Well so far my transition has been going well but I have to say sometimes I feel awkward dressed up as a girl because my body is still just to masculine. It's something that is just really causing me to have dysphoria over my body. I just can't stand having a masculine body, I know I have some things working for me for the future but sometimes I just question if the hormones will work.. It's just a bit overwhelming that I'm still seeing a male body having a female mind. I know it takes a while for hormones to work, I think it is starting luckily as I'm beginning to grow boobs. I'm hoping that in the coming months my body will finally really begin to develop well.

Well, Julia, I think you know that you are just going to have to be patient, like any other girl going through puberty.

You certainly don't have to go full-on femme mode, if something more androgynous works for you as a stepping stone.  My gosh, all three of my daughters would rather be in jeans than a skirt.

Accessorize 

That is very well said

Yeah like anyone I have to learn patience, most of the time I simply don't even bother to think about my transition since it goes by so slow. Just wish it didn't feel to awkward to wear womens summer clothes, I'm perfectly fine with winter clothes though. I know it'll eventually get better, just feeling a tad down tonight.

Turn on a good chick flick and let it all out.   

Quote from: JuliaVB on July 01, 2013, 09:52:20 PM
Yeah like anyone I have to learn patience, most of the time I simply don't even bother to think about my transition since it goes by so slow. Just wish it didn't feel to awkward to wear womens summer clothes, I'm perfectly fine with winter clothes though. I know it'll eventually get better, just feeling a tad down tonight.

My first summer in transition I wore a pair of women's sandals (still have them, too), and capris. I wore man-shirts though (T's and polos).

Yes, I got strange looks, mainly from teen girls and mainly they were giggling at my magenta toenails. But gotta start somewhere, and it was hot outside, so...

Quote from: Beth Andrea on July 01, 2013, 10:00:24 PM
My first summer in transition I wore a pair of women's sandals (still have them, too), and capris. I wore man-shirts though (T's and polos).

Yes, I got strange looks, mainly from teen girls and mainly they were giggling at my magenta toenails. But gotta start somewhere, and it was hot outside, so...

Magenta?  MAGENTA??

Honey, with your hair color you have to go with something warm, like candy apple red.

I don't really wear many girl things and I constantly get mamed, but partly because of the body image inside my head, i don't get to wear girly summer clothes either. Male tops, women bottoms. Works for me for now. No need to go full on at the onset.   Just need to build my confidence. And voice.

Quote from: Jamie D on July 01, 2013, 10:06:33 PM
Magenta?  MAGENTA??

Honey, with your hair color you have to go with something warm, like candy apple red.

Hey now, I am a Child Of The Rainbow...I wear whatever color suits my fancy!

Patience, patience, patience, Jules.

I'm at pretty much the same phase of HRT, that magical time where your mind feels almost completely female and yet your body is still mostly male, and yeah, it freaking sucks. I also really want to be able to see more changes, to look better in women's clothes, and yeah, I am also VERY afraid that certain things will never change.

But it's too early. Unfortunately, not everyone is an early-bloomer. In fact, from what I'm hearing from the mass populace here, there are a LOT of cases where someone pretty much doesn't notice any changes whatsoever until the 6-8 month mark, and some take even longer than that. But that doesn't mean that the changes will be any less significant once they finally do come.

I mean, basically we're in puberty again. And it's very tempting to get jealous of the girls who already have hips and full breasts early on. But it's just a matter of waiting. They will come.

Also, try focusing on the things that have changed rather than the things that haven't. That's what gets me through it, is realizing just how much more I like my body already, even though the changes have barely just begun. Feeling my soft skin always brings a smile to my face.

Quote from: Carrie Liz on July 02, 2013, 12:59:18 PM
Patience, patience, patience, Jules.

I'm at pretty much the same phase of HRT, that magical time where your mind feels almost completely female and yet your body is still mostly male, and yeah, it freaking sucks. I also really want to be able to see more changes, to look better in women's clothes, and yeah, I am also VERY afraid that certain things will never change.

But it's too early. Unfortunately, not everyone is an early-bloomer. In fact, from what I'm hearing from the mass populace here, there are a LOT of cases where someone pretty much doesn't notice any changes whatsoever until the 6-8 month mark, and some take even longer than that. But that doesn't mean that the changes will be any less significant once they finally do come.

I mean, basically we're in puberty again. And it's very tempting to get jealous of the girls who already have hips and full breasts early on. But it's just a matter of waiting. They will come.

Also, try focusing on the things that have changed rather than the things that haven't. That's what gets me through it, is realizing just how much more I like my body already, even though the changes have barely just begun. Feeling my soft skin always brings a smile to my face.

Just have to stress that I have to be patient with myself, I keep telling myself only worry about things I can control and just let everything else be. Right now I just need to relax some more and not stress everything, I do try but sometimes its hard to. the positives are that my skins getting fairer, hairs growing back and I'm starting to get boobies. Overall I'm starting to slowly get more comfortable with my body, it's been a great time and I just need a little patience.

Julia it sounds to me like you have a great head on your shoulders. You are being honest with yourself but not letting it really get you down.

Love that proactive self driven attitude to stay positive and remain hopeful