Casual transphobia in the pharmacy at lunchtime, when two guys thought it was ever-so hilarious that one of them needed to buy a bottle of nail polish. And of course, the staff joined in.

I almost threw up this morning, no idea why and i'm feeling sick again, weirdly enough. Like all my strength is slowly being drained from my body.

This is everything in a nutshell...
My car was totaled, and insurance won't pay for it. Me and my gf rode the bus for about a month. Then we got another car. Two weeks later, it falls apart. Then my gf sprained her ankle getting on the bus to look for a second job, so now she can't work. I don't make enough to support us as it is, much less enough to fix the car. I am so stressed about money I just want to curl up in a hole and be forgotten. Plus I won't be able to make it to my therapy appointment that I was FINALLY able to schedule to start the getting on T process. I don't know what to do.

My mum passed away last night. 
Will things not stop happening for a minute?
Divorce, ending my business, becoming homeless and the death of a parent is too much for one month!!!

Quote from: Rowan Rue on July 04, 2013, 02:56:38 PM
My mum passed away last night. 
Will things not stop happening for a minute?
Divorce, ending my business, becoming homeless and the death of a parent is too much for one month!!!

I'm so sorry. I originally wanted to write something that made me unhappy too, but you know what, i'll just leave it. Doesn't feel right.

Quote from: Rowan Rue on July 04, 2013, 02:56:38 PM
My mum passed away last night. 
Will things not stop happening for a minute?
Divorce, ending my business, becoming homeless and the death of a parent is too much for one month!!!

Oh Rowan! I'm sorry. I was just thinking yesterday that I feel bad for your situation as you have so much going on, and now this. *hugs*

Edit: And yeah, seeing Calm's post, I was about to write something that made me unhappy too, but now my little problems seem pretty small in the scheme of things.

I'm so sorry for your loss Rowan.

On top of this, you have so much on your plate. I can't imagine the pain you are going though. But, as was once said in a really great song, "It won't rain all the time." I know you'll get back on your feet. You're a strong woman and someone I admire. *hugs*

Many hugs and tears for you Rowan. Hope you got my PM dear.

Quote from: Rowan Rue on July 04, 2013, 02:56:38 PM
My mum passed away last night. 
Will things not stop happening for a minute?
Divorce, ending my business, becoming homeless and the death of a parent is too much for one month!!!

Giant hugs to you, Rowan. I'm so sorry for your loss. My recent loss left me devastated, I can't imagine what it would be like to lose my mum..

Quote from: Rowan Rue on July 04, 2013, 02:56:38 PM
My mum passed away last night. 
Will things not stop happening for a minute?
Divorce, ending my business, becoming homeless and the death of a parent is too much for one month!!!

Rowan, you don't deserve any of this. You've been an inspiration to people here. I hope things will get better, and that you find the strength you need to ride out the storm.

Please accept my condolences for your loss.

Oh, it's also Friday again.. And again I've been awake since a little after 3AM..

It's 8 weeks today since my heart was torn apart.. Will it ever heal?

Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on July 04, 2013, 04:47:50 PM
Will it ever heal?

There will always be an Alison-shaped hole in it. But as time goes on, hopefully a happier feeling about what she meant to you and about the gift of her in your life might replace some of the pain.

Quote from: Kelly the Trans-Rebel on July 04, 2013, 04:47:50 PM
Oh, it's also Friday again.. And again I've been awake since a little after 3AM..

It's 8 weeks today since my heart was torn apart.. Will it ever heal?

Every time I see one of your posts about this my heart breaks a little for you, Kelly. I agree with what Suzi said. My grandpa passed away almost 7 years ago now, but my mom just cried today when she was doing yardwork, because she would have loved to work on the project with him. She doesn't have anyone else that she has that sort of relationship with. You will always love and miss her, but it's because she enriched your life so much to begin with.

it is 90 degrees in my apartment, I have taken 5 cold showers since I have gotten back from my therapist and it is only 7

It's pretty warm where I'm at also, I take a shower and start sweating again before I can dry off 

I over ate and now my stomach hurts.

Sometimes I am a...(is the P word allowed here? lol) coward. The guy at the convenience store shorted me $5 in change, and I was too anxious to ask for it so. I out 5 bucks. It didn't help that I was convinced he saw me as female (probably  not true, I was just dysphoric), that made my anxiety go through the roof.

I also know he makes sex jokes to my underage brother, which made me uncomfortable too.

Edit: BUT lol while I was waiting for my pizza to cook he helped some other guys. And I realized, I do talk and respond in a rather masculine fashion.

Ignorant people smoking indoors at my apt. complex    If there is one thing that annoys me it is opening my door to get engulfed by a cloud of smoke

Why are so many people so ignorantly inconsiderate?

Unhappy that my cell phone alarm clock never rings.

I've been tripping out over some weird experiences and someone I know has judgement on me basically saying I'm not Christian enough or whatever that means. She talks about how bad her son that I hardly know is doing like he automatically is doing worse. I am starting to think that I would almost rather be a satanist than have to deal with attitudes like hers. Then I had a cab driver that I dealt with yesterday that was giving me a hard time and keep replaying some of the stuff he said over and over in my head and I'm confused and mildly traumatized. I keep thinking like I wish I had more friends or that my friends were better and wondering what is wrong with me and why can't I be like that. Other than that I had some fun times today but just tired of people that mess with me and that's all.