it must be done. It takes courage but you'll feel much better when you do. Don't worry about people's reactions. Expect it then move on from there.

Hi Little_mei, welcome to Susan's Place! I live near Boston. Glad you found us, you'll see that lots of people here were right where you are now. See you around the site, hugs, Devlyn

Well Hi from, soon to be independent Scotland (Pleeeeeeeeeease) 22! How wonderful. I was denied that opportunity all those decades ago. I buried the truth from the age of three and just toughed it out. I wasn't miserable as such throughout my life. If was more a persistent dull ache and subliminal sadness that percolated to my sentient self. When I was 50, literally on my birthday, I knew I had to do something. What followed? Facial surgery, hair transplant heartache, breakdowns.........and in the coming weeks........oestrogen. 3 years ago I would never have thought this could ever happen for a million reasons. I sometimes think I wish I had done something when I was younger but then I would not have my precious precious family.
The agonies; the fears you are going through, this is the place to share.

Hello mei.  You might want to consider going back to therapy.  It seems you have a strong sense of gender dysphoria, but other considerations are causing denial.  Our "Coming Out" board has wonderful stories about how others here have done it.

Best of luck to you.

Thank you everyone, and sorry for too slow reply. Yes, I'm intending to visit therapist again