dont lose hope girl! just think positive you'll be fine

I certainly feel for you and know exactly how you feel. But I see a great starting point for you, in my opinion. I think you should on and when things are right I bet you'll get excellent HRT results.

Wish I had it like that.

I wouldn't advise the suicide route. If you try it as a minor and they consider it one of the most aggressive ways. (Not going to tell you which ones those are) but you could be spending time in a long term psychiatric facility until at least 18 like they tried for me. And with your parents in charge and second only to the government you could be facing some nasty drugs , ECT and re conditioning therapy. And it's not fun.

As most of what I would have said has been covered (very well) by the supporting people here, I cannot tell much else that you haven't heard. However, I would still like to assure you that it gets better. Even if everything is working against you (money, class, disease, law, environment, etc) it will all turn out well. The categories I listed were all things I thought would hinder me, but in the end, they didn't.
If you can try to change some things, try meeting new people. It will be worth it.

And I would also like to extend an offer of friendship if you ever so need it. Just send me a PM or email and I'll gladly give you my contact info! Take care!